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before it felt like a sin, ch. 1
pairing: Sebastian Sallow x f!MC
word count: 3000
summary: Eloise never wanted to be different.
And yet, her differences are what have defined her life up until this point: growing up as a squib in one of the most prominent wizarding families, being exiled to muggle society, and then attending Hogwarts at the age of sixteen.
She finds herself thrust into the life she should have been prepared for from birth but was denied. As she navigates this new life and her new precarious position in her family, she must come to terms with the fact that maybe what she dreamed of her whole life isn't turning out how she ever expected it would.
a/n: Hi everyone!! I decided to post this here too...I'm slowly going through everything I've written so far, and I want to post each chapter here as I edit them. I'm hoping that this can be a way to a) get back in to writing more, and b) get better at my art as I make full illustrations for each chapter. Let me know what you think!! :)
There is nothing quite as horrible as being a muggle, Eloise thought savagely as she ripped out yet another stitch in the landscape she was embroidering. At least, it was supposed to be a landscape. Maybe with her head tilted to the left and with her eyes almost closed so everything blurred together, it might resemble one. She did just that, trying her hardest to make out some recognizable shape and blast the stupid practice of manually pushing colored thread through a fabric in some sort of -
âAnd what is this, Miss Babbit?â
Eloise jumped at the sound and looked up at the scowling face of her teacher, and then quickly back down at the tangled thread in her lap. Behind her, she could hear the hushed giggles of the other girls in her class.
âOh! ErâŚitâs -â
âHow long have you been here?â the woman interrupted.
âOne hourâŚI just -â
âDonât be smart with me. I mean, at this institute.â
âFive years.â Eloise glared down at her embroidery as if it had personally offended her. It wasnât like she was actively trying to be bad at everything, but she had the distinct disadvantage - how had it ever come to be that she would be at a disadvantage to muggles? - of not having spent a lifetime being prepared for muggle society and all that it entailed. The last five years had been a monotonous, endless cycle of lessons designed to turn her into the perfect lady: French (a waste of time as Eloise was already fluent), embroidery (a waste of time as the things she embroidered werenât actually useful), dancing (a waste of time as she was already engaged to be married - why would she bother trying to woo another silly man?), and her most dreaded class of all: etiquette. No matter how many years had been spent trying to assimilate into muggle culture, her thoughts still got muddled when she tried to remember the steps to a dance, or how to properly address the son of a duke.
Did it really matter, anyways, what the other girls thought? She had pretended her whole life to be the daughter she thought her parents had wanted - now she was simply pretending that she hadnât been thrown into the muggle world without a second thought. What was a bit more pretending - that she didnât care? That she hadnât been tossed aside without a second thought?
âExactly. Five years. And yet, you have shown no progress whatsoever. This -â a finger jabbed accusingly at the embroidery - âis absolutely horrendous. If your parents hadnât continued to make such a sizeable donation every year, I would have deemed you a lost cause and sent you packing when you first arrived. How your family ever managed your betrothal to the son of an earl is beyond me.â
Eloise grimaced at the mention of her fiance as her teacher clapped her hands together to get the attention of the class - a wholly unnecessary action due to the fact that it was already being given. âClass is dismissed. Please collect your belongings and put them in the correct place. Remember, as future wives and mothers, you must be organized in all aspects of your life. Many of you will be managing important households and the slightest misstep -â a slight glance to Eloise out of the corner of her eye - âcan cause the biggest of scandals.â
Eloise raced to gather her things and leave the classroom before everyone else. No matter how many years had been spent at the school, she couldnât help but hate sitting through the classes amongst the judgmental stares and snide remarks. Although things had started out shaky at the finishing school - to be expected, really, when youâve grown up in wizarding society and then are then forced to live as a muggle - it still stung that after all these years, she still hadnât found a friendly face. She was treated as if she were a pariah: it was as if the other girls just knew that something was different about her. ButâŚwasnât that the great irony of it all? She wasnât different than them. She was a filthy squib.
When she first arrived at the school, she was an anomaly. A twelve-year-old girl who didnât know how to play the piano or who the queen was. It was clear to everyone that Eloise wasnât the charity case of the school - her parents were obviously quite wealthy - and yet they seemingly wanted nothing to do with her. Whereas the others got regular letters and visits from their family, it was as if Eloise were an orphan. Nothing new to her of course, but to her peers this otherness aided them in her ostracization.
Upon entering her room, she was abruptly pulled out of her thoughts. Something wasnât right. Everything seemed the same: a twin bed perfectly made opposite a small wardrobe, a plain wooden desk placed between them. The weak afternoon sunlight shone through the window, illuminating her desk. ButâŚthere.
ThatâŚ
Placed on her bed, resting on the pillow, was a letter.
She never received letters.
Eloise shoved her embroidery under her bed and hungrily grabbed at it, pausing when she saw the address. Miss E. Babbit. The Third Bedroom on the LeftâŚÂ It seemed vaguely familiar to her in a way she couldnât quite put her finger on.
As she read the letter, though, it became apparent to her exactly why this was. Although not exactly the same as the one her brother had received six years earlier, it quickly became apparent that this was a Hogwarts letter. For her. For Miss E. Babbit.
Hands shaking, she set the letter down on her desk and sat on the edge of her bed. She smoothed her hands over her skirt over and over, taking comfort in the familiar softness as she tried to even her breathing.
How was this possible? She had all but accepted the fact that she was a squib. The shame of her family, a dirty secret to be hidden away and never talked about or mentioned again. Her parents had suspected as much by the time she had turned seven without any signs of magic whatsoever manifesting around her - not even a basic transformation of brussel sprouts to sweets during dinner. It was ultimately confirmed, however, when her own Hogwarts acceptance letter never arrived. She had spent the whole year before her banishment daydreaming about her life at Hogwarts, still optimistic that there could be something magical inside of her. Her brother, Leo, came home every holiday with wonderful stories of his new friends and teachers, and the subjects he was learning at school. Even back then, at twelve years old, Eloise hadnât been sure if he was actually hopeful she wasnât a squib, or if he had been trying to prolong the fantasy for her before it all came crashing down.
Although she had had five years to come to terms with her new life, there was still a small part of her that hoped. A small âwhat ifâŚâ. She had tried time and time again to squash that tiny ray of optimism that would escape every so often, tried so very hard to cultivate a hard exterior that wouldnât let any sort of vulnerability shine through. And that optimism was a vulnerability, after all. It was that vulnerability that had made it absolutely impossible for her to fit in the muggle world, and made it so that she didnât really want to try.
Five years to come to terms with the fact that she needed a new purpose for her life andâŚ
âŚnot anymore?
Eloise grabbed the letter and greedily read through it again, drinking in all of the words. She paused at the end, thinking. Was this a forgery? Some sort of awful joke orchestrated by her brother? Leo had never been cruel to her in the past; in fact, he was the one who always encouraged her and was the most probable source of the small optimism that remained within her. However, she had no way of knowing how he had changed since she had last seen him. It had been, after all, five very long years. And not once had she heard from him, even though he had promised her through huge sobbing gulps that he would never abandon her. Maybe their parents had slowly poisoned him against her. It would be right on the nose for them, after all.
Looking at the envelope again, howeverâŚThird Bedroom on the LeftâŚno. It was too specific. Nobody in her previous life had any reason to even want to contact her again, and nobody in her current life even knew what Hogwarts was, let alone have the ability to convincingly forge a letter just to have some fun at her expense.
A light, bubbly feeling began to spread throughout her body as it sunk in that this was real. She was going to Hogwarts. Soon, a - squinting at the letter again - a Professor Fig would be contacting her and giving her things to study. A huge grin slowly spread across her face and she hugged the letter to her chest as she fell back on her bed. She read through it again. Was it the fifth time already? It felt as though no amount of times rereading the letter would ever be enough.
Eloise got up and walked over to look at the calendar on her desk. She was surprised to see that September 1st was in only two days. The days at the finishing school moved in such a strange, sluggish way. They all felt the same. Monotonous. French and Latin and embroidery and household management and Merlin even knows what else all blending into each other in an endless parade of dusty classrooms and gossip and boredom.
The light feeling left her in an instant as, after years of practice, the optimism was squashed back down. But how will you even get to London? And, her brain added sneakily, you havenât even shown any signs of magic. Maybe youâll just be returned back here after they realize their mistake.
No, she thought fiercely, gripping the letter. Until -
A tapping came from the window. A tentative smile returned at the sight of a tawny brown owl with another envelope in its beak. She ripped it open as soon as it was in her hands (again addressed to Miss E. Babbit) and along with the letter a small, purple pouch fell out of the envelope and onto her bed.
Miss Eloise Babbit,
I am pleased to be the wizard charged with such an important task as escorting you to Hogwarts in two daysâ time. It is something extraordinary to be accepted in your fifth-year, and as such, I expect extraordinary things from you. I have enclosed a small pouch along with this envelope, and in it are some items that will be vital to you in the upcoming days. I have included books for you to study at your leisure, and a small gobstone that will bring you to our rendezvous point in London. All you have to do is touch it at noon on the 1st and you will be transported instantly.
Your family has not been informed of your acceptance. I am sure you understand why - at this, Eloise scoffed quietly to herself - which is why I will personally be your escort.
I am looking forward to meeting you and bringing you to the sorting ceremony in two daysâ time.
Yours,
Eleazar Fig
The handwriting was tiny and spidery and cramped, but it didnât stop Eloise from reading it with the same vigor as the previous letter and as many times. Finally, she turned to the small pouch that had fallen onto her bed when she opened the second envelope. It must have had an invisible extension charm, because it was filled to the brim with books on basic spellwork and general wizarding history. Professor Fig had no way of knowing, but Eloise had already read many of these books and many more during the year her brother had started Hogwarts, as she had needed to know absolutely everything about what would be awaiting her. A few years may have passed since she had stepped foot in her familyâs library, but she couldnât get the books or their contents out of her brain even if she had wanted to. She had really wanted to forget everything she knew about the magical world when it was confirmed she was a squib but it was a futile effort. As she zoned out during her piano lessons, she would find herself mentally going through the movements to cast different charms.
It was painful to be thinking about things from the life that had been ripped away from her, to know that what she was thinking about would never come to pass, that she would never be able to wield magic - and yet she couldnât find herself able to stop.
As Eloise picked out one of the books and settled into her armchair, a steely resolve overcame her.
She would prove that she deserved to be there, and was just as capable as any of they were. She would make her parents regret ever discarding her like she was nothing.
She was worthy. She was capable. And she would prove it.
The morning of September 1st dawned cold and rainy. Absolutely perfect.
Eloise had pretended to be sick the night before, and no one had suspected a thing when she stayed in bed long after all of the other girls had gotten ready and headed to breakfast. As the last of the chattering faded away down the hallway, Eloise finally got out of bed and prepared herself for the day. It was difficult to sit still long enough to braid her hair. Her fingers wouldnât stop trembling and she had to restart countless times. Finally, she tied the black ribbon at the end into a neat bow and turned to the drawer of her desk to retrieve the small purple pouch she had hidden away.
Everything she deemed important enough to come along with her had already been placed inside: the books from Professor Fig, the hair ribbons gifted to her by her brother many years ago, and some clothing. Nothing else was coming with. She needed the fresh start. Besides, anything else she might need would be supplied, as her acceptance letter had specifically stated that any school supplies would be provided to her.
Waiting the hours before noon came along proved to be more difficult than Eloise had imagined. Time seemed to be moving slower than the molasses that had come with the breakfast sent up to her, the steady patter of the rain becoming a sort of metronome keeping time as she paced back and forth. Wasnât there anything that could distract her, even for a bit? She glanced at the clock. Only five minutes had passed since the last time. 10.35.
The second hand ticking away in tandem with the sound of rain splashing against her window.
What if this was all a trick? What if she arrived at Hogwarts, and they turned her away because they realized they had made a mistake? After all, why would they admit a sixteen-year-old? Surely she was too old; every other student had started Hogwarts at the age of twelve and had shown signs of magic much earlier than that. She still hadnât shown any signs of magical capability whatsoever, and didnât feel any different than she had before receiving the letter. It had to be a fluke.
As her thoughts started veering into the melancholy she was prone to, she shook her head. No. Today was a happy, exciting day. She wasnât going to squash the optimism down today, not when she needed it most. All of these thoughts she was having were simply that: thoughts. Not reality. Hogwarts never made a mistake, and in all of the history books she had read, she couldnât recall an instance of someone being turned away at the door. Granted, she had also never heard of someone being admitted so late. But, better to focus on what she did know, which was that she had gotten the letter. It must be right in its assumption that she had magic.
Trying to pass the time was easier said than done. She ended up quizzing herself on all of the charms she had memorized in the books sent by Professor Fig, moving an imaginary wand in the precise movements needed to successfully cast and focusing on her pronunciation. She had studied all of these forms late into both nights she had had the books, and when she would eventually close her eyes to sleep, the wand movements were all she saw.
Eloise was determined that she would receive pity from nobody. Nobody was going to look at her like she was lacking. She had gotten enough of that to last a lifetime, and now that she was given this opportunity she wasnât about to waste it.
When noon finally struck, Eloise was ready and waiting. She eagerly grabbed the gobstone that was sitting on her desk and felt the familiar tugging sensation in her navel as she was whisked away to London and the beginning of her new life.
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library affections - rafe cameron x fem!reader
pairing: rafe cameron x fem!reader
synopsis: there are two things that you love in this world; rafe and books
word count: 0.9k
warnings/tags: none, just fluff with sweet boyfriend!rafe
a/n: hi everyone! i don't think i can ever thank you all enough for your support in all of my works :< tbh i did not expect to gain so much interaction because this blog is still relatively new but here you all are and i appreciate each and every one of you <3 this fic is another fluff boyfriend!rafe fic (is it obvious that i like fluff so much lmao) and i've written this a while ago. i hope you'll like this one! if you have a request or prompt in mind, feel free to send me a message. happy reading!
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Being a regular visitor at the Camerons' estate has familiarized you with every corner of the house. Now, you have memorized every room and decoration, immediately spotting whatever is newly added. The Camerons didn't mind your presence, with your family being a close friend of theirs. Thus, it was no surprise that you ended up dating the one and only son of Ward Cameron.
With his father and stepmother often occupied and his sisters frequently out with friends, you and Rafe usually find yourselves with the house to yourselves, save for the occasional presence of the household staff. Yet, you've never minded.
Today follows a similar pattern. Ward left for a morning meeting, Wheezie went to school, and Sarah departed at noon to join John B's group. Surprisingly, even Rafe isn't home, having agreed to a golf outing with Topper and Kelce. Although he initially invited you to join, you declined, preferring to avoid the "boy talk" and the scorching sun. Thus, you find yourself waiting for Rafe in the living room, idly scrolling through your phone.
It's been around two in the afternoon when you got bored, sighing and deciding to stand up to walk around the house. Your feet already know where you're going when you face the familiar entrance to the Camerons' Library.
This room is your most loved spot in the whole estate, apart from Rafe's room. The vast shelves of bright book covers from different times always amaze you. If you could, you'd live in this room. Rafe has found you exploring this library countless times; even his sisters know it's the first place to check when you're not around the house.
Quickly scanning the shelves for a book, you settled upon a fantasy fiction novel, clutching the book as you made your way to a couch by the window. The first few chapters had you hooked immediately, eyes rapidly passing through every word as you moved chapter by chapter. The book was so good that it blanked your other senses, making you jump when you suddenly heard Rafe's voice.
"I knew you'd be here." He smirked, still in his golfing outfit, as he stood over you.
"Hi, Rafe." You smiled up at him, putting the book down on your lap. "How's golfing?"
Rafe plopped beside you, stretching his legs and putting an arm around your shoulder. "It was good. I got bored with Top's whining about his break-up with Sarah, so I left."
You chuckled when you saw his eyes roll, a dramatic sigh escaping his lips. "They were together for a long time. You can't blame him."
"I guess." He shrugged before flashing you a flirty grin. "But I also want to spend time with my girl."
You snorted. "Yeah, okay."
"What? I do! I feel guilty about leaving you here alone." He defended.
"I don't mind, Rafe." You spoke.
"Hm. I bet you don't. But still."
You raised your brows, silently urging him to explain what he meant.
"I just mean that you were too distracted by that book, baby. I could've been an intruder, but you wouldn't even know. What is that about anyway?"
Your eyes lit up at his question; you've always loved speaking about the books you've read. And Rafe loved hearing you talk, even if he's mostly confused.
"I just started reading it, so I don't really know what it's about yet, but there's this girl, and she has electricity powers!" You started excitedly.
Rafe listened intently. He couldn't help but feel affection for you, marveling at how your eyes sparkled with passion for the story. Despite the chaotic world outside, at this moment, it was just the two of you, surrounded by the tranquility of the library.
As you continued to talk, Rafe's mind wandered, reflecting on how much you meant to him. You were the one person who could effortlessly penetrate his tough exterior, revealing the softer, more vulnerable side of him that he often kept hidden from the world. He felt at ease with you, free to be himself without fear of judgment or ridicule.
Lost in his thoughts, Rafe reached out, gently tucking a loose strand of hair behind your ear. You paused mid-sentence, startled by the sudden touch, before leaning into his hand, relishing the warmth of his touch.
"Hey, what's wrong?" you asked, concern lacing your voice as you noticed the distant look in his eyes.
Rafe shook his head, a small smile playing on his lips. "Nothing, I'm just... happy. Happy to be here with you."
A soft blush colored your cheeks as you met his gaze, feeling the warmth spread through your chest. At that moment, surrounded by the scent of old books and the soft glow of sunlight filtering through the window, you couldn't imagine being anywhere else.
Leaning in, Rafe pressed a tender kiss to your forehead, his lips lingering for a moment before pulling away. "I love you," he whispered, his voice barely above a whisper but filled with sincerity.
"I love you too," you replied, your heart swelling with emotion as you returned his affectionate gaze.
With a contented sigh, Rafe settled back against the couch, pulling you closer until you were nestled against his side. Together, you sat in comfortable silence, basking in the simple pleasure of each other's company.
At that moment, surrounded by the familiar comforts of the library, you knew that no matter what the future held, as long as you had each other, everything would be okay.
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would you maybe write a Katie McCabe fic with a reader whoâs never really had a relationship before so missed out on all the cliche teenage love moments in their teenager years so now that theyâre in a relationship Katie goes out of her way to try and make up for all the things she missed and reader just gets to see a whole new, loving side of Katie.
teenage dream - katie mccabe
katie mccabe x reader
description: in which youâve never been in a relationship, when you miss out on the lovey dovey moments, your girlfriend helps you out
warnings: fluffy fluffy, swearing
a/n: ahh!! such a cute request, made my heart all fuzzy, thank you, lovely, enjoy â¤ď¸
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your girlfriend, katie, is a very. determined. woman. she would do anything for you, without a question, without a second thought, without a doubt, sheâs there, and she wants to make sure you know that.
when you stumbled into the arsenal training facility for the first time with your big, curious eyes and sheepish smile, she knew she needed to have you, and that was her plan exactly.
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you had just been signed to arsenal from sydney fc back in australia. moving to england, specifically to london was one of the scariest thoughts you could muster, leaving everything you knew behind to start a new chapter of your life at just 25.
but thankfully, you had your matildas teammates to help you along the way, fitting in almost immediately and settling into a place you now considered home.
the arsenal girls were your family amongst all the chaos and you truly loved everyone, a particular irish, however, caught your heart more than others.
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it was one of your first training sessions. you were partnered up with steph, kicking the ball to each other back and forth until she sent the ball way over your head, unfortunately landing right at the back of katie mccabeâs head.
âwhat the fuck!â she groans, hand cradling the back of her head before turning with a glare to figure out who the culprit was.
only, when she turned around to see your shocked face, she visibly relaxed, offering you a charming smile as you apologised profusely.
âkatie, oh my god, iâm so sorry! steph kicked it really hard and then i tried to get it, but it went straight to your head, and then-â you ramble, the words coming out of your mouth faster than your brain could think.
âyou know, sweetheart, if you wanted my attention, all you had to do was ask?â she grins, you blink and look at her in a dazed state, your cheeks lightly dusted with pink as you looked at each other.
she chuckles at your expression, taking a step forward to be directly in front of you.
âo-oh, umâ you stutter, she smiles reassuringly but your brain couldnât comprehend anything coherent at all.
âdid you want the ball back?â she asks amusingly, all you can do is nod, katie smiles and places the ball into your hands, purposefully grazing her fingers against yours, she smirks at the way your breath hitched at nothing but a simple graze of your fingers, she loved this.
you thank her softly before rushing over to steph, cupping your flushed face while she looks at you amusingly. you fan yourself and steal little glances at katie only to see she was already analysing your every move. the fluidity of your movements leaving her in a hypnotised state.
you were both driving each other crazy.
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katie didnât try to hide her advances on you, the whole team would tease you for your reactions to her flirting and katie relished the whole situation.
she loved that she made you all shy to the point where you couldnât look at her, even when she was basically doing nothing.
from small gestures of holding the door open for you, handing you your water bottle, helping you put on your tracker, you were a blushing mess. it was even worse when she would shower you with compliments.
âhey, beautiful, i like your boots, or maybe i just like the girl wearing themâ sheâd call out cheekily from next to you in the change room, âthank youâ you say bashfully, making her grin widely as she analysed your face, knowing your brain was malfunctioning.
sheâd always spot you in the gym and it was obvious to anyone that the two of you liked each other from every interaction you had.
youâd be training weights and katie would make an effort to linger around you just in case you âneededâ help.
âhold on, babe, let me help youâ sheâd laugh softly, before you even got to attempt to lift the weight off the rack, katie was there behind you with a soft smile.
sheâd hover her hands by your sides as youâd squat the weight, giving you encouraging words and smiles that had your body burning.
âtwo more, darlinâ, come onâ she cheered, when you finished the set, she grinned happily, âgood girlâ she praised, placing a hand on your shoulder and giving it a gentle squeeze.
âsmashed it, didnât even need meâ she grins, ânah, i did, thanks, katieâ you breathe out, smiling at her when she handed you your water bottle with a wink before walking away, leaving you a blushing mess that steph and caitlin were pissing themselves laughing about.
âstunned mullet over hereâ caitlin teases, you roll your eyes and push her off you when she attempts to kiss your cheek, steph laughs at the two of you as you bicker like kids. you like katie and you were sure of it now.
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surprisingly, you were the one who made the first move, tired of all her teasing and wanting to take that next step forward. you cornered her after a game one day and she was extremely surprised to say the least.
when you dragged her to the car park by her hand, she interlaced your fingers on instinct and smiled at you affectionately when you squeezed them for comfort.
âkatieâ you start, âmhm, thatâs me, gorgeousâ she grins, pulling you slightly closer by your hand.
âi was just wondering if you wanted to..um, i donât know, go for a coffee or something tomorrow?â you ask nervously, katie was smiling so hard, her cheeks were starting to hurt.
âwhat, like a date?â she assured, her grin not once dropping at your new found confidence. maybe you were around her too much.
âum, yeahâ you mumble, she moves to grab your other hand and pulls you forward, looking at you lovingly. âiâd love toâ she kisses your cheek quickly and you try not to let your knees buckle from under you,
âthank you for asking, babeâ she places her hand on your bicep and holds it gently, you smile up at her and nod, letting her walk you to her car, departing with a sweet kiss to her cheek that had her stomach swarming with butterflies.
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when you went to coffee the next day, it was like youâd known each other for years. you were so similar, both of you would talk excitedly about random things while you learnt more about each other.
katie was incredibly respectful, she just did everything right that you couldnât fault her. she was perfect. she made you feel so incredibly comfortable, she loved that you were so authentically yourself, she loved everything about you.
katie made you so comfortable in fact, about 4 dates in, youâd told her all about your relationship history.
youâd always been in talking stages with people but nothing would ever come of it, she was incredibly understanding and supportive, listening intently to your every word as she caressed your hand for comfort.
in her head, she was planning all the ways she was going to spoil you, to make you giddy in puppy love. she was incredibly determined to give you everything you deserved.
so, when katie asked you to be her girlfriend, she was proud knowing she was your first.
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when you were at her house cuddling and watching a rom com, youâd expressed mindlessly how you wanted that teenage lovey dovey experience and katie made an immediate mental note to give you that. gently kissing your cheek with a sly grin as you both watched the movie.
the next day, youâd arrived at training to see your locker with little heart sticky notes stuck all over it. you gasp and moved closer, opening up your locker to see a small bouquet of flowers with a little note attached to them,
âpretty flowers for my pretty girl, from your secret admirer -kâ you were borderline almost in tears over the small gesture, your heart clutching at the thought of her remembering your conversation.
when you went into the change room to find katie chatting to leah, she was left breathless when you rushed over and pulled her into a sweet kiss, letting out a little noise of surprise into your mouth.
she immediately pulled you closer by your hips and smiled into your mouth, you pulled back with a quick peck to her lips.
she smiles brightly when you pull away, you wrap your arms around her neck and tugged her into a hug.
she sways you gently while you thanked her, smiling at leah to see she was recording the two of you with her phone with her own bright grin on her face.
you wouldnât let go, holding her close to you in an attempt to convey everything you were feeling. she hums at your embrace, her hands gently caressing your waist as she holds you close.
giggling and whispering in your ear as you hold her. you kiss her cheek and part from her reluctantly when you had to change for training.
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you both had a day off the next day and katie had convinced you to head out on a date. a mini carnival on a sunday afternoon being the location.
youâd walked around hand in hand giggling and chatting amongst the carnival, stopping for photos whenever the two of you were asked.
you both ate carnival food and went on rides, the bright smiles for both of you being the only expressions youâd had all day.
then, katie spotted a photobooth and she immediately dragged you over. there were four photos, katie had you perched up on her lap with her arms wrapped firmly around your middle.
the first photo was the two of you with happy faces with your cheeks smushed together.
one of you kissing katieâs cheek while she closes her eyes in a giggle.
the next one was katie following suit, grabbing your face and jokingly biting your cheek while you laugh.
and the last one, katie pulling you into a loving kiss, the light pink evident on both of your faces.
she grins at you while she watches you look over the photos with a love sick expression.
you really felt like a teenager at this moment, feeling so giddy over the girl, you were so grateful for her.
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now whenever the two of you are in the gym, katie uses you as the weight, knowing that it made you giggle.
as soon as she saw you in the room, she gestures for you to come closer with her finger, a smirk evident on her face.
âcome here, babyâ she entices, you roll your eyes amusingly and make your way to where she was sitting. you stand in between her legs with your hands on her shoulders as she held your hips, looking up at you as you brushed away a loose hair that fell from her ponytail.
she only let the embrace happen for a few seconds until she lifts you up bridal style, squatting with your weight like it was nothing. every time sheâd get up sheâd hoist you up in her arms and you would yell and giggle at the height, holding onto her for dear life even though you know sheâd never drop you.
âkatie!â you giggle when she peppers your cheek with kisses while she held you, feeling her smile against your skin.
âmhm?â she mumbles, moving to your other cheek and continuing her little kiss attack. you laugh brightly when she moves her lips around your face before she moves to kiss your lips gently, lasting for a few seconds until she put you on the ground.
she smiles satisfyingly at your pink cheeks, making an effort to playfully slap your behind when you bent down to pick up her water.
âeasy, mccabeâ you taunt, passing her the water with a kiss on her cheek, she chuckles and takes a sip while she winks at you before she helps spot you as usual.
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everyday with katie offered something new, she absolutely spoilt you with an amount of love you didnât even know was possible.
it only got more intense when you moved in together, happily and easily calling you cooperâs other mum.
not to say you didnât spoil her either, you showed your appreciation to katie through simple gestures that she was incredibly grateful for.
there was a lot of love and mutual respect for one another that was obvious to anyone and you both couldnât be happier.
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⌠MARLEY AND ME âăELLIE WILLIAMSăâ CHAPTER FOUR
pairing: modern!ellie williams x single mom!reader
summary: youâre a single mom just doing the best that she can to make ends meet. ellie canât help but think that you're the kindest, most beautiful girl that sheâs ever met. compared to taking care a little girl that's in her terrible twos, coming to terms with the fact that youâre a lesbian is a walk in the park. awkward first encounters, ellieâs broken gay-dar, and her overwhelming urge to take care of the care-giver. . . the road to domesticity is a long one, but itâs well worth the pining that it takes to get there.
warnings: eventual substance use, no use of y/n (you have nicknames/petnames), the reader is marleyâs biological mother, talk of coming to terms with ones sexuality, mention of a shitty baby daddy ( though there is no co-parenting between them), ellie is a total girl mom, lots and lots of fluff, ellie is an anxious dork in this fic, reader is broke but happy, ellie takes pride in being a provider, this is going to be a multi-part fic, ellie is an absolute simp for the reader since chapter one and will remain her #1 fan.
The knock on the door is to the tune âHead Over Heelsâ- or at least you think it is. Ellie doesnât have enough time to fully get through the chorus before youâre yanking it open, cheeks flushed all pretty and eyes wide. They glitter in the dim sunlight like jewels, staring up at her like she was the one that hung the moon. Ellieâs got that same dumb look on her face; mossy eyes wrinkled at the corners from the force of her smile. You would never know that sheâs been up since seven oâclock in the morning, cramming for an exam that she had aced. Sheâd talked to Joel for the fifteen minutes that it took to get to your house, bragging on and on about how much easier it had been than sheâd initially thought that it would be.
He let her brag. Of course he did. She wasnât quite as talkative as she had been when she was a teenager, but she was still famous for her little tangents. Joel was good at listening, and Ellie? Well, she was a professional yapper. It was a match made in heaven.
Ellie smells like lavender, musk and patchouli incense. The scent of it clings to her hair and clothes. Sheâd mentioned a couple of times that she was a daily smoker, but she made sure to go out of her way to never smell when she was over at your place. The thought of your daughter cuddling to her when she smelled. . . funky made her cringe.
Thereâs a moment of appreciative silence as she stands on your front porch. The two of you just stare at each other, breathing the scent of each other in. The novelty still isnât lost as far as your courting goes either. You canât imagine the nervous butterflies ever going away. Theyâve made a cage out of your ribs, fluttering away madly in your chest.
âHey,â She breathes through her smile, her eyes dancing over your features. âDid I miss anything exciting?â
You look absolutely exhausted. Gorgeous, but exhausted nonetheless. Ellie has noticed that you do a very good job at putting others' needs before your own. Youâd been at work for two whole hours before Ellie had even woken up this morning, and now you felt like you were on autopilot. Youâd walked to your momâs to pick Marley up, gotten her bathed and dressed in little play overalls and now the two of you were spending some quality time together. You could barely keep your eyes open, and yet you knew that you wouldnât be able to get your screaming toddler to sleep for at least another three hours.
âMarles and I are making homemade play-doh right now,â You opened the door wider, tempting her into the house with a sweet smile. Who was Ellie to deny you of all people? âSheâs been excited ever since I told her that you were coming over.â
Marley had taken to Ellie like a bee to honey.
The college student hadnât had too many opportunities to be around children- especially ones as young as Marley was. She was unfamiliar with the tiny sticky hands, drooly mouths and unpredictable attitudes. Still, she was a natural. Marley gravitated towards her. Ellie was sure that the constant presents and sweet treats buttered her up, but she would be selling herself short if she claimed that those were the only reason that your daughter loved her so much.
Your three year old babbled from the kitchen, excitedly trying to piece together a sentence. Ellie closed the door behind herself, only to sweep you up into a bone crushing hug. Your laugh was muffled by the fabric of her soft cotton button up as you nuzzled your face into her neck. Closer, closer, closer. If she could absorb you into her body she would. It was hard to describe the level of admiration she felt for you. It was too early to classify it as âloveâ, but she supposed she did love you and Marley. Being in your house, as small as it was, felt right to her.
âI missed you.â You mumbled, arms fastened tight around her waist.
She barely had enough time to brush a gentle peck to your lips before Marley was bounding around the corner, bare feet slapping against the linoleum floors. Youâd recently learned that wearing socks wasnât a good idea. Your poor little girl had slipped and fallen far too many times for your liking.
Marley had become more comfortable in her body, which meant she was now running, jumping and climbing. Just a year ago you had been relieved that she could walk by herself without you holding her hand, and now keeping her off of your furniture was an impossible task. Nothing had prepared you for the constant changes that came with motherhood. You blinked and suddenly she was sassy and genuinely funny. She complimented you when you were wearing something unusually flashy and wanted you to put blush on her while you were getting the both of you ready so that she could âlook like mommyâ.
You never expected anyone outside of your family and close friends to appreciate your daughter in the same way that you did.
But then there was Ellie.
Self indulgent. Waking up this happy felt sinful.
Your fingers gently glide over her gentle planes and curves, making a map in your mind of every inch of her. Each freckles a continent, each line a river.
You didnât want to wake Ellie, too frightened that you might break whatever magic spell was currently suspended in the air between the two of you. This moment between you felt too good to be true, and that scarred little voice inside of you that you loathed so much was begging you to enjoy this while it lasted.
You were always waiting for the other shoe to drop.
Happiness was fleeting. You felt like you didnât deserve whatever was going on between the two of you. Your entire identity for the last three years has been summed up in a singular label: â a motherâ. You were a sexless, wantless, selfless creature meant only to teach and please. How dare you need a night off. How dare you choose yourself over an abusive relationship. How dare you need, want, desire, change.
But this? This was nice.
No, it was better than nice. Great? No. . . It was perfect. She was perfect. And that terrified you. Ellie scared the absolute shit out of you, and yet you couldnât take a step back. It was like you were falling head first for a very, very long time. The ground is nowhere in sight.
You were free falling and you had no clue where you would end up when all was said and done. It felt selfish to put so much effort and care into so many new things at once. Especially since those new things could shatter your heart into a million pieces at any second. You knew that Ellie didnât owe you anything. She was nice enough to give you a chance despite all of your faults. Your baggage had become too heavy for you to hold at times, so how could you ever expect someone else to help pick up the slack?
You werenât even sure what the two of you were doing together. The two of you hadnât put a label on your relationship, but sheâd brought you flowers yesterday when she popped by for a movie night. Sheâd even gotten a small bouquet for Marley, who was far too small to appreciate them for longer than five minutes.
Ellie wasnât your girlfriend, but sheâd slipped Marleyâs shoes on for her before youâd all left the house last night to pick up dinner. Ellie wasnât your girlfriend, but sheâd spent the night with you last night in your bed. Ellie wasnât your girlfriend, but sheâd held you all throughout the night.
She didnât even try to get handsy at all last night, probably having seen the exhaustion written all over your face. She kissed you because she wanted to show you affection. She held you because she wanted to be close.
What you didnât know was that Ellie felt the same way that you did. She was lost as to when to ask the dreaded âwhat are we?â question. The thought of pushing you away or losing you was agonizing, so instead she had deluded herself into thinking that she didnât have to define things. It was clear that she liked you, right?
Sheâd never felt this way about anybody before. This wasnât like any other crushes sheâd had in the past. She felt fresh and new. Ellie even felt like she looked a bit different when she looked in a mirror. There was a glow to her; a sense of happiness that wasnât just rare for her but something that she had once deemed an impossibility. She felt changed for the better.
It was easy to love Marley. It had happened naturally- like breathing. You donât have to remember how to breathe. . . it just happens. With you it was different. Obsessive, maddening, all inhabiting affection. Youâd wrapped your dainty hands around her heart tight, tight, tight. Every skip and butterfly is a gentle reminder that this was something. The both of you are something, and that is enough.
She smiles before she even has her eyes open. She can feel your fingers on her bare arms, and for a second she ponders whether or not sheâs in heaven. . . or perhaps still dreaming. Waking up in your bed, the scent of your shampoo on all of the pillows and your soft hands on her- she could die right there, your room, her tomb. The headboard, her headstone.
âAre you real?â She whispers, her voice hoarse and still thick with sleep. Sheâs looking at you with those great, big green eyes. Your eyes are glued to the small collection of freckles just above her top lip, but you hear her.
âMâ real.â You mumble out a confirmation, propping your head up on your hand so that you can lean over her. You know your hair is a mess. . . but sheâs studying your face with a silent sort of appreciation that has your throat feeling thick with emotion.
Sheâs soft. Ellieâs soft and wants to take care of you. She showers you and your daughter with affection without ever having to be asked to. Why? Because she wants to do it. You find it hard to believe that anyone would want to go out of their way like this. Especially for someone like you. You were a young mother who hadnât gone to college. You lived in a tiny house, operated paycheck to paycheck, and had a few stretch marks on your tummy. You werenât perfect. Not like Ellie deserved.
So why was she looking at you like that?
Oh god, how she stared at you. Her eyes were velvet soft as her eyes flickered over your face, taking in every feature. Sheâd never woken up next to you before. Your bedhead and glassy eyes had her heart blooming with warmth. The ceiling fan had a few strands of your hair falling into your eyes. She took the opportunity to tuck them behind your ear, feeling the softness of your skin. She committed that to memory too.
âI really like this.â Ellie finally admits, bottom jaw quivering a bit. She fiddles with her fingers under your comforter, a nervous habit.
âWhat?â You ask her incredulously. If Ellieâs eyes werenât open sheâd still know you were smiling. She could hear it in the way you spoke, and it had her seeing stars. And Ellie really, really loved stars. âLooking at my bedhead? You better not take any pictures.â You were already smoothing your hair down with your hands, brushing through a few tangles.
She caught your arms, shaking her head the best she could with it still resting on your pillows. âWaking up next to you. Being here with you two- this is really nice.â It was more than nice, but she didnât want to scare you away by coming on too strongly.
You opened your mouth, getting ready to agree with her, but the familiar sound of tiny feet had you sitting up fully so that you could turn and face the doorway. You shot Ellie an apologetic smile, but she merely shook her head, sitting up as well with a small smile. She didnât seem burdened by the existence of your daughter, which was something you werenât used to.
Marleyâs hair was an absolute disaster, per usual. It looked like sheâd been caught headfirst in a tornado,wispy hairs bobbing as she shuffled closer to the bed in her footie pajamas. She had insisted on wearing them last night despite the fact that it wasnât exactly cold enough for them. Her cheeks were pink and it was obvious that she had sweat in her sleep last night. You felt a tinge of guilt for letting her get her way, praying that Ellie didnât think you were a bad mother for giving in so easily to her sweet demands. Sometimes it was impossible to say no to her.
She stood at the side of the bed for a few seconds, eyes still half lidded and dazed with sleep. For a second she just stared at you and Ellie, as if trying to connect the dots that someone else was in your house. It was incredibly unusual to have guests over at the house. . . well, that was before Ellie. Marley climbed up onto the bed, pushing away your eager hands when you tried to reach out for her.
Your little girl was headed straight for Ellie. You bit the inside of your cheek, feigning a look of jealousy when Marley wrapped her tiny arms around the other womanâs neck. Ellieâs eyes widened as she held the small girl to her chest, cheeks growing warm when she realized just how much your daughter liked her. She wanted to blame the constant presents and sweet treats, but that wasnât the case. Marley loved Ellie because she was patient with her. She took the time to sit down with her, ask her questions- hell, Ellie even played with her, which your own mother often wasnât in the mood to do.
âI canât believe you, Marles.â You gasped out, nose wrinkling in faux dismay. You rubbed her arm up and down, trying to gently get her attention. Marley looked up at you through her long lashes, plopping her head down on Ellieâs shoulder in a very dramatic, very Marley fashion.
âShe chose me fair and square.â Ellie boasted, using her hand to try and smooth down her crazy bedhead.
You took a mental picture, eyes pinching at the corners with the force of your smile. Marley had curled herself up into a ball and didnât seem prepared to budge any time soon. Ellie didnât even attempt to hand her off to you. Instead the woman stood up with a small groan, her black sweatpants hanging low on her waist. You tried not to stare at the exposed flesh of her stomach as her tank top rode up but failed miserably. The brunette turned her head to face you, having felt the heat of your gaze, and the both of you exchanged a knowing smile.
âShe has her legs pulled up to her chest,â Ellie said with a chuckle, her arms secured tightly around your child. âYouâre like a little potato.â She pressed a quick kiss to Marleyâs hair when the tiny girl started giggling at the comparison.
âMâ not!â Marley squealed, sticky hands tanging into Ellieâs cropped hair. You watched as she gave her hair a tug, your stomach tensing in panic.
You started to stand up, ready to scold your daughter for her rough treatment, but Ellie was already walking down the hall. You sat in disbelief for a second, questioning whether or not you should go in and check on the two of them. You so rarely had time to yourself like this. It felt wrong to take advantage of this opportunity, but you had a feeling that Ellie had done this on purpose.
Was she trying to drop hints that you looked bad? You were absolutely exhausted last night, so you wouldnât be surprised if your face was a mess and your clothes in disarray. You anxiously raked through your hair, kicking the tangled sheets off of your legs so that you could run to the nearest mirror.
âAre pancakes for breakfast alright?â Ellie had ducked her head back into the bedroom, a beaming Marley still propped up on her hip. You jumped at the sudden voice, glaring in her direction as she chuckled at your expense.
You werenât used to being so hard on yourself as far as your appearance goes. Impressing people, these days, was the last thing on your mind. Ellie felt the same way though. Sheâd be a liar if she said that she hadnât checked herself out in the mirror you had in the living room, anxious that she looked like hammered dog shit after drooling all over your pillow.
The weight of your head on her chest had her sleeping like a damn baby last night. Marley had acted as a wonderful distraction from her own embarrassment, especially when she realized the back of her hair was practically sticking straight up.
What you didnât know was that sheâd never spent the night with a girl. Not romantically, at least. The both of you were in the exact same anxious boat, and while Ellie knew that she was your first, you had no inkling that you were a lot of her firsts as well.
âPancakes?â You parroted back to her, wetting your dry lips.
You began tallying up totals in your head, trying to figure out whether or not you had the cash to grab breakfast. You would like to treat Ellie and Marley. . . but after paying the water and the power bill two days ago, you barely had enough to put gas in your car. You felt your cheeks heating up as you tried to come up with a nice way to say âI donât have the money for pancakesâ without sounding like a shitty adult and an even shittier mother.
Ellie could see the way you were over thinking things, her eyes nervously flickering to your closet. You only had a few articles of clothing for yourself, and yet sheâd never seen Marley wear the same outfit twice. Sheâd seen you with your calculator at the grocery store, nervously staring at a total. She knew that you werenât financially secure- you were a young single mother. The brunette smiled at you, shoving her hands in her pockets as she leaned against the doorframe.
âI make really good pancakes, and it looks like you have everything I need. Marley would be an amazing help too. Sheâd make my job a lot easier.â She rocked back on the heels of her gray socks, biting the inside of her cheek as she looked at you.
You looked nervous, tired, and adorable as hell. Your band t-shirt was rumpled with sleep and you were standing in tiny white socks, all self conscious and overly critical. She wanted to kiss you⌠but she hadnât brushed her teeth.
âLet me go ahead and take her to the bathroom first,â You ran through your daily checklist in your mind, though not forgetting to flash her a thankful smile that nearly had the girlâs legs buckling. âOh! Uh. . . I have an extra toothbrush. You can have it. Do you want to use the restroom first? Itâll give me some time to get her outfit together for the day.â
Ellie wanted to be selfless and tell you that she didnât want to go first, but her breath was probably stale and the last thing she wanted was for you to be grossed out by her. She couldnât fuck this up. She refused to.
You found Marley in her bedroom, having already strewn toys around the room. You let out a small huff of breath, realizing that today was probably going to be a rough one. Each day was different with your little girl. One day she was a perfect angel, only doing what she was told. Other days. . . well, rambunctious didnât fully encompass her level of energy. Today was going to be one of those days.
âAlrighty, Marles! Letâs pick out a pretty outfit, alright?â You started to walk to her closet, but froze as she began shaking her head. âYou donât want to put on a dress? Or what about some overalls so you can play better?â
âNo!â She screamed, running to the other side of her room so that she could grab a few more stuffed animals off of her bed. She tossed those on the ground too, even going as far as to plop down on the floor.
You had hoped that Ellie wouldnât see this. At least. . . not so soon into the relationship. If she couldnât accept Marley on bad days like this then you knew she wasnât the right person for you, but still- you had hoped to slowly introduce this lifestyle to her. Not flat out throw her to the metaphorical wolves. Or. . . to Marley. You felt your bottom lip quiver, but you caught it between your teeth, giving it a few nervous chews before you sat down next to her.
âDo you want to stay in your pajamas?â Your tone was nothing but loving and patient. You were used to this, but Ellie wasnât. You could only pray that she could accept you. All of you.
âYes! Please, mommy.â She was getting better at articulating her thoughts and feelings. You found it impossible to deny her when she spoke to you like this. Especially when she asked politely.
So you found herself nodding, flashing her a megawatt smile that she happily returned. You could make a special day out of this. Pancakes and pajamas? It sounded heavenly.
âYouâre so polite, baby girl! Alright, weâll stay in our pajamas today. How about that? And Ellie said that youâre going to help her make breakfast. Are you going to be a big help?â
âYeah.â She replied, already focused on the baby doll in front of her.
Her hands were still stained a little pink from making the play-doh last night. Once she remembers that she has that to play with too, you can only imagine the mess sheâll make on your dining room table.
Youâre beautiful and patient. Ellie watches the two of you interact from the hallway, her breath all minty and her smile all wide. She thinks that she can live like this forever.
And she prays that she gets to.
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summary â you love books, and spencer can't figure out why you don't have a single one inside your apartment. his only solution is, of course, to buy you some.
warnings â swearing, reader has a toxic ex
pairing â spencer agnew x fem!mythical reader
pronouns â none (you/yours)
featuring â spencer agnew, nicole enayati, vianai austin (mentioned), kiana parker (mentioned)
word count â 1.8k
note â as someone who LOVES mythical kitchen i've been toying around with the idea of spencer and someone from that show or even just mythical in general, also she was speaking to me she told me she's a bookworm i don't make the rules sorry. thank you so much for all the love on my last two spencer fics <333 hope you enjoy
LAâs a big city; itâs loud, itâs dirty, and itâs busy. Working in the industry you do, you donât have a whole lot of calmness in your life, which is why you make it your personal mission to make your apartment as soft and cozy as possible.Â
You pile your couch with throw blankets and pillows, you have lamps where you can control the brightness, you hang art on the walls and you love it there. You layer your rugs and you keep candles on every shelf. Your apartment is one hundred percent yours, and thatâs the reason Spencer likes spending time there as much as he does.Â
You and Spencer are a fairly new couple, youâve only been together a few weeks, and he still canât quite believe the two of you are together. You work in the Mythical side of the office as a producer and sometimes on-camera for Mythical Kitchen so the two of you see each other fairly often but not every single day.
He likes to think he knows you pretty well â he is your boyfriend. But one of his favorite parts about being in this relationship with you is getting to learn more about you. Neither of you are shooting anything today so he decides to drop by your desk during his lunch break. Youâre on yours too, you and Nicole are chatting across your desks, you have half a wrap in one hand and a folded over paperback novel in the other and Spencer brightens at seeing you.
âHi, babe,â he drops a kiss on your hairline, leaning over and peering at what youâre doing. âI was gonna see if you wanted to go for lunch with me but you seem to have it covered.âÂ
You tilt your head back to look him in the eye, face lighting up. âHi! I didnât know you were coming over here.â
He shrugs, leaning on the back of your chair. Nicole excuses herself to go meet Vi for lunch like they planned and offers Spencer her chair while sheâs gone so he doesnât have to hover. Spencer watches you smile up at her as she leaves and canât stop the frown from making its way onto his face.Â
âYouâre not going with them?â From what he knew, the three of you were really good friends, at the very least close coworkers. Seeing Nicole talk about her plans with your mutual friend right in front of you without inviting you felt⌠not wrong, but definitely weird.
You just shake your head. âNo, Thursdays I usually eat by myself, they go out somewhere.â You catch the look on Spencerâs face and amend yourself quickly. âThey do invite me, I just prefer to eat my lunch at my desk, I can get a chapter or two in before they get back.â
Spencer looks down at the paperback in your hand again. âWhatâre you reading?â
You hold it up for him. Itâs an older book, with frayed edges and a peeling vinyl cover, a grainy lighthouse on the front. He takes it when you offer it and flicks through it, careful not to disturb the bookmark. âI was gonna take it back to the library on Saturday and get a new one, but I can come over after that?â
Spencer shakes his head, only now just seeing the Los Angeles Public Library sticker on the back cover. âCan I come with you? Unless thatâs like, something you wanna do by yourself or whatever? I didnât know you went to the library.â
You take the book back and put it on your desk, out of the way. You and Spencer have wordlessly begun to split the wrap that youâd packed for lunch, something youâd made at home that made his mouth water. âYeah, of course you can come. I go most weeks, I try to read a book every week but sometimes, yâknow,â you gesture around the office.
Thatâs how Spencer finds himself on the steps of the LAPL for what he believes to be the first time. Heâd been to libraries before, obviously, but not since leaving Florida, and not for a long time. He knows you like to read, thereâs often a paperback in your hand or your purse or your car, itâs your quiet time activity. He just assumed you bought your own books, but getting to walk hand in hand with you through the stacks as you browse, he definitely sees the appeal.Â
You find your new book of the week and hold it up to him gleefully, and you donât even have to pull him along to the desk for him to follow you dutifully. Spencer would let you stay in there for hours, gazing lovingly over at you as you talk familiarly with the librarian.Â
Eventually, you cut yourself off and excuse yourself to return to your boyfriend, knowing that his ideal weekend plans probably didnât include letting you drag him around the library. You really like Spencer, you donât want to hijack all of your time together.Â
Spencer hasnât even considered that. In fact, he is actively planning the next time that the two of you can come back, desperate to see you so happy again. Desperate to make you that happy.Â
It becomes almost a routine. The two of you begin your weekend by going out for breakfast somewhere, Spencer follows you around the library and then the two of you go home and spend the rest of the day quietly in one of your apartments. Usually it involves him playing Zelda on the couch with your feet in his lap while you churn through your book.
You fold around each other comfortably. You have your separate friends, your separate jobs (well⌠technically separate), and your separate hobbies. But as the weeks turn into months, Spencer sinks right into your little oasis in your apartment.Â
His clothes end up in your drawers, he starts going in to work with homemade meals that are obviously made by someone who graduated culinary school (i.e, not him). Love pours endlessly out of every crevice, and Spencer feels like heâs drowning in it. Spencer loves his apartment, itâs his home, but as somebody who also loves you he loves your apartment a lot as well.
It feels like every single time he goes over he finds out something new about you and the way you love, which is why heâs not quite so sure why it took him so long to notice the empty shelves in your room.
Youâre on your phone, lying on your stomach with your feet by the head of the bed. Spencer is just coming back from the kitchen, your coffee order in his hand when he notices it. âAre you gonna put something on that shelf?â
You look up from your phone to see the shelf heâs gesturing to. Spencer canât pretend not to notice the way that your face falls. âUh, sure. I can if you want?â
Spence shrugs as he comes to sit down beside you. You wriggle up so youâre sitting and take the coffee out of his hand. âI donât care, babe. Itâs your room.â He plants a kiss on the side of your face and swiftly moves on. âI just remembered on Saturday I made plans with Kiana, so Iâm gonna have to skip the library, Iâm sorry.â He does seem genuinely sorry to be missing out on the time spent with you, you deflate subtly.
âThatâs totally fine,â you return his kiss. âTell her I say hi. Iâm not done with my current one anyway, so I might just stay home.â You love the library, you spend a lot of time there, but youâre looking forward to a nice morning by yourself at home. Then, you remember the date and groan quietly under your breath. âNever mind, I have to go in to renew it anyway, or else Iâll get another late fee.â
Youâd only ever returned a library book late once in your entire life, something that Spencer found completely adorable. Especially so the fact that you viewed it as such a big deal.Â
âI guess thatâs the price you pay for them being free,â Spencer points out.Â
You hum, âI wouldnât mind having one or two that I get to keep,â you say it so concretely, so nonchalantly. As though itâs not actually something youâre able to do.
âWhy donât you buy a couple?â
You glance over at the empty shelves. ââCause itâs like, childish?â
Spencer frowns, sitting up straighter. âBabe, do you think Iâm childish?â
You rush to fix your mistake. âNo! Of course not, thatâs not at all what I meant-â
Spencer takes your hand, putting the empty coffee cup on your nightstand. Itâs filled with his things and that makes his heart swell. âNo, I know you werenât calling me childish. But do you think I am?â When you shake your head, he continues. âI have like, video game bullshit all over my place. Youâre not childish for having things that you like in your apartment. Plus, books are like the most normal out of all collectibles.â His eyes are deep and sincere and you roll your heels underneath you, moving so your legs are spread out in front of you. âYou want books? Buy a million fucking books, babe.â
You sigh, biting your bottom lip. âI know, itâs⌠I used to have stuff on that shelf,â you admit. âI had a bunch of books, Iâd been collecting some of them since I was a kid and everything. My last boyfriend he, well. Doesnât matter, long story short, I came home from work one day and they were all gone.â
Spencer is probably the last guy youâd expect to see involved in a fistfight. Heâs 5 '6, he loves Hawaiian shirts and there is video evidence of him Fortnite dancing. But more than that, though, he loves you, which is why his first instinct is to go find whoever it was that did that and fuck them up.
âThatâs so messed up?â He canât even wrap his head around it. âBabe, what? No, oh my god.â He canât even formulate a coherent sentence. You love so liberally, so generously, that the idea that someone had thrown away something you love made him physically sick.
âIâm so sorry that he did that to you, thatâs fucked. Not your fault you know how to read and he doesnât.â That makes you laugh, your chest shaking as you lean into him. He wraps an arm around you and kisses your temple, rubbing your forearm gently.Â
He and Kiana have plans on Saturday, and he has no intention of bailing on them, but that doesnât stop him from pulling out his phone and texting her, asking if sheâd be willing to make another stop with him while they were together.
The next Saturday, you get home from renewing your library book to find your boyfriend waiting out the front of your apartment. He beams at you as you reach him and you donât have to look inside the box to know that once you stop kissing him youâll find the beginnings of your next book collection.Â
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Before I Knew [Jake Seresin x Reader] Chapter Twelve
A Jake Seresin unexpected pregnancy fic
Overview: On your first night after moving to San Diego to spend more time with your brother Bob, you unknowingly have a one night stand with his teammate Jake Seresin. For the first time in his whole life, Bob has a closely knit friend group and youâre desperate not to rock the boat. But an unexpected and unplanned pregnancy upends your world, forcing you and Jake closer together, against Bobâs wishes. What will happen when you find yourself actually falling for the father of your unborn child?Â
Pairing: Jake Seresin x Reader; Bob Floyd x Sister!ReaderÂ
Warnings: Pregnancy, cursing, eventual smut, angst
Chapter summary: Ducky and Jake tiptoe around each other; Bob attends Ducky's 20 week scan
WC: 1.3K
Masterlist here; previous chapter here
The apartment was empty when you returned. Just a note on the counter.Â
Staying at Bradshawâs for the night
â J
You sighed and put your purse down. It was what you had wanted. So why didnât it feel good to win?Â
***
Jake spent half of the night pacing Bradleyâs house, a small bungalow near the beach. At around three in the morning, Bradley emerged in a pair of boxers and no shirt, rubbing his eyes. âHangman?âÂ
Jake turned, bags starting to form under his eyes.Â
âYou OK man?â Bradley asked, standing in the doorway to the living room.Â
Jake shook his head. âYeah, sorry, didnât realize I was being loud.âÂ
Bradley sagged against the wood frame. âItâs Y/N isnât it?âÂ
He nodded. âAlways.âÂ
âWhen are you gonna admit youâre into her?âÂ
Jake stopped dead in his tracks. âWhat?âÂ
âWe all talk about it all the time,â Bradley said, crossing his arms. âYou like her. She liked you enough to sleep with you. And now here you are kissing random girls in the bar and sheâs running off crying.âÂ
âShe cried?âÂ
âNo, she peed on the sand, but same thing.âÂ
Jake frowned. âWhat? How is that the same?âÂ
âIt just is, OK.â Bradley shook his head.Â
Jake squinted. âYou guys donât actually talk about us, do you?âÂ
âCome on,â Bradley said. âI know youâre more self absorbed than that.âÂ
âShe doesnât want me,â he said quietly. âShe told me to go out and see other people.â Jake paused. âShe said she would, too, if it didnât look so weird, with the baby and all.âÂ
Bradley rolled his eyes and turned to go. âYou two are so fucking stupid, I swear.âÂ
***
Bob picked up on the second ring. âHello?âÂ
âBobby,â you said into the phone. âWill you come to my appointment with me today?âÂ
âI, uh, what time is it at?âÂ
âFour.âÂ
âOK, yeah, I can do that. Pick you up at 3:30 from work?âÂ
âYes, please.âÂ
There was a moment of silence where you both knew what the other was thinking. He wanted to know why you had asked him. You didnât want him to tell Jake.Â
âSee you soon, Duck,â he said, hanging up the phone and you let out a sigh of relief.Â
That afternoon, you sat in a paper gown on the medical table as Bob sat in the chair near the door, bouncing his leg in his green flight suit. âYou smell like gasoline,â you complained. âItâs making me want to throw up.âÂ
âI didnât have time to change,â he replied, leg still bouncing.Â
âStop jiggling, youâre making me nauseous.âÂ
âWill you stop complaining when the baby comes?âÂ
âNo, itâll just be a new set of complaints.âÂ
âLucky me.âÂ
There was a knock and then the door opened. âY/N? How are you?âÂ
âDoing OK,â you replied, shifting your weight from one hip. âThis is my brother, Bob.âÂ
âMaâam,â he said, standing up and holding out a hand. She took it and smiled.Â
âDr. Whitman. Nice to meet you.â She walked over to the sink and washed her hands before pulling on a pair of gloves. âSo, twenty weeks. Halfway there.âÂ
âThank God,â you muttered.Â
The doctor laughed. âAny trouble sleeping or heartburn or indigestion.âÂ
âWhatever you name, Iâve got it.âÂ
She smiled. âWell, I can give you a prescription for some heartburn medication. If you want to just pull your shirt up, we can take a look to see how baby is doing.âÂ
You inched the edge of your paper dress up, the roundness of your stomach shocking every time you caught a glimpse. The jelly was cold, as always, and you found yourself holding your breath as she moved the wand around until you heard it.Â
The steady beat of your babyâs heart.Â
âStrong heartbeat,â the doctor said. âBaby is about seven inches.â She turned to you. âDo you want to know the gender?âÂ
You looked over at Bob, who had climbed out of his seat and was standing next to the table, one of his hands on your shoulder. âBobby?âÂ
âIâm here.âÂ
You sucked in a deep breath. âYes, Iâd like to know.âÂ
âItâs a girl.âÂ
You closed your eyes. It was overwhelming. You couldnât put into words how you felt.Â
And then you felt a tear fall on your shoulder. But it wasnât yours. When you opened your eyes, Bob was crying.Â
He pressed his lips to your temple, arms wrapped around your shoulders. âA girl,â he whispered, tears and laughter caught in his throat all at once.Â
You placed your hands on either side of your belly button and closed your eyes.Â
***
When you got home, you taped the sonogram to the fridge. Jake had returned from Bradleyâs, but the two of you had been frosty. A simple hello or excuse me as you passed each other in the living room. It was like living with a complete stranger.Â
You didnât want to freeze him out. But whenever you went to talk to him, the image of him with the girl in the bar came to mind and you felt bile rising in your throat. There was a part of you, somewhere buried, that wanted Jake Seresin for yourself.Â
For your daughter.Â
At twenty weeks, you already had trouble sleeping. After an hour of tossing and turning, you got up and eased open the door, rubbing your eyes as you headed for the kitchen in a skimpy nightgown.Â
As you rounded the corner into the kitchen, Jake stood facing the fridge, completely still. He barely moved when you entered, stopping short the minute you saw him.Â
âOh.â It fell out of your mouth before you could even stop it.Â
Jake turned, slowly. There were bags beneath his eyes. His normally golden skin looked sallow. His hair, always so perfectly tousled, had lost some of its luster. âWhen was the appointment?â he asked.Â
âYesterday.âÂ
âYou didnât want me there.â It wasnât a question, it was a statement. There was pain laced in every word.Â
âI didnât think youâd want to be there.âÂ
Jakeâs face hardened. You watched in real time. The way his green eyes went dark and the hands at his sides flexed into fists. âDonât you understand, Y/N, that it my child youâre carrying. Mine. Of course I wanted to be there. But you wouldnât let me. Because youâre punishing me.âÂ
âIâm not punishing you.âÂ
âYes you are!â It came out as a roar. You stepped back, one hand over your stomach. Jakeâs eyes dropped to your hand. âIâm sorry.â It was a plea. Soft and gravely and depressed. âI fucked up, OK. This is so fucked up.âÂ
âMy next appointment is in a month,â you replied softly. âDo you want to come with?âÂ
Jake lifted his eyes to yours. âYes.âÂ
âOK,â you replied. âCan I?â You motioned to the fridge and Jake nodded, stepping aside as you grabbed a glass and filled it with water from the door filter.Â
âGoodnight,â Jake said, backing out of the kitchen as you closed the fridge door, the slice of light growing thinner and thinner until it disappeared and the two of you were bathed in darkness, just the diagonal strip of moonlight shining from the window above the sink.Â
âJake?âÂ
âYeah?âÂ
You smiled. âItâs a girl.âÂ
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Four and Counting
husband!Oscar Diaz x fem!black!reader
Word count: 4.4k (oops)
Warnings: everything is fluff, the cutest couple alive, another pregnancy, hints at abortion (but supportingly?), Oscar being the cutest fucking husband, self-indulgent asf cant lie like I want be in love like this
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AN: yall do not know how long this mf has been in my drafts omg I finally finished. This fic is just drowning in love. No smut đ¤ˇđžââď¸. A bit rushed in certain places but it all fits pretty well in my opinion. this is not the end of the series but its like the end of the main chapters. there will be lore on the couple obvi, updates on the kids and the family as a whole bcus i am obsessed. hope yall enjoy.
You didn't know how it happened, you blinked and soon there were four. You had four kids running around your home filling it with innocent joy and laughter, and the occasional attitude. It was a full house and a busy life, but it could be enjoyable. You'd become a stay-at-home mom. At first, you weren't sure if you'd be able to manage, you loved your job a lot and worked extremely hard for it but with your growing family, your kids needed you more.
With Oscar opening a second restaurant you thought it'd be a good idea to bring up what's been gnawing away at you and he tells you that he's behind you no matter what path you choose. You put in your letter of resignation and bid your co-workers a teary-eyed farewell with promises to visit as much as they can. You had to admit it was a nice break, you didn't have to wake up as early, you weren't on your feet as much and the house was nice and quiet for a few hours when your children were either in school or at daycare. But then you had baby Rosie and your house had returned to a screaming, hollering mess.
She was a loud one and very expressive, babbled and cooed to anyone who would listen. "And then what happens after that?" You say laying next to her gently stroking her hair. She kicks her feet with excitement and responds in her usual baby language. "Oh my goodness." You respond. You could do this all day. You hated to admit it but you missed the baby stage so much and you were grateful for your little one. You'd been lounging around all day, only getting up to shower when she had fallen asleep and the occasional time when you needed to grab her bottle.
You pepper her chunky face in kisses and she squeals with happiness. "Que hermosa." You giggle. You two are so wrapped up in your world you don't even hear when the door unlocks and Oscar strolls in, he decides to check in on you since everything at the restaurant was going fine today. He notices the obvious vacancy of your presence downstairs and stumbles into the kitchen thinking you were feeding Rosie but he was wrong. He hears his baby's infamous noises from upstairs and smiles following the sweet noises. He creeps in on you two.
His head lolls to the side and rests on the door frame. He'd seen you like this many times (clearly) and it never got old. The way you lovingly interact with each child at any stage in their life, it was sweet to witness you give the same sweet eyes to Rafa at his big age as you did when he was a baby. Just a gentle reminder that he chose the right woman to marry, the best one to make a mother.
Rosie turns her little head and screams when her eyes land on her father. "Hola, mi corazoncito."Â He coos entering the room matching the same excitement as his baby which causes her to become even more riled up. He scoops her up and holds her in the air and all you can do is watch and grin like the Cheshire Cat. He brings her down and kisses her cheeks. "CĂłmo estĂĄs, mi mariposa?" He asks Rosie and she nuzzles her forehead in his cheek. Her nonverbal way of saying she missed him. Oscar takes his place next to you on the bed. "How are you, mama?"
You pucker your lips and he smiles dropping a kiss. You pout at how quick it was but quickly subsides when he gives you a forehead kiss. "I'm good. Sleepy. Hungry. Missing you."
"Missed you too, that's why I came home. And I brought some food from work."
You squinted. "Who cooked it?"
He chuckled. "Jason."
"Yes!" You fist pump. "Jason makes the best fucking food I swear."
Oscar's head seems to tilt even more, he's insulted by your statement but you smile sheepishly placing an encouraging hand on his shoulder. "Not as amazing as you do." He rolls his eyes and kisses your temple. Rosie babbles as her little reminder that she's still in the room. "No one forgot you chica" He affirms giving her some more smooches. "Let's go get mommy her food."
You sit up and stretch; some much-needed cracks are heard via your aching bones, and when your arms come down, you feel much looser and less tense than before. "It's okay, irÊ contigo." (I'll come with you.)
The three of you plop down the stairs and you part ways as Oscar heads to the kitchen while you shuffle to the living room and drop onto the couch, your lounging was short-lived when the doorbell rang. You huff getting back up on your feet. You swing the door open with a mean mug on your face until your eyes land on your mom and your features immediately soften.
"Hi, Mommy." You smile reaching out for her. "Hi sweetie, how are you?"
"I'm great," You pull her inside and close the door behind her. "What are you doing here?"
She shrugs off her jacket and hangs it up on the rack nearby, her shoes slip off her feet and she places those next to Spooky's on the mat. "Came to visit, figured you'd need some... company..." She trails off andâ not so subtlyâ stretches out her neck to see if she can spot the baby. "Mhm." You say crossing your arms, you call bullshit.
"She's in the kitchen with Spooky."
And just like that, your mother leaves you in her dust. You hear her high-pitched, "Hiiiii GG's babyyyyy, helloooo."Â And you can't help but smile. Your mom always seemed to become happier with each grandchild you produced.
You begin to feel left out when you hear all the commotion in the kitchen so you decide to join them. Your daughter has your mom's nose in her small fist while your mom blows raspberries in her little tummy, she erupts with laughter and you catch a glimpse of Oscar with nothing but heart eyes for his baby girl. You sneak over to him and slide your arms around his abdomen, he drops his arm over your shoulder and draws you close. He plants a kiss on your head. The microwave beeps behind you signalling that whatever was in there had finished heating up. Your eyes widen when the aroma of cheese hit your senses. "Is that lasagna?"
He nodded. "Yeah. He made a little dish for you, told him you've been craving it lately."
You squeal with excitement as you take the hot dish out of the microwave, you set it on the counter and danced over to the drawers in hot search for a fork, your successful in finding one and greedily stick it inside the soft noodles that were jam packed with delicious ingredients. You take one bite and practically faint at the taste.
"Just needs one more thing." You think out loud, you hustle over to the pantry and grab a bag of barbecue chips, you snag a handful and crack them in your hand, sprinkling them on top. Oscar stands there... confused.
"Girl, what the hell is that?" Your mom asks equally appalled.
You shrug and take another bite. "It's good though." You muffle with a full mouth.
"I love you." Oscar sighs and you laugh at his adoration for anything you do, you blow him a kiss before taking another bite. You don't see it but your mom has her eye on you with a very interesting theory brewing in her head. Your husband's phone rings and he excuses himself to answer it leaving you alone with your mom and Rosie, who is quiet and happy on her grandmother's chest, her little eyes slowly closing with sleep.
You try your best not to make too much noise while you reach for more-
"Are you pregnant again?"
You nearly choke on your saliva at the ridiculous question. You quickly shake your head. "No!? Are you nuts? I just had her and she is the last one." You assure but your mom isn't believing it. "This little concoction says otherwise."
You roll your eyes. "I just... like pasta and chips... together."
It did sound ridiculous.
"Since when?"
"Like... a month ago..."
She sucks her teeth. "Mi amor, I'm telling you, I think you're pregnant."
This was insane, this was an insane conversation to be having. You were one hundred percent sure there was nothing and no one in your belly-- just the mere thought of having two under two was giving you the heebie-jeebies. "I'm just saying-"
You groan like the irritated teenager you once were, "Ay Mama, no mås charlas de bebÊ, por favor." (No more baby talk, please.)
She agrees to ease off the topic but it remains in the back of her mind.
-- --
Later that day after Oscar's gathered the others from school, you sneak out of the house to do some grocery shopping. It was a bit of time for yourself, a time when you didn't have to keep your eye on your tiny little humans. You go through the aisles for the essentials and when that's done you browse for treats and snacks for your kids (that you and Oscar will eventually munch on as well.)
You cautiously approach the next aisle that is stacked with condoms, contraceptives and pregnancy tests. You meant to move, your hands ready to push the cart forward but your feet are firmly planted on the floor. You sigh and turn in, quickly grabbing a box and dumping it in the cart as though it's not for you. "She better be fucking wrong." You mutter to yourself.
-- --
With all kids fed, bathed and in bed before twelve it allows you to have the bathroom to yourself for a while. You wedge the knuckle of your index finger between your two rows of teeth, you stare at the box and sigh. "Please prove her wrong." You whisper to no one in particular. You pop open the box and rip open the wrapping of the test. One original and one digital. You sit on the toilet and do what you've done a hundred times, you pee on the sticks and set them aside until the timer goes off.
You clean yourself up and wash your hands, you know better than to just stand there and watch the sticks waiting for that fate-sealing answer but you go against yourself and stare. You're in a trance until there's a knock at the door, it startled you and you clutch your non-existent pearls for dear life. "Que?"
Oscar asks, "You good? Didn't need company tonight?" He's referring to your commonly shared showers which, now that you think about it, is probably one of the reasons you're in this predicament again!
"No, it's not that. I'm just..."
You huff and unlock the door swinging it open with displeasure on your face, your arms crossed as you nod over to the tests on the counter. His eyes follow your actions and pop out when he sees them. "How-"
"Mom said it was weird that I ate the lasagna like that."
He chuckled. "Didn't want to say anything."Â
You whine saying, "It's not funny, I just thought it was a change in my palette or something, I mix random foods all the time. I-" You searched for every excuse you could find. Oscar's face softens at the worry in your voice. "I just had Rosie." You sigh sounding depleted. You turn your back to the tests when you hear that all too familiar sound. You squeeze your eyes shut, if you don't look you won't know the answer and you can go about your merry way. Your husband offers to look for you and leans over. You hear the quietest gasp he's ever uttered and you know. You spin around to look at them yourself.
Positive. Both of them show positive.
You look up at Spooky and he's already looking at you waiting for your reaction so he can curate his own. "How do you feel about it?"
You shrug. You truly didn't know, you didn't even have words. Your throat was dry. You pick up one of them and look at it. And you feel nothing. Empty. Just waiting for a sense of gratitude to come across and for some reason, you can't seem to produce it. You put the test down and leave.
Spooky's still standing there with his heart in the pit of his stomach. Maybe he should've listened to you, that two was enough, and then three and four. He's after you, right on your heels as you enter your bedroom. You sit on the bed and fall back onto the sheets, you cover your eyes and shake your head at yourself and him. "I just had Rosie." You repeat to yourself. And then it happens. A tear slips and as quick as you are to wipe it, he knows you like the back of his handâ your breathing gets choppy and choked, you sniffle. The bed dips beside you and the sound of the sheets ruffling as he lays down.
"HĂĄblame."Â (Talk to me)
You take a deep breath. You can be honest. "I don't know how I feel. I'm not sad but I'm not happy. I just hoped Rosie would be a little older. They all have good age gaps and- Oh god, what if they don't want another sibling? And Rosie and I spend so much time together, they just got used to her-- Emilia was so clingy when I had her, she felt so left out and-and-"
Oscar presses his hand over your thigh. "Cariùo. Respirar. Por favor.
You breathe shakily. "It's okay not to know how to feel. If this is not what you want... I'm here for you, your moms here... the kids are here. We have more than enough, S�"
You nod. He reaches over and pulls you into him, you rest your forehead on his chest while he rubs smooth circles on your back. "We have some time for you to think about it right? It's your world mi amor, we're just living in it. I got you no matter what."
"Spooky."
"Mhm."
"Thank you."
He smiles and kisses your head. "It's my job baby."
â â You'd been hiding your belly from everyone, even the kids. It was easy for the most part because you only wore baggy clothes and they made you look a little large anyway but then there were not so subtle signsâ like the heavy breathing from doing just about anything, and your walk? Oh, your walk was not normal no matter how hard you tried. So you decide to come clean to your kids and other close family during a little gathering that Spooky's brother, Cesar, was hosting. Cesar was the only person who knew and you two asked if it'd be okay to announce it tonight.
He was fine with it, excited actually.
Your hands shake. You were cautious in deciding on having this baby, it took you a while to feel anything. At first, it was uncertainty, did you want another? Would you be crushed if you didn't have it?
But as the weeks passed you couldn't help but fall in love with the growth, the bigger you got the giddier you became. Modelling in front of the mirror any chance you got, and when all the kids were asleep you'd talk to your belly and giggle with every shift they made.
"Listo?"Â Â He asks and you nod confidently. Oscar whistles over to Cesar giving him a thumbs up. Cesar turns down the music to gather everyone's attention. "I just want to thank everyone for coming out, it's been a while since we've all been in one place, right?"
The crowd mumbles in agreement. "But it's great to see everyone in good health and good spiritsâ" He raises his Corona bottle and the crowd follows with their drinks (including the kids and their juice boxes) "Salud." He smiles.
"Salud." The crowd repeats. You clear your throat and enthusiastically say, "Oh let me see if I can get a picture. Everyone gets in."
They shuffle into one pile as best they can, you grab your phone and hold it landscape, you press record and say, "Alright everybody in... great, now saaaay... Y/n and Spooky are having another babyyyy!"
There were collective gasps, the word "what!?" Being thrown around in every language. "Excuse me!?" Your mom hollers. You unbutton your cardigan and turn to the side having worn a tight dress on purpose. "Surpriiiiiise." You sing out.
"I FUCKING KNEW IT!" Jasmine screams stretching her arms out for you, you gasp and playfully smack her hand. "Not in front of my kids, puta!"
She tells you to shut up and hug her, your mom joins in and soon the children and in that moment it hits how loved and supported you are by everyone around you. This was your village and it was a damn good one too.
Oscar's friends dap him up and congratulate him. They hug you as well and whisper that they hope it's another girl. They loved spoiling your daughters. Anything they asked for the boys were sure to buy it no problema.
"Well, actually," You begin to say. "We know what we're having."
Rafa, your oldest comes up to you. "Is it a boy?" His eyes gloss over with the hope that you would say yes, he'd been hoping that Emilia (your third) was going to be a boy but he lucked out. You had an idea. You hunch over to match his eye level. "You see that cake over there." You whisper and he nods. "Papi and I were going to cut it, but I think you should get the first slice."
He shrugs and you walk him over to the white cream frosted cake. You and Oscar help him hold the knife and carefully slide the blade into the spongey treat making one incision and you help him make another. He pushes the knife under to take the slice out and plops it on his plate, he reaches for a fork when he looks down to see the inside was blue.
Nobody spoke. Nobody moved with the understanding this was his moment. He looks up at you. "You're having a boy!?"
You nod with tears spilling over and ruining your makeup. "I am."
He puts the plate down and hugs you tightly and that's when the crowd goes wild. "Thank you, Mommy." He sobs which makes you cry even more. "Oh, you're welcome sweetie."
â â Nine months had sped past you and it seemed as if it was just yesterday that you found out you were pregnant. Now, you lay on a hospital bed, covered over by a few blankets to help with post-partum shivers, your jaw rattling and fingers dancing involuntarily. But that wasn't your main focus.
Oscar hovered over you staring at the sleeping newborn in your arms. He made the cutest noises while he nuzzled against your chest. Your finger ghosts over his nose and he reacts by moving his head and sighing. "Are you sick of me already, mi hijo?(my son)" You joke nudging him with your nose. "You get used to her." Oscar chimes in and you suck your teeth hitting him as hard as you could. "Cållate culo."(Shut up, ass)
"Hitting me in front of my son?"
"And I'll do it again."
He smiles and leans down to kiss you. "You know I like you a little feisty, mami."
You sigh, so in love with your new baby, in love with your husbandâ just filled with overpouring affection. You can't stop staring at your new son and your husband couldn't stop gazing at either of you. He'd been in this room over and over and he swore up and down you made it look so easy, that you looked like a goddess bringing new air and life into this world. Even though you thought you looked like a monster from the swamp.
Oscar tells you in a loving tone. "You're doing an amazing job, seriously, you... you're just amazing."
You blink rapidly to keep tears from spilling over. When you met this man he was so rough and tough, such a brute that it seemed impossible to get him to even admit that he liked you, but under all that fake-cold persona, was the gentlest giant and the biggest sweetheart you'd ever metâa man who spreads nothing but positivity around you and your children.
"I'm so happy, I met you." He mutters. You were his wife, the mother of his children and his best friend rolled into one and that's all he wanted out of this life. You look up at him with glossy eyes. "I'm happy I met you too."
You share a kiss as a tear slips out, you just can't hold them back any longer. He kisses your forehead as his thumb swipes over your cheek. Your attention is drawn back to your son when he begins wiggling in your hold, you press your nose against his hair taking a whiff of that fresh baby smell. As you soak in the presence of your child, your husband's phone buzzes against the fabric of the diaper bag, he looks over and your mom's name catches his attention. He looks to you for some sort of permission and your brows furrow together. "It's okay."
He rushes over to answer, and just then your nurse walks in with a smile on her face. "Just came to check on mommy and baby." She announces.
"Ok... yeah, I'll meet you guys downstairs... bye." Oscar hangs up and looks over at you. "Your parents are here, with the kids. I'll just be back okay?"
"Mhm." You hum. He gives you a quick kiss before he speeds out of the room. The nurse smirks as she helps you adjust yourself into a somewhat comfortable sitting position, asking you if you'd like your son to be put back in the bassinet to which you respond yes and she gently takes him. "I apologize if this is forward but... I've seen a lot of couples in here and let me tell you, I've never seen anything like you two. He is so attentive."
You giggle. "Thank you. I just got really lucky with him."
A few minutes had passed and she had finished her check-up letting you know that she'd be back in a bit for another check-in. Once she left that's when your family, quietly, barged in. Oscar approaches you first with a sleeping Rosie in his arms and you happily reach for her and coddle her in your arms. Rafael, Elliana and Emilia gently charged over to you, shuffling off their shoes and finding their places on the bed with you. You greeted them as best as you could, with restricted movement all you could do was reach for their faces. Your parents and Oscar stand in the background of it all observing you in your motherly nature and Oscar can't fight the grin that has been plastered on his face since the day he met you.
"Baby." Emilia chimes in drawing everyone's attention to her now. "Yeah, mira, mommy had the baby."
Rafael seemed enamoured by the presence of his new sibling. He loved his sisters, you knew that, but by the looks of it-- this would be a special bond. "Rafa, would you like to hold him first?" Oscar asks.
He nodded eagerly and readied himself by sitting up straight and folding his arms. Oscar removes your son from his bassinet and carefully places him in Rafa's arms. The baby was a bit squirmy, upset that he'd been disturbed but with the soothing 'shhhh'Â from his mother's lips he settled down. Your two girls surround their brothers with curiosity.
Emilia giggles. "Hi, cutie."
"He's so tiny," Eliana mutters. Your parents finally make their way over to you after letting you have your moment with the kids. They congratulate you and your dad holds up a Chipotle bag and you beamed. "Thank you, this hospital food sucks." You whisper.
They attempted to take Rosie from you but you assured them it was fine, having missed her snuggles anyway. "Want me to feed you?" Your husband asks and you snicker shaking your head. "EstĂĄ bien papito, I'll eat when I'm ready. But thank you."
â â After all the kids had their turn holding the baby their attention spans had turned to you and their father, telling you everything that had happened since you left the house.
"And then Ellie licked the cookie and put it back in my bowl," Rafa whines and you hold back a laugh. "Eliana you do not do that, that's gross."
She shrugs and nuzzles closer to her grandfather on the couch who is causing a ruckus with all his snoring. Your mom nudges him awake and he hits his famous line, "I'm not sleeping, I just closed my eyes."
"Think it's time for us to go." Your mom says. "Um.." Rafa chimes. "Is it okay if I stay?"
"I- yeah, I guess so." You answer. Oscar says that you'll keep Rosie since she has now found a new sleep space in his arms. Your mom carries a sleeping Emilia and your dad carries Eliana on his back. They say their goodbyes and are out the door.
â â
The room is so quiet you could hear a pin drop. Rafael had fallen asleep on the couch while Rosie, who'd only woken up to ear and fell back into slumber, lay under her older brother's arm. You sigh contently as you gaze at them.
"Did you ever think when we met at that laundromat, that we'd be here?"Â Oscar mumbled as he held your baby boy, tracing his finger along his little nose. You turn to him. You shrug.
"Maybe with one kid... two.... But not five." You joked. He chuckled.
"Did you?"
He nods. "I knew you were gonna be my girl from the moment I picked up that sexy red bra you dropped-"
"Spookyyyy." You gasped gently hitting his arm.
He laughs. "Que? Man, once I saw those cups I started barking."
"You are so fucking stupid."
He shrugs. "I know. But I'm stupid in love with you."
You playfully rolled your eyes at his corny, yet sweet, line.
"I'm stupid in love with you too."
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(Once Bitten) Twice Shy
Chapter One
Plot summary : Desperate to get away from your controlling family, you take a job in New York as a wealthy vampire's blood source. A million dollars awaits if you can make it through a year, but life with Billy Russo is not going to be as simple as you think.
Pairing : Billy Russo x Reader
Story Rating : RÂ Chapter Rating : PG
Warnings : [This is a fic for 18+ only, minors DNI] This whole story will deal with dark and smutty themes. All chapters will contain mentions of blood. Please check the warnings on each chapter if you choose to follow this story.Â
Word Count : 5.4k
A/N : The full first chapter. For anyone that missed the first sneak peak, this is going to be a vampire fic, so it's going to have smut, dark themes, and blood mentions. I've been reading a lot of gothic novels lately so there's a bit of inspo from that in here. Anyway, hope you enjoy this one!
Chapter One
It was official; you'd lost your fucking mind.
Youâd been standing outside the building for five minutes now, the paperwork tucked in your coat pocket feeling heavier by the second. Were you sure that you wanted to do this? Could you really give up a year of your life to serve a vampire?
What other choice did you have?
A lithe and pale figure watched from behind the tinted, UV proof glass while you changed your mind a dozen times over. After a few more minutes, the sun finally disappeared into the New York skyline, plunging the street into shadow.
The door opened.
The figure called your name, and you stepped forward, almost mesmerised by the lilting, lyrical tone of her voice. You shook your head a little, trying to keep your wits about you.Â
You took in the sight of her as she held open the door; taller than you with a willowy figure, long white hair down to her hips, and eyes of pale blue that seemed to look right through you. Youâd seen enough vampires to tell one by sight.
Your small suitcase was clutched in your hand, the few possessions that meant anything to you had been hastily packed before youâd headed to New York, and now felt like all you had left in the world. She glanced at the suitcase with disdain, but said nothing.
âDo you have the paperwork?â She asked, the soft but icy sound of her voice sending a shiver up your spine. You nodded and she held out her hand expectantly, waiting while you fished the folded mess of documents from your coat. She gave the contract a cursory glance, making sure youâd signed every dotted line, before; âgood. And are you sure you understand everything that this position entails and what will be required of you?â
You nodded again.
âSpeak up,â she prompted. âThis is your last chance to ask questions.â
Despite the impatience on her face, you took a moment. Only minutes ago youâd had at least half a dozen questions about the job and the mysterious vampire who had hired you.
âWhat happened to the last person who took this job?â Her eyebrow rose, obviously not expecting that question. âThe contract is for a year, but Iâve seen this job advertised three times in the last ten months.â
âThere are a lot of people who mistakenly believe that they can do what is required of them. Many have come to work for Mr Russo, and many have disappointed him,â she shrugged.
âWhat happened to them?â
âThe same thing that will happen to you if you breach your contract; immediate dismissal with no severance,â she explained, slowly starting to step towards the elevator. âDuring your time here, everything will be provided for you and you will only be paid once your term of service is completed.â
âA million dollars,â even though that was the amount in black and white on the contract, it still didnât seem real to you.
âYes,â she pressed the call button, putting an obvious timer on this conversation. âLike I said, this is your last chance to ask questions. Once I take you upstairs, your contract will officially begin, and you will forfeit the agreed upon rights.âÂ
You swallowed the lump that had risen in your throat and nodded, knowing you had no choice. You needed the money and a year wasnât that long if you really thought about it.Â
The elevator doors slid open and you took one last deep breath before stepping inside.
âWhat floor are we going to?â You asked, not wanting to stand in silence.
âThe penthouse,â she answered, allowing another moment of quiet before adding; âyouâll find that Mr Russo has been more than generous with your living quarters, far more generous than most.â
âDo a lot of vampires do this? Hire people to feed from, I mean?âÂ
âFor those that can afford it, or those with particular... tastes, itâs quite common, yes,â she replied offhandedly, not even bothering to look at you, knowing that it didnât matter anymore; it was too late for you to change your mind.
âAnd which is Mr Russo?â You dared to ask, which was enough to earn a glance from her.
âBoth,â she answered coldly, âas you no doubt saw in the advertisement, Mr Russo is very particular, and youâd do well to remember that. He is a man who likes everything in its place.â
Your lips parted, more comments and questions about your mysterious employer on your tongue, but they were cut off by the opening of the elevator doors. She led you out into the penthouse; a large open-plan living and kitchen area, with an open fireplace and wrap-around sofa, decorated in dark colours and dark-stained wood.
âLeave your suitcase there,â she instructed. âYou wonât need it.â
You did as you were told, speechless as you took in the huge space in front of you. The windows drew your attention; tinted and obviously UV proof, but spanning from floor to ceiling, giving an amazing view of Central Park.
âThis is the main area of the penthouse,â she started, as if she was a tour guide, reeling off facts that she no longer found interesting. âYou may use this area as you see fit during daylight hours, but between 9pm and 6am it is off-limits. You will clean up after yourself.â
You nodded, following her as she slowly started towards the kitchen, leaving your suitcase at the elevator.
âAll food will be provided, and should not be left in this kitchen area. You have your own private kitchen in your quarters. As per your contract, you will keep to the list of acceptable foods, and will receive grocery deliveries once a week on Fridays.â She stopped for a moment, letting you get a look at the main kitchen.
While there didnât seem to be much in the way of food in the main kitchen, there was a large wine rack, filled with bottles. But it was the small glass-fronted refrigerator that caught your attention. That was where he would keep your blood. Suddenly it all started to feel very real to you.
If your guide cared, she didnât bother to show it. She started to move again, and you followed after.
âBehind that door,â she pointed, âare Mr Russoâs rooms. You are forbidden from entering. Any breach of that rule will result in your immediate dismissal.â
You nodded, eyes lingering on the door, wondering if he was behind it right now, if he was listening in to everything being said. The thought caused your heart to beat a little faster and, that, you were certain she did notice. She led you away, towards the other end of the apartment.
âThrough that door is Mr Russoâs library, you may use it as you see fit during daylight hours,â she didnât linger or allow you to look inside, so you decided that was the first place you would explore once you were alone.
âAnd this,â she pushed a door open, âis your private suite.â
The door led to a small corridor with three doors. You continued to follow her.Â
âYour kitchen,â she pushed open the first door and let you glance inside before moving to the door on the opposite side of the hallway, âyour bathroom.â Again, she only gave you a second before moving to the door at the end of the hallway. âAnd this is your bedroom. For your privacy, the door can be locked. Though once youâve slept here, no vampire will be able to enter without permission.âÂ
You were almost speechless as you stepped into the room, immediately noticing the floor to ceiling windows that wrapped around the corner of the room, giving you amazing views of Central Park and the city. The room contained a large bed, a sofa and TV, as well as a small gym area in the corner. There was a wardrobe, the doors of which had been strategically left open so you could see that it had already been filled with clothes for you. Beyond that, there was a desk and several mirrors, and everything was decorated with the same dark palette as the rest of the penthouse.Â
âAs per your contract, you are expected to remain clean and healthy at all times,â she continued while you slowly stepped around the room, cautiously running your fingers over the desk and opening drawers. âMr Russo requires that you shower at least once every day and that you wear only the clothes provided. If the clothes provided are not to your tastes, reasonable adjustments to the wardrobe can be made.â
You opened a drawer and felt heat rise in your cheeks when you realised that it was filled with silk and lace lingerie sets. Closing the drawer, you decided to look elsewhere, moving towards the nightstand. There was a silk sleep mask beside the lamp, with your initials sewn into the fabric.
âYou will not leave the penthouse without permission. Any attempt to do so will result in your immediate dismissal,â again, on paper, it had sounded easy but now you werenât so sure. âPart of remaining clean for Mr Russo means that you will forgo sex for the duration of your contract, and you will not allow anyone to touch you in a sexual way. However, Mr Russo understands that this can be... difficult for someone your age, so he has provided everything you need to keep yourself... satisfied.â
Your confused glance was met by a raised eyebrow and the slightest dip of her head, indicating the drawer which, stupidly, you opened without hesitation.
âOh...â you werenât sure what youâd been expecting but a drawer full of sex toys certainly wasnât it. Your cheeks got hotter and your heart raced in your chest.
âI would suggest getting that under control, your embarrassment is quite distracting to vampires,â she stated before leaving the room. You quickly pushed the drawer of toys closed and followed after her.Â
She led you into the kitchen, a clean and sterile looking room with everything youâd ever need to cook for yourself. Waving at the only chair at the small table, she instructed you to sit, take your coat off and roll up your sleeve.
âFor the first week, I will assist you in drawing blood and showing you how to store it, after that it will become your responsibility. You will do this at least once a day, and it is your job to ensure that Mr Russo never goes without,â she explained, opening a drawer and removing what she needed.
You felt queasy the moment the needle punctured the skin, and you were sure she scoffed when you looked away from the sight of blood. Clearly, she didnât think you were going to last in your new job.
âWhile your contract is in effect, Mr Russo is the only vampire who may drink your blood,â she continued to list rules and stipulations.Â
âAnd heâll only drink it like this? He wonât -â you hesitated, trying to decide if the question could be seen as offensive to a vampire.
âIt is, legally speaking, entirely up to you whether or not you would allow Mr Russo to feed from you directly,â which, of course was something you knew - since vampires revealed themselves to the world, lots of safe-measures had been put in place to protect humans from being involuntarily fed upon. âHowever, Mr Russo prefers to feed this way, so it shouldnât be an issue.â
After almost ten minutes she pulled the needle from your arm and began to explain how to seal the blood before handing you a bottle of supplements and a glass of water.Â
âTake one of those every day after bleeding, they will help your body replace what youâve given.â She watched as you took one of the supplements without questions and then led you back out into the main area of the apartment, showing you how the blood was to be stored in the fridge, with the day's date clearly marked on the jar.
âNow, you should go shower and change into the clothes provided. I can either dispose of what youâre wearing or it can be placed in storage with your other things until your contract is complete.â
âWait - storage?â You asked, your heart skipping a beat.
âAs per your contract, everything is provided -â
âI get that, but... youâre saying I canât keep my things? What about my phone?â Sure, youâd read the contract, but youâd never realised that that was what it meant.
âMr Russo is a very private man, your phone or other electronic devices would be a security risk,â she answered sharply. âIf you wish to terminate your contract -â
âNo - no, itâs fine. As long as theyâre kept safe.â As much as you hated it, you knew the alternative was worse. No, you could live without your phone and laptop for a year if it meant earning a million dollars, if it meant finally being free.
Without hesitation, you removed your phone from your pocket and handed it to her. She seemed almost amused that it was already turned off, and quickly slid it into her own pocket.
She nodded and started to walk away. âLeave anything you want put into storage by the elevator.â
It was then that you realised that she was about to leave you all alone and youâd have no more chances to ask her questions.
âWhen will I meet Mr Russo?â You asked as she pressed the call button.
âThat depends on Mr Russo,â she shrugged, âyou may never meet him if he doesnât wish it. Heâll decide when he returns to New York tomorrow. For now, Iâd suggest you spend your time getting comfortable. A year is a long time for warmbloods...â
The elevator doors slid open and she carried your suitcase inside.
âIâll be back after sunset tomorrow to draw more blood.â
It wasnât until she was gone that you realised youâd never even gotten her name.
Alone, you remained in the kitchen for a few minutes, half expecting her to come back to explain more rules but, when she didnât, you decided to explore.
It felt strange and you didnât dare touch anything, practically creeping around the apartment, even though you were fairly certain that you were all alone now. You got yourself familiar with the main living area, taking a moment to enjoy the view from the windows before heading for the door that led to Mr Russoâs library.
Whatever thoughts you had about it, you werenât expecting what you found behind that door. The book cases covered two of the walls and, in the corner of the room sat a grand piano. There was a worn looking leather sofa and, towards the back of the room, you realised that there was a set of shelves filled with vinyl records. Suddenly, being stuck in this apartment for a whole year didnât seem like enough time.Â
There was a strange mix of old and new about the room, things that made you wonder about the sort of person your new employer was. How old was he? How long had he been a vampire?Â
You decided that you were definitely going to spend a lot of time in the library but, for tonight, you settled on taking a battered looking copy of The Picture of Dorian Gray from a shelf, hoping that no one would mind if you took it back to your room.
While it wasnât getting late, it had been a long day and you were still feeling a little shaky, so you decided to do as instructed and have a shower before changing into one of the silken pairs of pyjamas that had been provided. Once youâd neatly folded and piled your old clothes by the elevator, you returned to your bedroom.
Paranoia had you checking around the room, beneath the bed and in the wardrobe, before you finally felt safe enough to lock yourself in. While it had been your plan to read until you fell asleep, you were too distracted by thoughts of home; had anyone noticed that you were gone yet? Were they looking for you? Had they been trying to call?
The only thing that you knew for certain was that no one would find you here. And, once youâd completed your year and had your million dollars, no one would find you ever again.
The next morning you realised why youâd been provided a sleep mask; as stunning as the floor to ceiling windows were, the moment the sun rose your room was filled with light. Grumbling, your hand reached for your phone on the night stand before you remembered exactly where you were and that you no longer had your phone.
There was a clock in the kitchen, on the wall above the small table where you sat and had breakfast, telling you that it was far too early to be awake.Â
After breakfast you showered and decided to spend the day getting used to your surroundings, starting with the bedroom.Â
The contents of the wardrobe left you speechless. Even the leggings and jeans were expensive brands, and some of the ball gowns... honestly, you didnât even know why they were in there, but youâd spent enough time attending balls and galaâs back home to know that each was easily worth tens of thousands of dollars. Some of the garments felt a little more questionable; corsets and dresses that would probably reveal far more than you were comfortable with.
And the shoes.
Youâd never seen so many pairs of shoes. Everything ranging from cute sneakers, to thigh-high boots with heels so big youâd break your neck if you fell over in them. Every kind of shoe for every sort of occasion, and they were all stunning.
Then, in the drawers, you had your more everyday items; underwear, tee-shirts, leggings. And, again, it seemed like no expense had been spared. Admittedly when you finally changed out of the pyjamas, it felt a little bit weird to put on underwear that you hadnât bought for yourself, and weirder still to think about how soft the lace felt on your skin.
You picked out a pair of jeggings, an oversized sweater and a pair of Uggs to wear before continuing to search through your room. There was everything you could think that you might want or need, with the exception of a laptop or phone. (And you were very mindful about ignoring the drawer of sex toys, not even wanting to think about it.)
It took you almost the whole day to get through it all and find where everything was. Once you were done, you decided to cook dinner; a simple pasta in sauce with some bread. You hadnât even stepped out of your suite and into the main apartment, youâd almost managed to forget that anything existed outside of your bubble until the sudden knock on the suite's door.Â
You opened the door to find her standing there, remembering she had promised to return at sunset.
âHave you found everything to your liking so far?â She asked as she stepped past you and made her way into the kitchen.Â
âEverything is fine,â you told her, following after. âI did have a few... questions about some things?â
She indicated that you take a seat and moved to the cupboard that contains the equipment for drawing blood. You rolled up your sleeve without being asked.
âYes?â She prompted.
âIn the wardrobe, there are ball gowns?â More statement than question and she looked at you with a raised eyebrow until you clarified; âwhy?â
âMr Russo occasionally likes to host parties or attend events in the city,â she answered, piercing your skin with the needle. âIf he decides he enjoys your company, he may ask you to attend with him.â
âOh,â you decided not to ask the ridiculous follow up and instead change direction completely. âAnd, while Iâm here Iâm not allowed a phone or the internet?â
âAs I told you yesterday, Mr Russo is a very private man. If you wish to contact loved ones, I can -â
âNo, itâs fine,â you quickly cut her off. âWhat if thereâs... I donât know, an emergency? Or something I need?â
For a second she paused, the slightest look of realisation on her face, as if sheâd just remembered something.Â
âBy the elevator, thereâs an intercom. You can use it to contact me or, if Iâm not available, you can contact the doorman.â
Which, of course, brought you to the next awkward question.
â... you never told me your name.â
âLissa,â she quickly responded, off-handedly, almost dismissively, like she thought youâd never need it.Â
Once she was finished drawing blood, you followed her out into the main area of the penthouse and over to the fridge where, to your surprise, yesterdayâs blood was gone.
âIs -â you started to ask, glancing towards that foreboding door that was off-limits to you, â- is Mr Russo here?â
âHeâs back in the city, yes.âÂ
You took that to mean that he wasnât in, so you decided not to ask any more questions - what had she told you yesterday? That heâd decide whether he wanted to meet you when he got back. Well, he was back now and, obviously, he didnât.
Lissa asked if you needed anything desperately and you told her you didnât; she didnât exactly make it seem like she was interested, more that she felt obligated.
The next few days passed in much the same way; youâd spend your afternoons exploring the penthouse, trying to get some idea of what Mr Russo was like. Then Lissa would help you draw blood and, by the end of the first week, you no longer needed her assistance. Every morning you checked the fridge and found it empty. He was there, in the penthouse. But, as the days passed, you started to think youâd never cross paths and maybe that was by design.
Maybe that was for the best, maybe it would be easier to get through the year without meeting him. You could just pretend that the penthouse was yours.
But it seemed like a lonely way to live, especially once Lissa no longer had a reason to visit. You werenât used to space or privacy, not like this. You took to muttering to yourself, moving from room to room of the penthouse just to get a little bit of variety in your life.
The first day you were completely left alone, you decided to start the morning with a run on the treadmill. It was raining outside but you tried to picture what it would be like to run through the winding paths of Central Park, all the way to the fountain. Then, after showering, you rummaged through the cupboards in the kitchen to find all the ingredients you needed to make chocolate muffins.
By the time the sun started to set, you were quietly impressed with how well youâd managed to distract yourself. But it was only one day, and you had over three-hundred and fifty more to fill. You made yourself some dinner, drew some blood and took it out to the fridge for Mr Russo, whenever he decided to get it.
Then, you ended up on the sofa.
Initially youâd only wanted to sit down for a few minutes, feeling tired and a little bit unsteady after putting todayâs blood in the fridge. You had a feeling that you might have drawn a little too much, and you found your eyes drifting shut.Â
The alarm on your watch woke you, set to remind you every night when it was approaching 9pm so you could retire to your suite, as per the rules. You felt groggy as your eyes opened, taking a second to sharpen.
And there he was, sitting on the opposite side of the wrap-around sofa, a glass in his hand, dark eyes set on you.
You sat up quickly - so quickly that it made you feel dizzy.
Your cheeks warmed, though you werenât sure if it was from embarrassment or nausea.
If he cared about your display of discomfort, he certainly didnât show it. In fact, for a moment you were sure you saw a flicker of a smirk cross his lips. For a second you found yourself staring, taking in the sight of him; dark suit, dark hair, and even darker eyes. He was stunning, even by vampire standards.
âIâm sorry, I -â you started, flustered. You didnât even know what you were apologising for. It wasnât like youâd broken any of his rules.
âSo youâre the new one,â his voice didnât sound like you thought it would. For the look of him, youâd imagined a smooth but commanding tone, instead there was something rough to it.
âYes, sir,â you answered, quickly introducing yourself to him rather than addressing what exactly he meant by the new one.
âDrink that,â he instructed and you noticed the glass of orange juice on the table. âItâll help with the blood loss.â
Your cheeks warmed a fraction, embarrassed that heâd figured out why you were sleeping on the sofa. (Just how long had he been sitting watching you sleep, anyway?)
You gave a muttered thank you before reaching for the glass and slowly starting to drink. Youâd forgotten to take your supplement too and that probably wasnât helping.
âSo, what are you running from?â
âI'm sorry?â You asked, not understanding the question.Â
âYou've agreed to spend a year living in the home of a man you've never met - a vampire, no less - so, what are you running from?â He looked at you as if he could look through you, as if he expect a lie and heâd be able to catch you in it
âIâm not running,â you answered, forcing yourself to sit a little straighter, despite the light-headedness. âI just didnât want to be at home anymore.â
âWhy not?â
âDoes it matter?â You answered flippantly before realising that that wasnât the best way to talk to your new employer. âI mean - I already signed all of your contracts, so does it make a difference?â
âIt does if I end up with your parents at the door screaming about how I spirited away their daughter and have her under my thrall so I can drain her blood.â
âHas - has that happened before?â There was something about his face, his eyes, it made it impossible to tell if he was joking or being serious. âThings like this are legal, so itâs not like they could complain...â
âYouâre avoiding the question.â
It was only then that you realised what was in his glass, the dark viscous liquid he was gently swirling. He was sitting and having this conversation with you while cradling a glass of your blood.
âIâm not avoiding it,â you decided to tell him, âI just donât want to answer it. I appreciate how this could look to some people, but I can promise you my family wonât be an issue. They donât even know that Iâm here and they have no way of finding me.â
âSo, not running, escaping,â he stated like he didnât want a response and already knew he was going to get one. And, finally, he lifted his glass and took a slow drink..
You didnât want to watch him drink, but you found that you couldnât tear your eyes away, watching the gentle bob of his throat and the way he licked his lips after draining half the glass. When he caught you looking, you dropped your attention to your own glass and took a slow drink.
âIâm not your first am I?âÂ
Sputtering, you almost choked on your drink and, for some reason, your mind immediately went to the drawer of toys in your bedroom. Your cheeks continued to warm as the corner of his mouth pulled into a smirk.
âMy first what?â
âVampire.â
âNo. I mean, Iâve never -â you took a second, trying to regain your composure. âIâve met other vampires, Iâve just never let them...â
He lifted the glass and cocked an eyebrow before taking a drink. This time when he drank, you let him see you watching, feeling your heart stutter in your chest. Again, his tongue wiped away any trace of your blood from his lips and he looked oddly satisfied.
âDo you like it here? Are you settling in?â He asked, and you were starting to realise he was trying to get a measure of you. âAre your rooms to your liking?â
âYes, you have a lovely home,â you answered before taking an awkward drink. You werenât sure what else to say about it because, outside of the library, there wasnât much to the penthouse. In fact, once you started thinking about it, you couldnât help but realise that it seemed a little cold and lonely. But, perhaps it was different in his rooms, perhaps that was where heâd made his penthouse into a home.
âYou like the library,â a statement more than a question.
âYes, I - how did you know?â Had he been spying on you? Watching you?
âMy copy of Dorian Gray,â he stated softly, and you felt your breath catch, âit doesnât seem to be where I left it.â
âItâs in my room,â you answered, worried that you might have already done something wrong - you couldnât afford to lose this job, not after only a week. âNo one told me that I couldnât take it out of the library, I just wanted something to read in bed and I -â
âItâs fine,â he interrupted, doing a poor job of hiding his amusement. âYou can take as many books from the library as you want, as long as theyâre returned undamaged.â
It seemed to mean a lot to him and, perhaps, you should have asked why but, instead, you found yourself feeling indignant.
âIâd never damage a book,â you told him, âespecially one that didnât belong to me.â
Again, he seemed more amused than fazed by your response. âSo, you like to read?â
You nodded.
âWhy?â His eyes stayed on you, staring through you, right to your soul. At least, that was how it felt. Your lips parted, but you didnât have an answer for him. Why did anyone like to read? âEscapism? Perhaps to imagine a better life? Or is it love and fantasies of fictional men who will treat you better than anyone in the real world that you enjoy?â
âIs that why you have all those books? To fantasise about fictional men?â you found yourself responding, trying desperately to ignore the heat burning through your cheeks.
He let out a laugh, a deep and dark sound that sent a shiver up your spine. The smirk on his lips grew and, for a moment, he just watched you before shrugging.
âSometimes men, sometimes women,â he admitted with ease, lifting his glass and draining it, leaving nothing but a pinkish stain on the inside of the glass. âI like you,â he decided and you werenât sure if he meant you or your blood. âThis is going to be fun.â
With that, he got to his feet and all you could do was watch, getting some idea of his height and how he held himself once he was standing. He moved with the confidence of a predator who knew his own strength even if others couldnât see it, and you knew immediately that you shouldnât underestimate him.
âYou should return to your rooms,â he told you, turning and heading for the kitchen to get rid of his empty glass. âI wouldnât want Lissa finding out that youâve already broken your contract.â
For a second you werenât sure what he meant, but then you saw the time. Twenty past nine. Heâd kept you talking for almost half an hour. (Could he really fire you for that when he was the reason?)
âIâm sorry, I didnât realise the time, I -â you got to your feet so quickly that you almost fell back down
âIâm joking,â it hadnât sounded like a joke. He glanced back towards you, offering something of a smile. âYou should go back to your rooms and rest, though. And tomorrow, take more care when youâre drawing blood. I wouldnât want you fainting.â
He didnât give you a chance to answer before moving towards the elevator and slipping inside once the doors opened.
For a few seconds, you stood, at a loss over what had just happened, before quickly making your way back to your own rooms.
CHAPTER TWO
End Notes : Sooo... there it is. I honestly hate starting new fics because I always feel like they start a little slow. I'm not sure what the posting schedule will look like for this one, I'm hoping once a week (on Friday evenings) but I'll post an update or something if that changes.
Thanks for checking this out, I know it's a bit of a departure from Catch Me if You Can. Have a wonderful weekend.
Let me know if you want to be tagged.
#billy russo#billy russo x reader#billy russo x female reader#billy russo fanfic#the punisher#billy russo imagine#(ob)ts ff
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ok so i'm so in with your theme rn and i loved your after car with jason drabble but what i really came here to say imagine poor jason todd realizes he's in love in dick's girlfriend. he doesn't say anything but he knows he can treat you better and be better for you. he knows dick cares about you but he's bad for you because he'll never fully love you but believes he can. so he watches you from afar, trying to sweet in small ways like helping fixing your car and stuff. he watches you and dick fight, break up and of course make up till the point he's fed up of watching dick play you because he's knows dicks cheating and he knows dick isn't trying to hurt you but its not fair. poor jason he doesn't want to be a rebound he just wants to give you the love you deserve.
I'm really about to break jasons pretty heart and staple it back together with this fic. apologies for the wait! I got too excited and decided to write a series about it đĽš
I'll release it chapter by chapter đ¤ and you're a genius I love ur brain đ§
and fr dick damn near slept with every dc character that man is a whore. I'm still tryna figure out what excuse imma give him for why he is a serial man whore
all jokes aside, I'm gonna have some much fun with this.
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Jason Todd x (Dick's Ex! Fem!) Reader:
chapter 1
chapter 2
warnings: this series will get heated eventually, and I'll just put a warning on those specified chapters.
this might be a long series, depends how much yall want it đ¤
Loud rain poured against Jason's window. He laid against his dark wood bed frame while reading a book. As he flicked through thin pages, the sound of you and Dick arguing could be heard from across the hall.
He wasn't exactly trying to eavesdrop, but he could make out certain sentences like âwhy's her name still..â. He sighed, growing more and more tired of the constant back and forth between you two. The conversation slowly moved from the room into the hall, and the argument could almost be heard throughout the whole manor.
âDick, I cannot do this anymore. I'm tired. I'm tired of being confused about your feelings for me!â He could then hear Dick's annoyingly condescending voice. Another tired sigh escaped Jason's lips as he ran his fingers tiredly through his dark strands. He rolled off the bed, put on a loose white tee, and slipped on black house shoes.
Pulling the door back, he wasn't even noticed by the two of you until his deep voice rumbled through the hall. Even as a quiet, âThe hellsâ all the commotion, I'm tryna read damn itâ, his voice caught your attention. You felt slightly embarrassed. But the anger just wouldn't let up. âSorry Jason, just go back to your room,â Dick pleaded, leaning against the wall with a frown. Jason rolled his eyes at Dick's continuous attempts to sound like an older brother, and his eyes flickered to yours.
Noticing your red eyes and a tear of anger falling down your cheeks, his jaw relaxed and he almost looked concerned. âYou alright?â His soft voice coaxed you out of your bubbling fit of anger. âYeah...I'm okayâŚI'm just gonna go home..â Your eyes stuck back to the floor and then you walked away, leaving the two brothers alone. Dick began to walk away, only stopping in his tracks at the mention of his name.
âDickâŚyou can't keep doin' this man-â Dick spun around shooting a cold glare at him. âDoing what? You think I want to hurt her?â Jason's eyebrows furrowed. âYou're not doing a good job of proving me wrong.â Dick walked away.
You dropped your keys on your marble console table, falling onto the couch with a sigh. You knew he wasn't right for you. This cycle of toxicity would go on and on forever unless you stuck your foot in the ground. The repeating doubts about your relationship circled your mind almost daily. You and Dick had been together since late middle school days. You went everywhere with each other and attended every dance together. You were both practically attached at the hip. You had everything in common and could get lost in various topics for hours.
But, that connection had seemed so far away. So long ago. Like a distant memory. The romance in the relationship felt like it was fading, but neither of you was ready to let it go. And it puts a strain on your relationship, even without romance.
You curled up on the soft sofa, bringing your knees to your chest and feeling stinging tears well in your eyes. You knew it was bad for you. God that's all you ever thought about. But it hurt too much to even consider ending things. He was so familiar.
You don't know how much time has passed by of you being stuck in a constant loop of repetitive thoughts, but a knock on your door shook you out of your trance.
ây/n? It's Jason, can I come in?â You quickly wiped your eyes with your shirt and straightened yourself out. âBe right there!â You cringed at that obvious wavering of your voice. You reached the door, opening it slightly so he could only see your upper half. Your head was leaned downward as a half-assed attempt to hide your tear-stained face. âHey,â was all he said, with a faint sheepish smile. You lazily nodded at him. âNeed something?â You'd hoped you didn't sound angry at him. âWell, I came here to ask you the same thing.â He shoved his hands in his pockets, a familiar habit of his. âCome in.â
(yall I cannot think of a title omg)
#jason todd x reader#jason todd#ceri drabbles#jason todd smut#jason todd x fem!reader#dick grayson x reader smut#ceris asks#red hood x reader#pining prompts#dc red hood#pining#Jason todd series
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MattDrai Fic Recs
So @irrelevanttous and @puckthisshift sent me the ask meme prompt for "what my favorite Mattdrai fic is" and I went on a JOURNEY lemme tell ya. I ended up figuring out how to download my AO3 history (in which I discovered that in the last year, I've read like literally 50% of all the MattDrai fics ever written) to help me figure out what my faves were. So here are some (most? I hope?), split into categories.
General Faves:
head above water by yourblues (@msmargaretmurry) đ (E, 91.1k) This might be one of the best pieces of RPF ever written; it's a classic. I have visited this fic literally 21 times. It has everything: stupidity, pining, incredible sex, falling for each other, also more stupidity. Chapter 6 literally rips my entire soul out every time. I think this fic permanently altered my brain chemistry. It's a perennial re-read.
only fools rush in by @bropunzeling đ (E, 94.9k) This is another fic that is a Must Read for HRPF as a whole. The entire time, I just want to reach through the screen and wring both of their necks for being so incredibly dense. And I love everything about this, especially just the way it's written is so incredible.
Growing Into Someone by @blaahaj đ (E, 46.5k) God, I love this fic so much, I come back to it all the time. I think this must've been one of the first Mattdrai works I read. But I just love how natural the initial tension is, and how inevitable their falling in love is, and how the climax happens and resolves is just so incredible.
Undo Falling for You by crookedsilence (@csblogs) đ (T, 16.1k) This is an AU I guess? I put it in this section because it's Hanahaki, so like only kinda AU. Either way, I am obsessed with this! It is just emotionally perfect. Highly recommend.
rough dream? by reticent đ (M, 7.2k) So, this fic is probably the most "out there" suggestion because of the warning (I'll get to that part) but this fic is literally the most perfect microcosm of what Mattdrai fics tend to have: pining, lack of communication, falling in love while being terrified of falling in love, etc. This is a time loop fic where Matthew is stuck in the time loop but it's told from the perspective of Leon. It is absolutely incredible. I think about this fic ALL THE TIME. The warning is for a suicide, but no "actual" character death because the time loop resets.
i'll tell you when to stop by dogjuice đ (E, 39.6k) (McMattDrai) This is the real answer to 'what fic do you send people if they want to get into MattDrai'. I have sent this to so many people because it is perfect. Everything about this is perfect. Matthew's internal dialogue and his anxiety, and his perception of what's happening. The second half of the fic is so well-written and suspenseful. Something I feel it will give me a heart attack even though I've read it like 10 times.
Future Fics
Saving the Best for Last by @puckingtrash đ (E, 100.1k) This is the fic that made me obsessed with Future Fics of current rivals. There's just a level of camaraderie and understanding that happens after that many years in the same league; it doesn't matter how much beef you had. And this fic is just so incredible. I love thinking about what these guys do after retirement. A must read IMO.
home by now by daisysusan (@hopetorun) đ (E, 102.3k) Probably one of the best fics. I love the way this builds up and keeps you on edge. It really mirrors how Matty feels, just this general unease of knowing something is wrong but not knowing what. The laying of the pining with the hurt and confusion is just so well done.
back to where we lasted by @ohtemporas đ (E, 34.4k) Trade fics are always so interesting with these two. Especially in the situation where they are exes. And one of them (Leon in this case) has fucked up greatly, and they need to figure out how to get past it because neither of them are over it. Or in this case, figure out how to do it again, but properly.
Old Flames Burn Brighter by @cisumox (E, 25k) I love this fic so much because of the way they are both clearly affected by what happened and how much they still want to love each other. I think about this one al the time. Warning: this does involve a career ending injury.
settle down in the Sunshine State by @puckthisshift đ (E, 14.7k) This has my fave Mattdrai trope where one of them is a fucking idiot, and is so in their head about it. And they have absolutely no idea what literally every single other person knows. In this case, it's Matthew. I absolutely love this fic. I read it all the time.
gather your broken lessons and move by rumandwhine đ (E, 30.5k) This one is super interesting because it doesn't involve a trade, or them in the same place. It is the same as it was before, but different. How are they doing to figure out what went wrong and how are they going to make sure they don't make the same mistakes? They are older now, but are they any less stupid. Keep reading to find out. (Also featuring an absolutely hilarious situation with Drai and his rookie).
AUs
linger by @bropunzeling đ (E, 65.5k) (Omegaverse) This is another all timer. It is so incredible: the way they are just so inexplicably drawn to each other, and obsessed but so worried about their obsession. And the way Leon treats Matthew as something really special from the beginning (and how Matthew just doesn't seem to pick up on that). The way that things build towards the climax, with the ASG 2023 moment (which makes me want to rip my eyeballs out every time; it HURTS). It has all the best parts of omegaverse and explores their relationships with their dynamics so thoughtfully.
whatever promises I made by @puckthisshift đ (E, 360k) (Omegaverse) Yet another all timer for the genre as a whole. The way that omegaverse is explored here is so interesting. It was the fic that really got me on board with the AU. It is so core to the way the characters interact with each other and the world, and the inherent traumas it brings really parallels some of the experiences of populations in the real world (e.g. women).
so is the longing by dogjuice đ (E, 44.7k) (Omegaverse) When I tell you I have read this fic sooooo many times. It is so so good (and so hot). Matthew is so incredibly oblivious and Leon is pining so hard and down soooooo bad. I think Leon's love for Matthew can be seen from like Alpha centauri and yet Matthew totally misses it (among other things). This is SO good.
Egos and Eligibility by @puckthisshift đ (E, 91.1k) (Regency & Omegaverse) I will continue to suck up to my good friend Iris LOL. But seriously, I read this before I even knew it was her and I love it so much. I adore Regency Matthew and the way Leon is literally ever MMC from the era (Mr Darcy) is so funny to me (why so pissy Leon). Regency is such a perfect setting for the Omegaverse tropes of courting and, also again, exploring the societal impact of having these dynamics in play. I think the part where Matthew goes into heat is SO funny and well written. Bridgerton wishes.
Royal Pain by lavender_hazyy đ (E, 48.9k) + Sequel Rules of Engagement (E, 37.8k) (Medieval/Royalty/Bridgerton/Robin Hood) That sounds like the most bonkers combination of things, but it's truly so so so good. I recommend this one SO much. It's so much fun to read, and their interactions are so funny. Poor Connor is always experiencing the Horrors in the background. Everything about this is perfection. THE FUCKING LOVE LETTERS OMG.
bittersweet and strange by @puckthisshift đ (E, 53.4k) (Fairytale Curses) Will I ever stop thinking about this? Probably not. :) I think so much of this is a metaphor for the "beast" that Matthew portrays himself to be (maybe believes himself to be) irl. Also, I will never get enough of Taryn as a character; she is just incredible. I will literally never forget the reveal at the end (and ever villain I ever write will be henceforth inspired by you). (Also, curly haired tiger Matthew, you will always be real to me. Leon + me *handshake emoji* wanting to tough Matthew's fur).
I honestly don't even think this is ALL of the Mattdrai fics I think about regularly/reread regularly. But these are at least a lot of them. There are also so many good recommendation lists on this website when you search for "mattdrai fic recs" that will include even more fics than the ones I've selected.
Legitimately, thank you to all Mattdrai writers out there for being the fucking GOATs. I don't know what I would be reading if not this.
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Perhaps some lucy inspo:
Lucy x (reader or ona) are on a spa trip, they havenât done anything sexual in a couple of days for x reason, so now they canât keep their hands off each other
extra inspo for if you write jealousy fics:
But there is someone (a worker or fellow visitor) who also cannot keep their hands off lucy (or ona) and eventually the mixture of jealousy, good looking gf, no sexual activities became to much and I think we can all imagine what happened either at the hotel (or at home)đ
just some inspo, you donât have to use this storyline and can also rewrite it however, perhaps private jacuzzi on vacay instead of spa day etc etc
also cannot wait for the next chapters of the fics youâre currently writing. Massive fan of your work!!
The Big O
Thank you to the beautiful anon for this idea. Here you go. Its very quick and rushed, sorry.
Warning - Smut - angry sex
âI canât wait for this. We needed a break.â Ona smiled over at Lucy as she opened the balcony doors of the hotel room. The taller girl lugged their shared suitcase into the room. Smiling at her girlfriend's excitement.
It had been a while since the couple had a break together, the last real holiday they had was after the World Cup. Yeah, they had breaks in between but they hadnât been on a summer holiday. They had both been so busy with their own schedules, not to mention the champions league. They became passing ships in the night, hardly really spending time together. That also meant that they hadnât been able to be intimate with each other in a while. 3 weeks to be exact.Â
So, yeah, they needed this. They made a promise to shut off their phones, no emails, no calls, nothing that could distract them.Â
âYeah. I just canât wait to see you in that bikini you brought.â The older brunette smiled playfully at Ona.Â
âOh, what one?â Ona smiled innocently.
The older brunette stepped into Onas space, smiling down at the doe-eyed girl. âThe one that shows off your arse perfectly.â
Ona bit her lip. Something she knew that drove Lucy crazy. The pair had been flirting the whole way here, both wanting each other desperately. Lucy was finding it hard to keep her hands to herself on the flight, her fingers had found themselves between Onaâs legs, teasingly stroking Onaâs bare thighs the whole plain journey. The younger girl didnât mind at first but when Lucy's fingers got higher and higher to her core she couldn't stop the heat burning between her legs. She was close to dragging Lucy into the plains toilet just to get some kind of release.Â
âI love it when you look at me like that.â Lucy purred. She put her finger under Onaâs chin, making the girl look up at her.Â
âLike what?â Ona whispered. She knew what she was doing.Â
A lot of people would mistake Onaâs innocent look for being the softer one in the bedroom, the more submissive one. And yeah, she definitely was but she could also be very dominating when she wanted to be. She could play Lucy so easily, and Lucy loved it. She would fall for those beautiful brown Disney like eyes everytime, doing anything Ona would ask of her.Â
âYou know exactly what I'm talking about.â Lucy cupped the shorter girl's face and slowly brought her lips to her own. It was slow at first, both feeling the other girl's mouth, tasting the other's lips. Onaâs watermelon gloss tingled the tip of Lucy's tongue, making her mouth water. Lucy grabbed the back of Ona's neck, pushing her tongue into her mouth. Ona whimpered on feeling her girlfriend's smooth tongue push past her lips and into her mouth.
âErgh, I love when you make those noises.âÂ
The Spaniard giggled, but it was cut off when Lucy pushed her on her back, hitting the soft mattress below her. She quickly climbed on top of the smaller girl, reattaching her lips to Onaâs own. It was quick messy kisses, the sounds of their wet lips smacking hard against the other. It was when Lucy started to roll her hips into Onaâs core that the Spaniard started to moan.
âLu-,âÂ
Ona was cut off from Lucy sucking on her neck.
Ona could feel her underwear becoming wetter, she wanted Lucy so badly. Her next words were going to be difficult.
âLucy, we have to st- aaa.â
Lucy quickly slipped her hand into Onaâs shorts, touching her clothed sex.
âSo wet already.â Lucy hummed cockily.
Ona gritted her teeth. It had been too long since she felt Lucy between her legs. So long since she felt those talented fingers inside her. She wanted nothing more then for Lucy to fuck her right here, right now, but she had to stop her.
âLucy, w-we have to s-stop.â
Lucy stopped, looking down at her girlfriend, who was now panting hard. Her lips swollen from Lucy's relentless sucking.
âStop? Why?â Her confused horny face made Onaâs pussy clench.
âI booked us a spa treatment. We have to be there in 10 minutes.âÂ
âAre you saying I canât have you screaming my name in 2 minutes? Because I take that as a challenge.â Lucy smirked down at Ona, capturing her lips once more.
Ona let herself get lost in Lucy's kisses once more. It was when Lucy started to push Onaâs t-shirt up, her short nails scratching against her tight skin, bringing Ona back into the presence.
âWe canât. Come. Iâll make it up to you later.â Ona gave a quick kiss to Lucy's lips before pushing her off.Â
Lucy let out a sigh and smiled. âYou will definitely make it up to me.â She slapped Onaâs arse playfully, making the younger girl yelp.
Never one to be outdone, Ona stepped in front of Lucy, giving her best doe eye impression. âIâll let you do whatever you want to me.âÂ
The northerner's jaw clenched, her eyes closed as she let out a frustrated sigh.
âYou better get us to the spa before I throw you on that bed.âÂ
Ona giggled, she loved to rile up Lucy, she had found in the past that it would always make the sex just a little more fiery, more passionate, a lot more dirty.
The girls quickly got ready for the appointment. They changed into their bikinis and headed to the spa. They checked in and waited in the seating area for their masseuse. Lucy leaned into Ona. âI definitely would have had you screaming my name in that time.âÂ
Ona chuckled. âStop. Try and calm down, youâre going to have someone touching you, I donât want you all worked up for them.âÂ
Lucy ignored that, and continued.
âI just hope you know that I brought the big one, the one that you beg me to go slow with.â
Ona felt the chills go up her back from Lucy's words. She felt her cunt tighten, thinking about that exact strap Lucy was referring to.Â
âFuck, Lucy.â Ona whispeared.
Before Ona could respond, with a full sentence, not that she really could have, her mind had turned to mush, two women came into the waiting room.
âHi, Iâm Sarah, Iâm here for Lucy.â A blonde woman smiled at the pair.Â
âThat's me.â Lucy smiled.
âAnd you must be Ona. Iâm Sam.â The tall brunette masseuse smiled at the younger girl.Â
Lucy didnât miss the way the masseuse eyed up Ona.Â
âThat's me.â Ona smiled.
âPerfect.â Sam's grin was devilish. Lucy didnât like it one bit.
The women sat next to each of the girls, talking about the session and what it would involve. Even though Lucy was trying to listen, her eyes kept wandering over to Ona and the tall brunette. They were speaking Catalan. The women had heard Onaâs accent and of course she happened to also be Catalonian too. So even though Lucy knew a lot of Spanish, she wasn't able to pick up the conversation. Especially at the rate they were speaking. Whatever they were talking about must have been funny because Ona was constantly laughing at the pretty brunette. And for some particular reason Sam had to constantly keep touching Onaâs bare thigh.Â
âSo does that sound good, Lucy?â Sarah asked.
Lucy was pulled out of her stare off, with the back of Sam's head. âHmm? Oh yeah, that's great.â She nodded.Â
âGreat. Iâm just going to grab some bits and weâll head over.âÂ
Lucy nodded and smiled, she wasn't even sure what treatment she had agreed on.
âGrcias Sam.â Ona smiled. Sam walked out of the room, possibly doing the same thing Sarah was doing. Ona looked over at Lucy, who looked a bit flustered.Â
âHey, what are you getting?â Ona asked.
âOh erm, the Swedish rock salt, tissue massage.â Lucy was sure that's what Sarah said. âYou?â
âSam suggested I get a full body deep tissue massage. She said it's the best type for what we do.â
âHmm, so she knows who you are?âÂ
âYeah, she's actually not far from my town.â
âHmm, small world.â Lucy smiled, but it was her weird smile. Ona knew that smile.
The women came back, holding white robes. They followed each woman to their own rooms. The pair smiled as they separated. Lucy noticing once more how Samâs eyes roamed over Ona. Even though this was meant to be a relaxing moment, Lucy was far from relaxed. She couldn't stop thinking about Ona in the other room, being touched by the other woman.Â
âOkay, so youâre very tight on your shoulders, Iâm going to work on that for a bit. Just try to relax, you feel very tense.â Sarah said.
Lucy hummed. Even though Sarah had no clue about why Lucy was currently very tense right now, she knew she was right, she needed to relax. She tried. Though she couldn't stop the thoughts of Samâs hands going an inch too high up Onaâs towel, or an inch too low down her back. Or if she made Ona moan from her touches, what if she made those cute sexy noises that only Lucy pulled from her. Lucy may have regretted teasing Ona before the session.
The 45 minutes had passed. Lucy got dressed and thanked Sarah, though the girl was only more tense. Lucy waited in the waiting room for Ona, even though they both had a 45 minute treatment, Lucy waited another 15 minutes before she saw Ona. The girl had a giant dopey smile on her face. Her cheeks had a pink flush to it. Her hair had been in her neat classic bun before she went in the room with Sam, but now it was down and messy. The girl literally looked like she had just been fucked. And Lucy would know, she had made her look like that plenty of times.
âHow was it?â Ona asked, her voice sounded rough.
âGood, you?âÂ
âSoooo good, I donât think Iâve ever had it like that before. She knew what she was doing.â Ona smiled.
âHmm, good, good. Why so long?âÂ
âOhh, it was her last session, she gave me head,- a head massage.â Ona started to bun her hair back up.
Lucy raised her brows at Onaâs words. âOhhh, nice of her.âÂ
Ona nodded, not noticing Lucy's clear annoyance, or if she did she was ignoring it.Â
âYeah. Iâm hungry. Shall we grab something to eat?Â
âSure.âÂ
The girls grabbed lunch in the hotel. Lucy had calmed down after Ona snaked her hand in hers, mindlessly stroking her knuckles, something that Lucy loved. She knew she was just being jealous, not having sex for so long probably made it worse. Her body was ready to combust and the quick make out session they had in the hotel room before really didn't help.
They sat at the hotel's beach, soaking in the sun, finally relaxing. She looked over at Ona laying on her front, her beautiful arse cheeks swallowing the bikini. Lucy had to lick her lips, making sure she wasn't actually dribbling.
âDo you want a drink? Iâll go to the bar.â
Ona smiled, pushing her glasses down. âCan I get a strawberry daiquiri, please?âÂ
Lucy kissed Ona deeply, holding the back of her head. âOf course you can.âÂ
Lucy made her way to the bar, she ordered the drinks then noticed the TV. The bar was playing the football, it was Chelsea vs Man City, a game she was hoping to watch. She took a seat at the bar, waiting for the cocktail to be made, but also wanting to get comfy as she watched on.Â
Lucy had a few favourite things in this world, and watching football was one of them. Fucking Ona until she couldnt feel her legs no more was another. Playing football was another. Ona probably couldn't tell you in what order that went from top to bottom.Â
It had been 10 minutes Ona looked towards the bar, wondering where her girlfriend was, she wasn't worried, they were still at the hotel. She knew when Lucy was in a good mood the girl could make friends with anyone, so she imagined she was maybe talking to a fan or something. Another 10 minutes and still nothing, thatâs when Ona heard that very familiar roar of a bar that she realised why Lucy had not returned. Of course.Â
âHow's your head?â Ona looked up to see Sam the masseuse. With the way Sam was smiling at Ona, she couldnât help but think Sam was trying to have a double meaning with that question.Â
âA lot better thank you. I definitely feel more relaxed.â Ona smiled.
âGood, Iâm glad to hear it, I've been told by many girls that my hands have relieved a lot of tension. My fingers know just where to hit those spots.â Samâs smile was dangerous.Â
She was coming on strong. Ona would normally politely turn down a girl who was flirting with her. But, Ona was annoyed with Lucy right now. They were meant to be on holiday, relaxing together, no phones, no screens, no interruptions. Ona also wouldn't have minded if she had watched it for 5 minutes and came back. But she had been gone for 30 minutes, Lucy had clearly got lost in the game. Â
That's when Ona decided to make things interesting. She carried on speaking to Sam. She knew half time would have to be any minute now. And just like clock work, she did, just in perfect timing, she could see Lucy getting up from the bar. Putting her plan in motion.Â
âSam. Could you get my back, please. I can feel it getting red.âÂ
Sam couldn't have moved quick enough. She took the bottle of sun cream from Onaâs hand and began to rub her back. Ona even undid her bikini straps at her neck, making a show of it. And that show had finally caught the attention of green eyes. Lucy's green eyes.Â
Ona closed her eyes and stretched her neck as Sam pressed her fingers deeply into her muscles. She could hear Lucy was close. So she moaned. She didnât even have to put it on too much, as Sam did genuinely have magic fingers. Ona let out another groan, but this time it turned into a small whimper.Â
Lucy wasn't a violent person, but she wanted nothing more than to rugby tackle Sam to the floor. She watched as her fingers slowly rubbed against Onaâs skin, she even made Ona arch as she hit spots that not even Lucy could hit, because she didnât know what muscle even did that. As she got closer she even heard Ona moan, then she heard her whimper. That was the whimper that only Lucy made her do. Now here she was watching her girlfriend moan for another woman right in front of her.
âI didnât realise the hotel offered massages outside the spa.â Lucy almost growled.Â
âOh, hey babe, Sam was passing by so I asked her to top up my cream.â Ona smiled.
Lucy knew that smile, she knew what Ona was doing. She continued.
âYou were gone for a while. Did you get my drink?â Ona asked.
âOh, yeah sorry. Theyâre playing the game, I just wanted to catch the last bit of it.â Lucy looked guilty.Â
âHmm. I see.â Ona nodded.Â
âHere's your drink.â Lucy passed over Ona a warm, cocktail, even as she passed it she realised how stupid this looked.Â
Sam decided to involve herself in the conversation. âAye, that drink is no good. I can make a better cocktail than this. Give me 5 minutes, Iâll be right back.âÂ
Ona smiled widely up at Sam. âOh thank you. You donât have to do that.âÂ
Sam laughed, responding in their mother tongue, making Ona giggle.
Lucy had to hold her fists by her side. Her anger for Sam growing all the more. She sat down in her deck chair. Looking at the younger girl. âSorry Ona. I was gone for too long.Â
âYou were.â She only confirmed.Â
âIâm sorry. I know we said no screens, I just got carried away.â She grabbed Onaâs hand kissing the back of it, making Ona smile at her.Â
âIt's okay. You can make it up to me.â She smirked, not looking at Lucy.
Lucy was relieved to see Ona wasn't actually angry. She moved in close to her girlfriend, kissing her neck, she could taste the salt from her sweat, she sucked on her skin, relishing in the way Ona gasped.Â
âIâd do anything to make you smile.â
Just like Sam promised she was back in 5 minutes, much to Lucy's dismay..Â
âHere you go, this my own personal cocktail. I call it âThe big O.â She winked.
Even though Sam was rude enough to flirt openly with Ona, she had also made a cocktail for Lucy. Ona sat up taking the glass from Sam.
âOhh it looks amazing. Thank you Sam.â Ona smiled. She wrapped her lips around the pink straw and hummed. âWow, that's really good. Try it Luce.âÂ
Lucy rolled her eyes behind her sunglasses. She imagined Ona was just being polite, she took her own sip. Wow, yeah, no, that was good. It was maybe the best cocktail she had ever had. But Sam didn't need to know that.
âBit sweet for me. Thank you though.âÂ
Sam smiled. âThat's okay, everyone has a type, no? Anyways, enjoy the sun. Intenta no cremar, nena bonica.â She winked at Ona as she walked off.
Lucy was seething, she might not be an expert at the language but she knew enough to know she had just called Ona.Â
âI donât like her.â Lucy grunted.
Ona chuckled, she loved Lucy like this. âOh stop. She's just doing her job.âÂ
Lucy folded her arms like a sulking toddler. Ona could only smile at her girlfriends cute, jealous antics as she drank the delicious cocktails.
The evening arrived, the girls rushed up to their rooms to get ready for another reservation Ona had made, it was only for dinner but it was a balcony view that you had to book in advance. If Ona knew how worked up the pair was going to be she would have just ordered room service. Lucy of course couldn't keep her hands off of the younger girl as she came out of the shower, slapping Onaâs arse cheeks as she walked past her.Â
They arrived for their dinner reservation, and Ona was grateful she had the willpower to stop Lucyâs hand creeping into her underwear just before they left the hotel room. The view was breathtaking, it overlooked the sea and the other islands. The sun was halfway to setting, making the sky a beautiful pink and orange colour. The girls had their dinner, happy to be in one another's company. They had needed this, just them, nothing in their way. Even though they both had wanted to tear each other's clothes off every waking minute, this was something they needed. Catching up with certain bits of their lives that they hadn't been able to in a while.Â
The girls finished their dinner and headed to the beach. The hotel had an event each night for the guests. Tonight was salsa dancing. Lucy and Ona sat at a table waiting for the entertainment. A pretty waitress came over to take their order.
âHey, what can I get for you?â She looked at Lucy, a shy smile on her face.
âHi, can I please get a beer. Ona?â Lucy looked over.
âA strawberry daiquiri please.âÂ
The waitress smiled at Lucy. âNo, problem.â She walked off to get their drinks.
âSomeones a fan.â Ona rolled her eyes.
âSheâs just being friendly.â Lucy chuckled.
The girl returned with their orders. âHere you go Miss Bronze.âÂ
Lucy didn't stop the grin on her face. âThank you.âÂ
âAnd your martini.â She handed Ona the drink.
âOh erm, I didn't order this.âÂ
âNo? Oh, Iâm sorry. I must have gotten a bit flustered, Iâm a really big fan.â She eyed Lucy up with absolutely no shame. âWhat was it you ordered?âÂ
Ona stared at the waitress. Her normally soft eyes turned angry.
âA strawberry daiquiri.âÂ
âThatâs right, sorry. I'll grab that for you now.â
âThank you. Donât stress, we all make mistakes.â Lucy smiled.Â
The waitress put her hand on Lucy's naked muscle. âThank you.â
Ona rolled her eyes, seething in her seat. Out of the two Ona was definitely the more jealous one.Â
This time it wasnt the waitress that came over, it was Sam, again. Did she not take a break?
âHola, I saw the mix up. Sorry about that, I took the liberty of making my âBig Oâ you look like you need it.â
âSam! Thank you! I wanted to ask if they served it but you mentioned it was your own cocktail.â She sucked on her straw.
Lucy cleared her throat. âDo you work on every section or?â
Ona nudged Lucy under the table.
Sam chuckled. âI do work a lot of the hotel, si. Iâm actually working in the entertainment tonight.â
âOf course you are.â Lucy muttered under her breath, Sam nor Ona heard her.
âSo, Ona did you want to take up my offer for the message session?â
âWhat's this?â Lucy asked.
âSam said I needed more work done to my upper thighs and lower back. She said I had a lot of tension there.â
âSi, I offered for her to have another treatment. Her body needs some extra attention in those areas. She's very tight. I could release her from that tension.â Sam smiled at Ona.
âIâll definitely let you know. We have a few days planned.â Ona smiled, sipping on Sam's cocktail.
âPlease do, it would be my pleasure.â Sam smirked as she walked away.Â
Lucy could see the newspapers already. âBronze turned boxer.â or âLucy AliâÂ
âShe couldn't be any more obvious if she tried.â Lucy sneered.
Ona grabbed her hand, and kissed her knuckles. âIt doesn't matter. It's you who I want. It's you who will be fucking me later. It's you who I love.â
Lucy couldn't hold back the shiver that kissed her skin. She leaned into Onaâs face, kissing the girl with a passion Ona hadn't felt in a while. Just as they pulled apart the lights dimmed, and the stage lit up. Music boomed in from the speakers, salsa dancers came onto the stage.Â
The entertainment was amazing, the girls were enjoying themselves. The first show finished and the audience clapped for the dancers.Â
It wasn't until a familiar face came on stage that Lucy felt her shoulders drop. Sam came on stage in traditional salsa wear. It was a very different sight for the uniform she wore before. She had a beautiful body, her curves sat in the black dress perfectly. The music began, her and the male partner danced the tango, it was undeniably one of the sexiest dancers two people could do.Â
The dance came to an end, the crowd clapped loudly for Sam and her partner. They bowed and the male dancer walked off stage.Â
âThank you, now it is your turn. I need a partner. I'm going to pick two volunteers, and I donât take no for an answer.â Samâs eyes landed on the shorter brunette.
Lucy's stomach dropped.
Sam stepped down off the stage, she pointed at one man who stood up quickly, making his way on the stage. She didn't have to walk very far as she put her hand out for Ona to take.
Lucy could tell Ona wasn't sure what to do, her big brown doe eyes looked almost worried. Lucy didn't want that. Yes, she could be jealous and possessive but she wouldn't actually want Ona to feel like she couldn't do something because of her jealousy. Thatâs not how she wanted this relationship.Â
Ona stared at her, needing some kind of confirmation, she wouldnât do it if Lucy would genuinely be hurt. She saw the small smile and nod that Lucy gave her, giving her the green light. She took Samâs hand, allowing her to be led to the stage.Â
âCan I please have a round of applause for my volunteers. Please tell us your names.âÂ
âIâm Craig.â The guy smiled.
âIâm Ona.âÂ
Lucy did the loudest wolf whistle she could muster, causing Ona to giggle.Â
âOkay, the challenge is to dance. Whoever can keep up with me wins. If you forget or falter you are out. The winner wins a bottle of champagne.â Sam said.Â
Now, it doesnât matter what the prize is. Ona and Lucy will want to win everytime, even if the prize is just to gloat. So, yeah, Lucy was going to cheer Ona on. Even if Sam was very obvious and wanted her girl. They needed to win.Â
Sam went through some steps with the pair. Very basic at first, just a one, two step, dip kind of thing. Ona and Craig stayed on count. Lucy couldnât help but watch as Onaâs hips made an easy step look so sexy. Sam gave them more steps, getting more technical and faster, the audience cheered as they kept up with her.Â
âWell done, now we put it to the test. You will dance the steps. I will jump in with you, whoever can keep with me the longest, wins.âÂ
It would be impossible for either of them to keep up with her, she was a professional dancer, but that was probably the point. Sam pointed to the guy to go first. The music started and he began to dance, he kept up with the basic steps. The crowd cheered him on, he wasn't too bad. Sam then stepped closer taking his hands to dance with him. As soon as she made it faster he messed up.Â
The audience clapped for his efforts. Sam strode up to Ona. The music started to play again and Ona did the steps. Lucy knew Ona could dance, she always looked so easy and free when she did, her body could move like a snake. So, she looked very natural with these steps. Sam then took Onas hands and began to dance with her, Lucy noticed Sam's hand placements straight away, one on her hip verging on her arse, the other clasped with her hand.
She made the steps quicker but Ona kept up easily, Sam pushed herself closer to the shorter girl, looking down at her. The girl was taller than Lucy, so Ona looked even tinier next to her.Â
Sam smirked down at Ona, realising she could actually dance. She began to twirl Onaâs smaller body, bringing her back into her chest, faces inches from her own. If Lucy didn't hate Sam she would have thought it was actually quite sexy. Ona and Sam were wearing very samilair dresses, making the dance even more in sync. Sam spun Ona again and dipped her backwards. Ona must have hid this talent from Lucy because she was keeping up with Sam no problem, she looked like a professional dancer. Her face was as focused as it was on a football pitch.Â
Sam brought her to her body again, Onaâs thigh slipped between Sams as they danced closely, Sam's hands slipped into Onaâs hair and made a circular motion. Onaâs eyes closed as she was moved around easily. Okay, yeah, Lucy was horny, and jealous?
Sam twirled the petite girl once more and brought Onaâs back to her chest. She brought her face close to Onaâs neck, her lips barely just touching Onaâs skin, then twirled her again. She began to slowly dip Ona backwards, her hand gliding up the girl's thigh, revealing her muscular leg. She pushed her thigh high, against her own body, it looked so sexual, it almost felt like you were interrupting something. Her face came close to Onaâs lips then, down her neck, then down her chest.Â
Lucy was feeling many different feelings right now, and horny was the biggest one, but she was also so proud of Ona. She didnât know the girl could dance like that. The music ended and Sam slowly brought Ona back up to her feet, both smiling and out of breath.Â
The hotel guest jumped to their feet and cheered, including Lucy. Ona looked straight at her girlfriend, happy to see her smiling.Â
Sam lifted Onaâs hand and bowled, she then took a step back to let Ona have the moment. Lucy looked at her girlfriend, she was slightly out of breath, her face was flushed, her once neat hair tousled. Lucy needed her.Â
Sam whispered something in Onaâs ear but that girl was paying her no attention, she could feel the way Lucy was looking at her. In this very moment it was just her and Lucy, her green eyes were undressing her body.Â
Sam brought over the cold champagne. âOna, everybody!â The crowd clapped once more. Ona thanked Sam while taking her prize. She made quick steps towards Lucy.Â
âRoom. NowâÂ
That's all Ona needed to say and Lucy was up.
Ona gasped as her back hit the wall of their hotel room. Lucyâs mouth was all over her neck. Her tongue sucked, and licked at her bare skin. She was leaving marks. Ona could tell. She couldn't stop her even if she wanted to. Lucy was lost in a haze, biting and sucking her skin in between her lips. She wanted to mark the girl. Make a point that she was hers. No one else's.Â
âFuck, Luce.â Ona struggled to see straight.Â
âYou liked it didn't you? All day. Making me jealous? Hmm?â Lucy asked.Â
Ona smirked. âSĂ, I did.âÂ
Lucy hummed. âI guess Iâll have to remind you who you belong to.â She gave Ona a particularly sharp bite to the neck. Making the girl cry out.Â
She grabbed the shorter brunette by the waist, her lips attached to hers. She kissed Ona deeply, almost roughly. She cradled the back of her head as she moved them to the foot of the bed. Ona moaned at the sheer strength of Lucy's tongue, pushing its way into her mouth, taking full control of the kiss. She pulled back.
âStrip. Get on the bed.â Lucy commanded.Â
Ona nodded, striping herself of her clothes.Â
The older brunette made her way to their suitcase, looking for her strap. Lucy removed her clothes, leaving her completely naked. She pulled the harness up her strong thighs, adjusting the thick strap between her legs. She heard a small gasp behind her. She turned around to see Ona on her back, her head on the pillows with her hand between her legs. Lucy smirked, she loved watching Ona pleasure herself, she would watch her all day if she could, but she would always end up replacing Onaâs hand with her own, or her mouth.Â
She slowly walked over to the bed, Onaâs fingers were glistening with her juices, her eyes closed tightly as she circled her sensitive clit. Lucy watched as her girlfriend started to lose herself in her own pleasure, her small whimpers and whines making Lucy lose her calm resolve. She wanted to be inside her. She kneeled on the bed and slowly crawled to the petite women, trying not to make too much movement. She was like a moth to the flame, mesmerised by Ona, she couldn't take her eyes away from her glistening lips, her own mouth watering at the sight in front of her.Â
The taller brunette brought her lips to Onaâs thigh, kissing the sensitive flesh. Ona smiled, feeling her girlfriends lips on her, she opened her eyes watching Lucy crawl closer to her.
âKiss me.â Ona whispered.Â
Lucy moved higher up Onaâs thighs, closer to her sex, Lucy could smell how wet Ona was, the buds on her tongue watering at the thought of tasting her. She couldn't wait any longer, she would normally tease Ona a lot more, kiss her all over her petite body, make her beg for her, but she had waited too long. She dipped her head to Onaâs core, causing Ona to move her hand away. She took one long lick up her folds onto the sensitive bud.Â
âNo, Luce kiss me, please.âÂ
Lucy lifted her head up, Ona was looking down at her, pleading for her. She could never deny Ona anything, especially like this. She crawled up to the shorter brunette, her body was so small under hers. She made sure to let the dick rub against Onaâs body as she moved, reminding her exactly what she was going to do to her. Reminding her exactly who Ona belonged to.
Ona squirmed as she felt the thick rubber press against her. She grabbed Lucy's face and brought their lips together. Ona tried to take control but Lucy didn't allow it, she roughly pushed her tongue into Onaâs making her gasp. The older brunette was losing patience, and Ona could tell. Her strong hips started to move against Onaâs body, she wanted to fuck her, she wanted to here Ona scream her name.
But so did Ona. She wasn't the only one who got riled up by jealousy tonight. Yeah, Lucy maybe had to endure it a lot more, but Ona also knew Lucy was about to wreck her. And she knew she could go for hours if she wanted to. And Ona needed to come now, not in a couple of hours, while Lucy made her beg. The petite girl wrapped her leg around Lucy's body and easily flipped them. Lucy was on her back with Ona on top, smiling down proudly at her own strength.
âYouâre so easy Luce.â The shorter brunette whispered into her ear, making Lucy shiver.
âIâm going to ride your face until Iâm satisfied, then you can do what you want with me. Does that sound good, baby?â
Lucy nodded quickly. This was the Ona people didn't get to see, (for obvious reasons.) The sweet doe eye Spaniard could be just as dominating as the brunette beneath her. Maybe even more.
She quickly crawled up Lucy's body, ready to take what she wanted from her. She planted her thighs next to Lucy's head and lowered her wet pussy onto Lucy's hot mouth.Â
âFuck.â Onaâs eyes closed as she dropped her head back. As soon as she felt Lucy's soft mouth on her painfully throbbing clit she couldn't wait. She moved her hips into Lucy's mouth, she snaked her fingers into the dark roots of Lucy's hair, and grinded her hips. Lucy wrapped her hands around Ona's hips, helping her guide her movements. She lapped at Onaâs cunt, her thick juices covered her tongue, the girl was wet. Lucy swallowed the mouthful of fluids, moaning as she felt the wetness glide down her throat. Â
Ona had one hand in Lucy's hair the other on the head board, giving her full control in how she moved her body against Lucy's skillful tongue. She was dominating the situation, and Lucy was happy enough to be used for Onaâs pleasure. She loved when Ona took charge, the dominant energy in her would switch off so easily, and allow the normally softer lover to take what she wanted.Â
Lucy wrapped her lips around Onaâs soft bundle of nerves, making the girl groan loudly, her hips becoming more rough. She knew Lucy could take it. She could feel the swell in her stomach grow. She grabbed Lucy's head with both hands and began to fuck her face, she could hear how wet she was as Lucy slurped on her velvety folds.Â
âHmm, Lucy, your mouth. Are you swallowing?âÂ
Lucy hummed. Ona had a kink for Lucy swallowing her essence, she loved to hear the girl's throat drinking her down. Especially when she came, she would hold Lucy's head down to make sure she cleaned and swallowed every bit of her up. Not letting her move until she was happy.Â
Ona felt the tickling vibration from Lucy's mouth. She smiled down at the girl as she fucked her face. âGood girl. Make sure you swallow when I come.â
Lucy hummed again. Sending sweet vibrations into the petite girl. âFuck, Lucy, Just like that, Dont stop.â
Ona grinded her hips deep into Lucy's mouth. Her thighs started to shake. The grip in Lucy's hair was almost painful. She let out a cry as she felt Lucy suck perfectly on her clit. She came hard against the girl's tongue. Lucy groaned as she felt Onas wetness slowly drip into her mouth. Swallowing it as loudly as she could. Ona slowed her movements, trying to catch her breath. She looked down at her beautiful girlfriend, licking and cleaning her up. She gently stroked Lucy's hair back.Â
âYouâre so good. So good.âÂ
Lucy hummed as she continued licking and swallowing, catching every drop she could. Ona didn't move, she stayed on Lucy's face, enjoying the feeling of her tongue stroking her sensitive folds. They stayed like this for a while, until Ona decided she wanted more. She began to move her hips again, gently this time. Allowing Lucy to move at the pace she wanted.Â
Lucy looked up at Ona, she watched as her girlfriend's body gently rocked against her mouth. She looked breathtaking. Her long brown chestnut hair dripped down her chest and back, her eyes were closed as she was lost in the pleasure of Lucy's mouth. She began to make small whimpers as she approached her second orgasm. She came again, crying as she flung her head back in pleasure. Lucy swallowed and suckled just the way the Spaniard liked. Ona gasped as Lucy caressed her with her tongue, finally not able to take anymore, she lifted herself off the older girl and dropped on the bed beside her.
âYour mouthâs amazing.â Ona breathed out.Â
Lucy chuckled, she sat up looking at Onaâs body next to her, she could see the bruises forming on her neck from her earlier assault. Her cunt was aching looking at her.
Lucy wasn't a rough lover, she definitely liked to take control and be in charge but she wasnt rough. But with all the emotions of jealousy running through her, seeing Sam's hands all over her girlfriend's body woke something up in her. She moved to the end of the bed, she leaned forward and grabbed Ona by her waist, easily moving the girl. Ona yelped.
âOn your knees.â
Ona looked shocked by the sudden change in Lucy's mood. She dropped to her knees in front of Lucy. Ona saw the huge appendage between Lucy's legs, it was their biggest toy, Ona enjoyed using it now and again but a lot of the time Lucy had to go slow. So it wasn't their most used item.
Ona didnât feel as cocky as she did before, staring down Lucyâs huge strap.
âOpen.âÂ
Ona nodded her head, she opened her mouth and took in the tip of the dick. Lucy's hands snaked into her lose her, guiding her head down the dick. She stopped before she got half way, the girth of the toy was already stretching out her lips.
âThatâs it baby.â Lucy started to move her hips forward, pushing Onaâs head back against the mattress. Onaâs hands were on the older brunette's thighs. Lucy removed her hands and pushed them above her head, onto the mattress. Making her press deeper into Onaâs mouth. The spaniard gagged as Lucy began to slowly fuck her face against the bed.Â
âYou look so good Ona, you're taking it so well. Donât stop baby.âÂ
Ona felt the thick plastic slide its way down her throat. Ona could tell Lucy was definitely about to take out some pent up anger on her throat. And that was exactly what the Spaniard wanted, she knew she pushed Lucy today.Â
Lucyâs hip started to pick up pace, she held Onaâs wrist in one hand the other gripping at her head. Ona moaned at the new speed, she could feel herself dripping, being used like this from Lucy was a rarity, Lucy looked down at Ona, her doe like eyes were prickling with tears. Her lips sliding up and down the appendage.Â
âYou drive me crazy Ona.â Lucy pushed deeper.Â
Onaâs head was basically trapped between Lucy and the mattress, she could feel her breathing getting more difficult as the dick took up most of the space in her throat, restricting her of air. Tears were streaming down her cheeks now, she started to choke around Lucy's dick. Lucy pulled back, Ona gasped as air hit her lungs again. Her spit was attached to the tip of the strap. Lucy smiled down at her.Â
âTake some more.â Lucy pushed her dick back to Onaâs swollen lips.Â
Ona opened her mouth, ready for what Lucy would want to give her.Â
âSo, you enjoy making me jealous?â Lucy snapped.
Onaâs eyes squeezed shut as Lucy pushed herself deeper into her mouth.Â
âYou liked making me angry? Liked flirting with your little girlfriend?â
Ona moaned, angry Lucy was a sexy Lucy. Spit started to dribble from her mouth at Lucy's pace.
âLook at you, you love it don't you, Ona? You love being a little brat.âÂ
Lucy finally slid the whole strap down Onaâs throat, pushing the base perfectly against her clit. She rocked her hips into Onaâs face, thoroughly face fucking the girl. Ona began to choke on the thick plastic, tears rolled down her face.
Lucy pulled out of Onaâs mouth, not wanting to actually hurt the girl. Ona coughed and sputtered as she was able to breathe again. Lucy grabbed Ona by her arms and threw her on the bed like she was nothing, another thing Ona went wild for, Lucy's strength, the girl could carry her around like she was nothing, and when she was angry, like she was now, it would always came into play.
Lucy didn't wait around, she sunk two fingers into Onaâs core. The girl gasped at the new intrusion between her legs, Lucy couldn't help but smile at the beautiful noise that escaped Onaâs mouth.Â
âSo tight Ona, you need to open up for me.â Lucy purred in the girl's ear.
âFuck, Luce.â Ona groaned, Lucy picked up the pace quickly, the obscene noise that came between Onaâs legs was pornagraphic. She was so wet from Lucy fucking her face, and Lucy knew it. Ona loved rough sex, Lucy did too, but she was always the one to make sure Ona was okay with everything they did. They had their colours, they knew the limits, and Lucy knew Ona would stop her if she ever needed to, the same went for Lucy.
Lucy removed her fingers from Ona and rubbed her wetness over the strap, covering the dick in Onaâs natural lube. The girl had a lot of it. She lined herself up, looking down at Onaâs pussy.Â
âYou ready baby?â
âPlease Lucy, I need you.âÂ
Lucy pushed the head off the very girthy dick into Onaâs dripping cunt. She would normally let Ona get used to the thickness but today she didn't have the composure. She pushed her hips until she bottomed out into Ona, causing the girl to whimper with each inch that pushed past her tight walls.Â
âFuck Ona.â Lucy knew she couldn't actually feel it, but the noises Ona made alone drove her crazy. She started to grind her hips into Ona, the shorter girl whimpered in her ears as she took what Luct gave her.
âL-Lu- cy!â Ona groaned out as she felt Lucy speed up, the pain quickly turned into pleasure as her pusy swallowed her.Â
âYouâre mine, Ona.â Lucy grunted.
âSi. Si. Yours.â
âDonât ever forget that.â Lucy started to suck on Onaâs skin. Making more marks.Â
Ona couldn't talk, the pace of Lucy's hips was unforgiving. Lucy was lost in her own world, fucking the girl beneath her. She grabbed Onas leg and lifted it over her shoulder, pushing herself ever deeper into the petite girl. She groaned at the tightness of the girl. Ona groaned deeply, swearing and muttering between English and Catalan. Lucy was working her body hard, all that pent up anger being used on her body, it only made Ona more wet, building up another orgasm.
Lucy could feel the base of the strap hitting her perfectly.Â
âYouâre taking it so well baby. You didn't even make me go slow, youâre so good. So good for me.âÂ
Lucy's words pushed Ona further to her climax. Her body was sweating underneath Lucys, the girl's stamina was a curse and a blessing.
âIâm going to come Lucy.âÂ
âNo, just a little more baby. Wait for me, just a little more.âÂ
Ona gritted her teeth as Lucy used her body to chase her climax, her own knot in her stomach was stepping dangerously close to the edge. She knew if she came Lucy wouldn't stop, and she didn't think she could take that kind of work on her body right now. So she tried her best to hold on.Â
Lucy's hips moved a fraction deeper inside the Spaniard, getting herself closer to her end goal. But it only made it harder for Ona.Â
âL-L.âÂ
âShhh baby.â Lucy brought her hand up to stroke Onaâs sweaty head. âYou can take it. Just a little more. Give me a little more.â She grunted, closing her eyes, as her clit started to throb. She looked down at the beautiful girl below. Her big brown eyes looked up at Lucy, there was so much love in those eyes, so much trust. Pushing Lucy closer.
Ona sucked in her breath, she closed her eyes, her head was throbbing from the pressure of it all. Until she heard that unmistakable groan from the girl above.Â
âFuck, Iâm coming.âÂ
Lucys hips pushed deeper into Ona, the girl let out a high pitched cry as she was finally allowed to come. Lucy let out a deep groan, her hips never stopping, until her body reached that perfect release, pushing the girl deeper into the mattress.Â
âFuck.â Lucy panted into Onaâs sweaty neck. She gently pulled out of the younger girl, flopping beside her.
âYou okay?â Lucy looked over at Ona.
Ona smiled. âSo good.âÂ
The girls caught their breath. Lucy slipped off the harness. Ona rolled over to her girlfriend, and began to kiss her neck, sucking and biting her sweaty skin. Lucy gathered Onaâs hair in one hand and guided her down her stomach.Â
âGive me your mouth baby.âÂ
Ona happily did what she was told, and made her way down Lucy's body, kissing her abs on the way down. She slowly kissed her hips, then slowly made her way down to the crease of Lucys lips. But she didn't touch her where she needed her. She slowly kissed over her wet lips instead, and began to kiss her thighs. She knew Lucy didn't have the patience for her teasing. The older brunette grabbed her chin.
âKeep teasing me, and Iâll fuck you over that balcony and let your little girlfriend see how loud you can be.âÂ
Ona chuckled. âI love you.â She smirked.
Lucy groaned. This girl was such a fucking tease. She smiled and stroked Onaâs face lovingly. âI love you baby. Now let me come in that pretty mouth.â
Ona wrapped her lips around Lucy's swollen clit. Lucy hissed at the first touch, she wasn't going to last long at all. Ona moaned as her girlfriend's arousal soaked her tongue, she began to suckle on the bundle of nerves just the way she knew Lucy loved. The older brunette, entangled her fingers into Onaâs long hair and started to fuck her face. Ona moaned at the grip on her hair as Lucy used her body once more to get off.Â
âJust like that. You look so beautiful like this.âÂ
Ona moaned at Lucy's words. The girl grinded her hips into her mouth as Onaâs tongue hit her clit over and over again.Â
âIâm coming. Donât stop.â She pulled Ona closer into her core, keeping the girl where she needed her. Ona felt Lucyâs juices cover her tongue, she groaned at the amount of sheer wetness that flowed into her mouth.Â
âOnaaa.â Lucy looked down at the girl, her tongue lapped up at her soaking cunt.Â
She let Ona stay there for a little while, until it got too much. She moved her head away, laughing at Onaâs pout when the girl didnt want to move. Ona laid next to Lucy kissing her neck and snuggling next to her girlfriend.
âBest holiday ever.â Ona whispered.
âHmm and it's only the first day.â
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Who Taught You How to Love Like That? - Chapter Five
Pairing: Modern!Aemond Targaryen x female character (third person) Warnings: Sugar daddy/sugar baby dynamics. Smut. Angst. Word count: ~3.5k
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Chapter summary: Aemond dwells upon the past while trying to live without her.
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The flat door clicks closed behind Aemond and he lingers in the corridor for a moment. This was for the best, he was sparing her, so why does his heart feel so heavy? Every step towards his car feels as though heâs walking through quicksand.
He loads Vhagar into the boot, throwing his overnight bag onto the backseat and sits wearily behind the wheel, gripping it with enough force to turn his knuckles white. He screws his eye shut, attempting to will away the prickling sensation around the rim, alongside the lump in his throat.
Iâve done the right thing. Iâve done the right thing.Â
**15 YEARS PRIOR**
Aemond looks up at her from where heâs seated on the edge of the hotel bed, brows arched in pain and disbelief, as tears slip down his cheeks. âSo thatâs just it, youâre ending things?â
Alys purses her crimson stained lips, perfectly manicured nails of the same shade brush against his cheek as she stands over him. âOh sweetheart,â she coos, âYou had to know that our little arrangement wasnât forever.â
His heart twinges at this, what could she possibly mean? They are made for each other, two halves of the same whole. He stares at her, confused. âBut I love youâŚâ
She laughs, green eyes crinkling with mirth and the sight and sound is a dagger to his chest.
âYou donât love me,â she says, her tone condescending, âYouâre barely twenty, you donât know what love is. You just like the idea of an older woman.â
He shakes his head, feeling himself become angry at her cold dismissal of his feelings. âThen why? Why bother with me?â
Alys sighs. âLook, we both got something we wanted out of this arrangement. You got to have a little fun, and I made sure I got the Harrenhal contract.â
Bile rises in Aemondâs throat, his eye narrowing hatefully as he stares at her, acrid warmth spreading throughout his chest.
Sheâd used him.
**PRESENT DAY**
Aemondâs own flat feels too big, too empty, too quiet, when he returns to it. The pitter patter of Vhagarâs claws against the hardwood floor as she potters towards her bed is the only audible sound.
Heâs never stopped to consider his own living space much before, preferring functionality over comfort. He is out most of the time anyway, so what does it matter as long as things do what he needs them to do?Â
Itâs only as he leans against the spotless granite of the kitchen counter that he is struck by how lifeless and sterile it is here. Heâs grown used to the warmth and cosiness of being at her place; the smell of jasmine that wafts delicately in the air from the incense sticks that her and Mysaria always seem to be burning, being pressed against her on the tiny sofa, her feet in his lap as trashy TV plays just a little too loudly, the tiny space is filled with laughter, comfort and love. Dropped back into his own space he feels as though heâs been set adrift, empty and hollow, yet he has no one to blame but himself.
The bed is too big, he has too much room, he misses the feel of springs digging into his back as he curls himself around her on her tiny mattress. This bed doesnât feel like home, not anymore, not since heâd laid her down upon it all those nights ago, put her legs over his shoulders andâŚfucked it all up by leaving without saying anything the next day, just like he fucks up everything. Sheâd given him a second chance and heâd squandered it.
No, he did what he needed to.
Iâve done the right thing. Iâve done the right thing.Â
He groans, scrubbing a hand over his face and throws the covers off, walking to the bathroom. Rifling through the medicine cabinet in search of painkillers to dull the throbbing ache in his left eye socket, his fingers close around something cool and metallic.
He plucks it out, studying it carefully. Itâs a bracelet of hers, probably left there accidentally from one of the few times sheâs stayed over. He turns the silver bangle over in his fingers, remembering the first time heâd seen her wear it. Heâd thought to himself it looked cheap, but now as he holds it it feels like the most precious treasure in the world. Itâs all he has left of her.
How had he allowed things to go this far? It was only ever supposed to be transactional but heâd allowed it to evolve, letting her occupy a space in his heart and mind that left them both vulnerable. He ended things, not wanting to cause her unnecessary pain and yet in doing so has devastated them both.
Aemond doesnât do love or relationships. Not even his own family can stand him, so how can he expect another person to feel that way about him, or open himself up to the possibility of having those feelings for someone else? Itâs a path heâs trodden before and it doesnât end well.
**5 YEARS PRIOR**
Aemond leans in to kiss Floris, she turns her head and he catches her cheek instead.
âIâve just put on lipgloss, Aem,â she says, her voice saccharine, âArenât you going to be late for work?â
âMm. Was just about to leave, love,â He tells her, grabbing his keys.
âForgetting something?â She says with a slight pout and tilt of her head.
âAh, of course,â he fishes his credit card out of the inside pocket of his suit jacket and hands it over to her, smirking as the diamond of her engagement ring glitters with the movement of her fingers, âIâll see you later. I love you.â
âYou too!â She calls over her shoulder, already walking back towards the bedroom.
Itâs not until Aemond is almost at his car that he realises heâs left his phone in the flat and heads back upstairs to retrieve it. As he opens the front door he can hear Floris on the phone, only able to pick up on her side of the conversation, he pauses to listen in.
â...I can only put him off for so long. I have to do it occasionally, otherwise heâd get suspicious. Itâs that horrible prosthetic eye, it gives me the creepsââ
â...only a few months until the wedding, then I can get a quickie divorce and take half of everythingââ
â...no, he hasnât made me sign a pre-nup, heâs too obsessed with me for thatââ
Aemondâs breath catches in his throat as a dull ache spreads its way through his chest. He slams the front door hard enough to alert Floris that heâs home and strides towards the bedroom.
**PRESENT DAY**
The next few weeks are a miserable dirge for Aemond. He buries himself in paperwork at work, in an attempt to push away thoughts of her, yet finds his mind wandering to how she might be spending the working day, whether sheâs finally managed to get the museum to commission the exhibit sheâs been pushing for or not. He considers dropping by the museum, just to see if he can watch her from a distance, but decides against it. It was his decision to end things, it was for the best, the least he owed her was to stay away.
Aemond sits on his couch in the evenings, the cold, hard leather unwelcoming against his back, the space too expansive as he attempts to watch the same trashy TV on his widescreen that heâd watched with her on her TV. He finds he couldnât give less of a shit about which couples are voted off of Love Island or who scored the lowest on Come Dine With Me, for him the experience was about being snuggled up next to her on the sofa, feeling her warmth, hearing her laugh. Now sheâs gone, and none of the things that accompanied that seem to matter.
Family functions are unbearable without her. He misses the way sheâd smile up at him when he placed his hand at the small of her back, misses how effortlessly she converses with his family, even the members he struggles to get along with.
Without her to keep him grounded, he bickers with Aegon, is aloof with his mother and Helaena and actively goes out of his way to antagonise his nephews. He hasnât just reverted back to old habits, heâs worse, and itâs obvious his family have begun to notice too. He elects just to stay away entirely when invitations are extended.
That is until the night of Helaenaâs birthday party. His only sister would never forgive him if he didnât show up, so grudgingly he goes to the gathering his mother is having for her at her place.Â
He stands out on the decking, the same decking where heâd shared his first kiss with her, the memory plays on a loop in his head, he can still taste the red wine on her lips.Â
The cherry red tip of his cigarette as he takes a drag provides further illumination alongside the soft glow of the lights through the windows of the house, and the moon that shines bright in the night sky.Â
Itâs quiet, save for the muffled bass of the music coming from inside. It gets louder as the French doors slide open for a moment, quieting once more as they slide closed.
Aemond rolls his eye, blowing out a tight line of smoke, his shoulders tensing. He wants to be left alone, he had hoped that escaping to the garden would have made that perfectly clear to everyone.
âItâs just me,â Helaena says softly, coming to stand beside him.
Aemond softens, glancing down at her, his gaze drawn to the bubbles that rise to the top of the glass in the gin and tonic that sheâs taking delicate sips from.
âHappy birthday, Hel,â he says, facing forward again and taking another drag.
âItâd be happier if youâd actually come inside,â She nudges him gently with her elbow.
âTrust me, you wouldnât be,â
âWhatâs going on with you? Youâre miserable lately.â
âIâve always been miserable,â He throws his cigarette butt down onto the decking and crushes it under foot.
âYou were less miserable when you had your girlfriend. I liked the guy that you were when you were with her,â
âSheâs not my girlfriend, never was,â Aemondâs tone is clipped, he purses his lips as he feels irritation prickle at his skin.
âWhy not?â Helaena taps the rings on her fingers gently against her glass.
âShe deserves better than me. Iâve spared her the inevitable hurt Iâd cause her,â
âHm. You know, thereâs only so many times you can use that excuse before it becomes a self fulfilling prophecy,â
âWhat is that supposed to mean?â
âYouâve ended things because you donât want to hurt her, but I bet doing that has hurt her, and you,â
Aemond scoffs, âI donât do relationships, Hel,â
She huffs a quiet laugh, âNo, I donât do relationships because Iâm aroace. You do do relationships, Aemond, youâve just made crappy choices in the past and youâre allowing fear to dictate your future,â
He narrows his eye, glancing towards her again, âAnd how do you know so much?â
âIâm incredibly fussy about the insects I choose for pin-mounting, and those just go on my wall. Iâm even more particular when it comes to people. Iâve seen how you two look at each other, donât chuck this away,â
âHelââ
âI mean it, Aemond. Sheâs yourâŚyour atlas moth! Pin mount her before somebody else does,â
âA truly horrifying metaphor, but thank you,â
âYouâre welcome,â she smiles warmly, âYou gonna come inside now?â
âActually, I think Iâm going to go. Do you mind?â
âGonna go get your girl?â She asks with a grin.
âPerhaps,â he says with a bow of his head.
Helaena deposits her drink on the railing and claps her hands together excitedly. âThen of course I donât mind, go!â
Aemond pulls out his phone as he gets into his car, seeing the Instagram notification pop up on his lockscreen.
mysaria_ww has started a live video
Allowing his curiosity to get the better of him, he clicks on the notification and startles slightly as pounding music blares from his phoneâs speaker. The camera sweeps shakily over a couple of obnoxiously lurid drinks before it lands on her.
Aemond feels his breath catch in his throat, his heart seems to skip a beat at the sight of her and he holds his phone in trembling hands as he makes a note of the location sticker. A cocktail bar not far from here.
He locks his phone and is starting the car before he has time to properly think about it.
The bar is dimly lit, the music not to Aemondâs taste and far louder than heâs comfortable with. Itâs the type of place that has seemingly endless happy hours and serves drinks that are mostly ice. He bristiles uncomfortably as he descends the steps, but refuses to be deterred. He needs to speak to her.
He freezes when he sees her. Her elbow is propped against the edge of the table, her chin resting on her hand, an easy smile graces her lips as she listens intently to whatever Mysaria is whispering to her.
Theyâve been apart for so long that heâs forgotten just how beautiful she really is. Itâs like the first night he met her all over again, when heâd gotten out of the car to greet her and sheâd stolen his breath away. He hadnât let her kiss him that night, afraid sheâd just be doing it for the money. He wonât make that mistake again tonight.
He walks slowly over to her table and the way her face falls when she notices him makes it feel as though his stomach is in free fall. She looks so shocked and unhappy, sheâs never not been pleased to see him. He hates this.
âCan we talk?â He raises his voice to be heard above the music as he reaches their table.
She shakes her head, climbing unsteadily from her bar stool and grabbing her bag. âOh, I am too drunk for thisâŚâ
He watches in dismay as she staggers away, flanked by Mysaria, before deciding to follow them both outside.
âHey, waitââ He says, reaching for her, and she whips around, eyes wide and mouth tightened in anger.
âIâll be right here,â Mysaria says softly to her, stepping to the side and pulling up the Uber app on her phone.
âNo, you wait!â She shouts at him, âI have spent weeks trying to get over you. You donât get to make someone fall in love with you and then act like thatâs nothing!â
Sheâs in love with him?!Â
He feels his chest tighten at the admission, standing there dumbfounded, he allows her to continue.
âI let you go,â She sobs, streaks of black mascara track their way down her cheeks alongside her tears, âI respected your decision, I didnât reach out, even though I wanted to. I left you alone, so what gives you the right to ruin girlsâ night?! You broke my heart and acted like you were doing me a favour, so why the fuck should I listen to anything you have to say?!â
Because I love you too.
He canât say anything, as much as he wants to, his throat has run dry. His fingers flex uselessly by his sides, longing to reach out and wipe away the tears and make up that have run down her face.
Sheâs pulled away by Mysaria as an Uber pulls up to the curb and he can do nothing but watch helplessly as they drive away.
Youâre losing her. Do something.
Sleep does not come for Aemond. The image of her tears plays over and over in his mind as he tosses and turns, tears from hurt that heâd caused her.Â
He has experienced crying in relationships before; heâd cried when Alys ended things, but he was young and stupid and thought he was in love with a woman twice his age. Floris had bawled when heâd confronted her about what heâd overheard, but they were the crocodile tears of a desperate woman caught out for being a gold digger.
Aemond has never seen the real anguish of heartbreak before, at least not on another person, and he never wants to see it again. He has to make this right. Itâs not until he feels the drip from his jaw onto his collarbone that he realises that after weeks of holding them in, his own tears have begun to fall.
It is almost midday the next day when Aemond has everything he needs prepared. The big white van he parks outside of her block of flats is cumbersome to drive in comparison to his sleek, black sports car, but he hopes the inconvenience will be worth it.
Come outside.
He texts her, relieved when the bubble displays as delivered, at least she hasnât blocked his number.
He climbs out of the van, leaning against it, heart pounding as he looks up to see the curtains of her living room window twitch.
A few moments later sheâs stepping outside, a look of confusion on her face. âWhatâs this?â
âAn apology,â Aemond says, âLetting you go was a mistake. I thought I was doing the right thing, but I fucked it up, itâs what I do, I fuck things up. But Iâm sorry, and I want to be with you, whatever that looks like for you. I want to do this properly.â
âWhy are you doing all of this now?â She asks, folding her arms defensively.
âBecause Iâve tried to live without you, and I canât. What we had was good, so fucking good, and I threw it away because Iâm a coward. Just let me make this right, please?â
She sighs, âWhatâs in the van?â
He motions for her to follow him, and opens up the back, revealing a brand new mattress, still in its plastic wrap.
âA replacement, so I can stay over without feeling like someone has spent all night attempting to make balloon animals with my spine.â
âPresumptuous of you,â She says with a raise of her eyebrows.
Aemond shrugs, âIâm all in,â
She runs her hands through her hair, eyes flitting between him and the mattress. âHow the fuck are we supposed to get this upstairs?â
He smirks. âThere are removal people coming in an hour, theyâll take your old one away and bring this one up,â
âAnd what happens if I say no?â
âWell, thatâs why I told them to leave it an hour, so Iâd have time to cancel in case you did,â
He can see her fighting against the smile that tugs against the corners of her mouth. âIâm not letting you off that easily,â
âI know,â He says, taking a step towards her.
âSo what do we do for the next hour?â
âWe could give that old, lumpy thing on your bed upstairs a final send off,â he reaches for her and she rolls her eyes.
âYouâre pushing it,â she whispers.
âHmm,â he runs the tip of his nose against her cheek, âIâve missed you,â he presses a soft kiss to her cheek, ânone of it matters,â he kisses her other cheek, ânot the money, not anything,â he kisses the corner of her mouth, ânot without you,â
When their lips finally meet it is slow and soft, and a contented sound rumbles within Aemondâs chest. It feels like heâs taking his first breath of air in weeks.
They waste no time in helping each other out of their clothes as they hurry upstairs. He smirks to himself as he lays back against the bed, feeling the familiar springs dig into his back, he pulls her to straddle him, allowing her to set a pace sheâs comfortable with.
He moans low as she sinks slowly down onto him, the tight wet heat of her enveloping him causing his balls to tighten in a way that builds steady pressure at the base of his spine.
Gazing up at her with reverence, fingers digging into the plushness of her hips, he watches transfixed as her breasts bounce softly with each undulation, committing to memory every breathy moan and gasp. She feels like home, and it has never felt better to return.
When she eventually collapses against his chest, tightening and spasming around him as she falls apart, she takes him with her and he grunts as he feels himself pulsate and spill deep inside of her.
He strokes her hair as he holds tightly, gratitude and love overwhelming him. âYou forgive me?â he asks, voice thick with emotion.
âIâm working on it,â she whispers back.
âI can wait,â he reassures her, âIâm all in.â
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- YOUâRE MINE -
Summary: While you daydreamed about his face an ocean apart, he had no idea what yours was about to do to him. With a twist of fate and the heat of summer, a new relationship would completely ransack his heart - Everyday heavy with the thought of one another, neither of you were going to let the unexpected love of your life go. You were going to be his, you were his, and you were going to stay his.
Warnings: This series contains fluff, suggestion, smut (unprotected sex,) pregnancy, love bombing, occasionally sad, kind of angsty, alcohol consumption - not sure what else really⌠if i miss anything please lmk!
Note: I hope you like it! THE FINAL CHAPTER 𼺠Start reading âOursâ the sequel of this fic! It will chronical what happens in Trent and Y/Nâs lives after this part!
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Chapter 30 - âYouâre Mineâ
The sun bathed your room in morning light. You yawned and opened your eyes slowly pulling Trentâs pillow over for you to hug. It was early but you had a plan to run to the shops before he got home. You felt absolutely exhausted yet again despite copious amounts of sleep so you hopped in the shower to help yourself wake up. Even just picking up products made your arms ache. Your limbs barely moved so you ended the shower with 30 seconds of cold water. Jesus, did that wake you up. You stared at yourself naked in the mirror before wrapping yourself in a towel. As you looked at your slender frame you couldnât help but wonder what was going to change. How much would change? You tucked the towel moving on from your introspective questions and washed your face. You started your skincare moving slow through serums and onto a moisturizer, product after product. It felt good to take a moment to take care of yourself. You felt like you had to look good today so this was a good start. Trent probably preferred you with no makeup but makeup made you feel more confident so you did some, applying blush, mascara, all the things that made you feel just the best version of yourself. You moisturized your whole body before spraying a Le Labo perfume you had been loving recently and made your way to the walk in wardrobe. You didnât know what to wear though so you made a mess pulling everything out, trying to figure it out. You combed through piles of clothes and rack more it felt endless but you were getting tired again. You landed on a light pink sweat set. It wasnât exactly groundbreaking but it was cute.You didnât want to be in real clothes and you didnât really want to be anything close to sexy so this worked. You meticulously cleaned your closet back up, putting each item exactly where it belonged. You grabbed a pair of Louis Vuitton sneakers to throw on before you left the house but needed to pick up the bedroom a little before you headed downstairs. Once you did you slipped on your sneakers and grabbed your car keys to exit out through the garage. You jumped into one of the big blacked out cars in there and made your way into town. To get started on your long list of errands to do to prepare for Trentâs arrival you began at a stationary store then off to the bakery, and into a few more shops. The more things you pulled together the more excited you got. For the first time since you found out you actually were excited to tell him. Although, you wanted to keep the way you told him simple. That was your vibe, calm, easy, so you grabbed a little something you were planning to place the pregnancy test in and some cardstock for a note. You went and got food to eat in hopes for after he took the news well and you snuck off to some more luxury stores for something fun youâd give him a little later but that would be a surprise all depending on what his response was. It felt like your car was full by the time you were heading back home. Trent let you know he was coming home around noon so around 11:30 your anxiety really began to hit. You felt like you were shaking as you held a pen over the nice piece of cardstock you got. You wrote a simple note and left it on the kitchen island for him to find when he came in.
âCome upstairs, daddy xxâ
It was humorous and ultimately would be cute once he found out why you said that. In retrospect, the word was really what kickstarted the whole conversation about the possibility of a baby. It was around 12:15 when you finally heard the front door open. You heard his bags drop by the front door the way that drove you crazy but you pushed it aside for the moment unable to focus on anything but listening to his footsteps deducing where he was in the house. Your heart began to race, your mind shifting into overdrive.
âBabyyy?!â Trent called out loud from downstairs but you didnât respond. You let him find his way. He eventually went to the kitchen and saw the note. He knew you were home, your car was there, you said you would be so he picked up the card you had left and smirked. In Trentâs mind this was a cheeky welcome home. He read the card as an invitation to go upstairs to have some incredible sex after he had been gone. A sort of congratulations he scored a great goal. It wouldnât have been the first time youâd done something like this but boy was he wrong. He didnât even click that the word âdaddyâ wasnât even remotely there sexually. He jogged up the stairs eagerly chuckling to himself excited for what was going to happen. His mind was jumping around trying to imagine what youâd be wearing, what heâd ideally want you to be wearing. He felt greedy like a little kid in a candy store imagining all the different bits of lingerie youâd worn over the years. He pulled himself together a little bit trying to act cool and suave before he opened the door. God, he hoped it was that pink one but his hunger was dulled. Everything slowed as he looked into your bedroom. The room was warmly lit, all the lights on, it was clean and organized, cream and white colors that made the space comfy and homey, the bed was made perfectly and to further his confusion there he saw you sat crossed legged on the boucle bench at the end of your bed. You had stayed in your light pink sweats and the soft light almost managed to illuminate you. You picked your head up and thought your heart could fall out of your chest. You gave him a soft but very nervous smile. You couldnât shake your anxiety but there was a part of you that also couldnât help but feel a little excited seeing him. Just him being back home was enough to make you giddy but this was a new emotion you didnât know and it was overwhelming you. You stared up at him trying to fight back tears you could feel building. You almost forgot how beautiful he was, you could only dream your baby looked just like him. That face started to make you nervous about what it would fall to because you were about to change his life. Contrary to what he thought, Trent wasnât even disappointed you werenât in some lingerie on the bed to be honest. You looked absolutely ethereal sitting there. His angel. Your one hand hiding a little white box behind your back, the other anxiously pulling at the bottom of some strands of hair. âWhatâs going onâŚâ he hesitantly asked, stepping into the room. You gestured your head to the side signaling for him to come over to you and so he did. Albeit, incredibly slowly. He stood in front of you looking down. You remained quiet. You thought if you spoke youâd start crying immediately so in an effort to not do that you pulled the box from behind you and handed it up to him. He took it and inspected the blankness of it and then looked back at you inquisitively with a smile. He held the sturdy but small white box wrapped with a white ribbon having no idea what was inside of it.
âGo onâŚâ you managed to quiver out in a whisper. At that moment, you were pretty sure the world stopped turning. He pulled the ribbon untying the bow, holding onto it while he lifted the lid off agonizingly unhurried. You felt your leg start to bounce with nerves awaiting his reaction. You watched his face intently for any sign of emotion. His mouth was agape a little, his eyes batted trying to make sure he was actually seeing what he thought he was. He looked into the box completely unexpressive. Inside the little white box laid a comforting bed of thin white and metallic shredded paper with the positive pregnancy test resting a top of it. In slow motion you watched the box fall from his now shaking hands onto the floor. The neat and carefully filled box now scattered on your carpet.
âAre you serious?â He said sternly with no emotion on his face. You thought you might pass out starting to think he didnât want this anymore now that it was real but you nodded anyway telling him that this was in fact happening. This was very real.
âThere are two more positive ones in there.â You pointed to the bathroom sheepishly. Trent dropped to the floor falling into a crouching position. He squatted leaning back on his heels. With his head in his hands you could hear him start to sniffle and his breath start to deepen. âT⌠I.. Iâmâ you tried to talk but honestly you were petrified and had no clue what to say. Should you apologize? But before you could come up with something he picked his head up to look at you. His eyes all wet, he gave you the sappiest closed mouth smile that almost had the look of a pout to it.
âOh my fucking god, Y/N⌠Y/Nâ He whined with the deepest set puppy dog eyes that broke your heart. You could see tears roll down his face, he got on his knees and crawled over to you wrapping his arms around your waist dropping his head into your lap. âSorry, Jesusâ he laughed a little, shaking his head, nuzzling into you. âI just didnât⌠oh my god, baby⌠is this for real?â He whimpered out kissing your covered stomach. You were taking his physical actions as a positive but had to know for sure, his words werenât exactly concretely assured.
âYou wanted this right? Like me pregnant? Like we are having a babyâ You cooed, giggling a little. It was the first time you had said that. âWe are having a baby.â You felt a few tears roll down your own cheeks as you stroked your hand over his hair comforting him as he clung to you.
âYou have no idea baby.â He muffled into your sweatshirt top before raising it some. He beamed looking at you. He kissed the warm bare skin of your stomach. âHoly shit, Iâve never been so happy in my entire life.â He continued kissing you. âThis is fucking insane.â
âYeah?â You kept giggling. He pulled off your stomach and looked into your eyes. He held your hands and squeezed them tightly .
âCâmereâ he whispered. You watched his perfect lips you were praying your baby inherited from him move closer to you. His lips pressed into yours. They were warm and soft. Warmth blossomed in your chest. Your lips brushed over one anothers. The smell of him, the smell of home was dizzying. You leaned further into the kiss as his lips felt somehow even impossibly softer than before against your own. You both started laughing in delirium though having to pull away. You let go of his hands and cupped his cheeks holding his face some distance from yours to really look at him. His big brown eyes had fallen into deep pools. You wiped your thumbs underneath them, wiping away the tears that had fallen. He looked at you like no one else in the world existed. Trent stared into your eyes and felt that no one else existed in the world, in fact you were his entire world and he was most definitely yours.
âGonna take care of you forever. This is unreal. Weâre having a baby. Jesus, You're perfect, beautiful.â Trent just kept yapping away stunned and so you let him ramble on and on as his hands caressed all over your body. He picked you up and sat you up on the edge of the bed before he came and crawled over you. You laid back with a big childish smile. He looked down at your face and exposed stomach and his heart faltered. His hands pressed into the mattress next to you letting his arms prop him up over you. He dropped his head to come in for another kiss. And another kiss. His lips feeling absolutely addicting. You started to makeout and his body pressed down onto yours. He didnât know when he got so hard but you werenât going to call him out. Things started to heat up but he got nervous. âCan I do this?â He said pulling away from you a little sliding his hands under your sweatshirt over your stomach and up towards your boobs. You nodded with a little giggle. âI promise Iâll be so gentle with you, baby.â He whispered. You could only laugh.
âT... itâs okay, we can.â You looked at him ferociously innocently. He never felt more in love with you. He almost felt lightheaded. He was so happy with the news and then now the fact that you were carrying his child, god, he was so turned on.
âOkay⌠still gonna be gentle with you though. Precious cargo, no?â You both giggled before you pulled him down to you. The space between you vanished. He pressed his lips to yours. His one hand cupped your cheek, gently as promised. He moved you up the bed and sat back taking his shirt off. Your eyes gazed over every inch of him. He was heavenly looking. His body was just drool worthy but you snapped out of your lust when you caught the soft smile on his face looking down at you.
âHelp, baby.â You cooed cutely pulling at your top. You sat up some and he helped you take the sweatshirt and your shirt with it off over your head. You laid back and lifted your hips up some for him to then pull your joggers off. He left you in your bra and panties, which okay, this morning you made a conscious effort to pick a particular good set that you knew he liked. Trent couldnât help his eyes from racking over you greedily. He couldnât even count the amount of times he had seen your naked body. It was infinite but this felt like the very first time. It was nothing like the time years ago in New York though, this was different, this was love in its very purest form. He absolutely worshiped your body. It did so much for him before, his brain was confused how you possibly were able to do more I.e. carry his child now but also how it was physically possible for him to be any more attracted to you, and yet here he was. His pupils dilated looking down at you. He pulled his sweats off leaving you with the perfect view of his hardened cockâs bulge in his boxers. Both of your heart rates speeding up. He got on top of you again as you began to kiss more and more, hotter and heavier. He dragged his fingers over your body while he moved away from your kiss to come whisper in your ear. His hands gently slipped into your panties and in no time he was slowly pumping his fingers in and out of you purposely rubbing his palm against your clit rhythmically.
âOh god T⌠Trent fuck, baby. TâŚâ You moaned trying to push yourself up into him for more friction, for him to go deeper.
âKeep saying my name, baby. Such a good girl fâme, gonna make you feel so good like you deserve.â His warm breath hit your ear sending a shiver down your spine. And, boy, was he determined to make you feel good. He kissed down from your ear all the way down to your core. He pulled your soaked panties off as he continued with his fingers. His name still falling from your mouth. He worked quickly and buried his face into your wet pussy. His tongue toyed with your clit as his fingers diligently worked in and out of you. You were a mess. You couldnât think straight but it was all so smooth, so caring, so soft, so intentional. It definitely was intentional, he knew exactly what he was doing when you felt the tight knot in your stomach snap pulsating around his fingers. âDid so good.â He muttered into your pussy. The vibration causing you to flinch at the overstimulation. He pulled his face covered in your slick away kissing the inside of your thighs letting you come down for a moment. It wasnât long before he was fucking into you nice and slow. He filled you up and you felt every single inch of him sliding in and out of you.
âBaby⌠Iâm so full. Oh my god. I love your cock so much.â You moaned beautifully and he smirked. Your words were starting to almost slur from the amount of pleasure you were in as his hand reached down to rub small circles on your already sensitive clit. Your pussy dripping onto the sheets below you as he continued to carefully roll his hips up into you. Trent affectionately yapped away, continuing to spill out how much he loved you, how good you were doing, how beautiful you were all falling from his lips nonstop as he enjoyed the feeling of you. âI want you to fuck me like this forever.â You babled back words muffled by moans and kisses. Your hands came and gripped onto his muscular arms. Your hands pressed back into the pillows feeling fuzzy, blanking out everything but the feeling of him inside you. âIâm gonna cum, Tâ you cried out âIâm so close.â You felt the know in your stomach tighten again. Your breathing getting heavier. You moved your hands up to his face pulling him into a passionate kiss and then letting your manicured fingers gripping onto his hair, enough to make him whisper at the sensation.
âCum for me, babyâ he cooed between kisses as his hard cock pulsating inside of you. âI love you so much, baby. Keep fucking me. Doing so good.â Your sweet moaning of his name pushed him closer and closer to his own edge. âYou sound so pretty, babyâ Trent smiled down at your face. You looked up at him mouth agape, watery eyes and were taken aback by how beautiful he looked above you. God, he really was perfect. He kissed you again. The drag of his cock in and out of you made you each for anything to hold on to. Switching between the sheets, his hair, then to his muscular back. His hand found its way to your tits. he caressed it, playing with your nipple while fucking you.
âAh T⌠you feel so good. Too much.â You whined feeling him pressed deeper and deeper inside of you. Slow and languid you said it but you didn't want him to stop at all. He knew that too.
âYouâre doing so good. Such a good girlâ he praised, starting to feel overwhelmed by the pleasure from your pussy. He was close now. To be fair, he had been close to cumming since he ate you out. Watching you orgasm with his tongue on your clit was just the perfect sight. âCum with me, baby, yeah?â His movements were getting sloppy compared to the perfect pace he had kept at as his abs tensed. His lips parted in deep breaths as his eyes rolled back.White hot pleasure flashed behind your eyes and Trentâs lips pushed against yours as he fucked you through your high. His hips finally stuttered and he paused letting him cum fill you, making sure every drop of him was inside of you, where it belonged. He quickly resumed pushing his hips into you though with a groan of your name. His cock twitched inside you, spent. It was intoxicating, everything was, the way your arms were wrapped tight around his shoulders. Pulling him close, running soothingly along his skin as he collapsed onto you with a final, fucked-out thrust. He traced his fingers lazily along your side, neither of you having enough strength to bother moving. All is quiet in your little haven, and you could almost fall asleep. You laid stuck to each other's bodies for ages. Trentâs hands continuing to slowly caress your body as you cuddled up to him. Your head rested onto his shoulder. He looked down at you and smiled.
âHow did you get so perfect, hmm?â He cooed with his hand coming to rest over your stomach. You giggled and looked back at him. His smile made your heart beat a little faster than it already was. âJust so pretty all the time, itâs insane.â He kept talking while he squeezed your waist. âGoing to be the most beautiful mummy.â
âStopâŚTâ You feigned embarrassment. âWell, you can say goodbye to all this now I guess though.â You drudged out waving your hand over your naked body pressed into his. It kind of stung thinking about how much your body was about to change. You had a lot of issues with your image from the jump so to imagine things changing and potentially getting worse than they were now freaked you out.
âBaby, baby, baby⌠donât do that. This is so fucking amazing. Youâre going to be beautiful before, during, and after, youâre so fucking beautiful.â He cooed again, dropping his hand sliding down to palm your ass. âTrust me, if anything youâre only about to get even sexier.â He squeezed your ass cheek saying that.
âYeah, yeah you say that now.â You groaned. âYouâre just excited for when my tits inevitably get bigger.â
âIâm not just saying it! I would be lying if I said I wasnât a little excited for that, you're rightâŚ.But baby, itâs not about all that. Itâs the fact that youâre beautiful for carrying our child, you know how insane that is?â You nuzzled your face into his body hiding feeling a little shy. You laid there while he ranted on and on about how beautiful you were and you listened patiently until he asked you a question. âSo what do we do now?â He started to chuckle anxiously thinking about what was next.
âI donât know, Iâve never been pregnant before.â You joked equally as nervous.
âSame.â He cooed with a straight face. You couldnât not laugh looking at him. He always managed to be unintentionally funny and simultaneously very cute in serious moments.
âOkay, well seeing that neither of us have been.â You kept giggling and poked at him. âI made an appointment for tomorrow but if you canât make it, IâŚâ Trent cut you off before you could finish your sentence.
âI can. Baby, I am here for this whole thing. I will be there. I will never not be there. This is the most important thing to me, you are the most important thing to me⌠this baby is the most important thing to me.â His face kind of dropped saying his last sentence. It was all becoming very real.
âOh my god like this is madâŚâ you looked up at him with a scared expression on your face..
âIâm here for you. Youâre mine, right baby? Gonna take such good care of you both.â He cooed and your heart shattered at how sweet he was. It was unbelievable you were about to start a family.
âYeah.. I knowâ you sheepishly retorted. He held up his pinky towards you and your heart skipped a beat. He was so fucking cute. âOh so you really mean it, huh?â You teased him.
âAbsolutely. Youâre mine forever.â You locked your finger around his and he used the moment to pull your arm and subsequently your body to fall into his into a sweet kiss.
âDo anything for you, beautiful.â You pursed your lips and hummed thinking of all the things he already did for you. What more could you possibly want
âCan you hold me closer, T.â You cooed, batting your eyes at him.
âYeah, he laughed. âI got you.â
The next day you woke up to a large Trent cuddled up so closely on top of you, you could barely breathe and you liked it this way. You had an inkling this was the way this would go. He was going to be so attached to you the second he found out you were pregnant. You slid up to sit against the headboard. He hummed as you moved, clinging to your stomach tighter, pressing sleepy kisses against your bare skin.
âI canât believe weâre going to be parents⌠I feel like Iâm 18 most days.â You spoke into the quiet room stroking over his hair guiding your hand down to his back to scratch it gently. He purred feeling your nails. He turned his head on your stomach to look up at you. The feeling of his stubble rubbing and tickling you.
âI guess we gotta grow up.â He cooed with a smile.
âMaybe.. weâll still be cool parents though right, T?â You giggled as your other hand came to pinch at his cheek.
âYeah, baby. The coolest. Just adding a new baby best friend to the fam, that's all.â He cooed imagining the two of you, the dogs and the new little baby.
âThatâs really cute, T.â You pouted thinking about how adorable the sentiment was. The fact that you were really going to have this baby was sinking in moment by moment. He hummed acknowledging you but returning to his task of kissing your stomach.
Your appointment at the OBGYN was later that afternoon so you and Trent got dressed and were ready to head out. He held your hand walking to your cars but looked at you confused when you let go and walked to the drivers side of yours instead of the passengers side of his.
âYou canât driveâŚâ he looked at you and you started to genuinely laugh.
âWhat? Why?â Shocked, you asked muddied in a laugh. His face didnât move. âT⌠I am pregnant, not like unwell.â You tried to reason with him. He just stepped towards you, slipping his hands around your waist. He tucked his head into the nape of your neck, pressing his lips to you.
âBaby⌠I need you to be safe, can you just come with me? I want to take care of you.â He whispered. He puckered out his bottom lip, giving you his devastating puppy dog eyes. He was committed to convincing you and it almost worked but you were not caving this time. You held your ground against their allure.
âYou always take care of me. I am safe. Also, T, be realistic, we canât be seen driving together going there right now. I want this to be our moment. Hmm?â you cooed. Your hand came to caress his cheek trying to assure him you were okay but also remind him that your pregnancy getting out to any news source or the general public getting wind would be a nightmare and would destroy any opportunity to have privacy for the next 9 months. He finally agreed and you made your way there.
âYouâre only about 6 weeks along.â The nurse spoke softly, looking between you and Trent. âIf you and your husband want, we can go ahead and schedule the follow up when youâre at 12 weeks. By then we should be able to find out the gender as well.â
âHeâs not my husband.â You patted Trentâs thigh.Your words kind of stung him so he placed his much bigger hand over yours pinning it down. Prompting him to lean over and whisper in your ear.
âNot yet, baby.â He cheekily said and it raised goosebumps all over you. Eventually, you looked back to the nurse and so did he. You could see Trentâs brow furrow a little in your peripheral. He was trying to do the math. âRight so sheâll be 12 weeks thatâsâŚâ he paused thinking.
â3 months, baby.â You giggled teasing him squeezing your hand above his knee.
âWhen is it usually most safe to tell people?â Trent asked inquisitively. This was going to be like everything else, he was going to need to know absolutely everything he could. It was incredibly cute and it was incredibly Trent.
âThe fetus is typically fully formed after 12 weeks, that tends to be when people feel comfortable but it is up to your personal preference, your discretion what youâd want to do.â The nurse cooed back.
âSo in a month and a half, T.â You giggled again looking at his face continue to struggle.
âIâll get there, Iâm gonna like read or I donât know, will figure it all out.â He babbled nervously. You smiled sweetly at him squeezing your hand again to reassure him just happy he was with you. He didnât need to be nervous or do any more. He was doing great. He was amazing already. You left the offices and you clung to Trent in the car park. You swayed back and forth in his arms pressing little kisses to his lips. This was scary and new but at least you had him. You finally said your goodbyes; he went to training and you went home. He went the whole day beaming. Everyone at AXA was so confused by his outwardly cheery disposition but he couldnât not smile anymore now that he knew he was going to have a baby with you. Later that night, Trent came home when you were in the kitchen beginning to make dinner.
âNah, nah, nah, I was going to make dinner for you, baby.â Trent's voice almost made you jump. You turned around to see him coming down the hallway holding a big bouquet of pink flowers. You rolled your lip at him and ran over to him giving him a tight hug, abandoning the boiling pot of water on the stove. He wrapped you in his arms and kept you there, even as you cooked. When you were finally done cooking you sat with Trent on the couch eating bowls of pasta sitting unnecessarily close. Your legs draped over his lap. His one hand rubbing up your back.
âI think we should keep this relatively quiet for a little, donât you? I want to make sure the baby is healthy and I want to share some of this time with just you until we let everyone else know.â You babled stabbing your fork mindlessly into some noodles.
âI understand, agree with you, beautiful. I just want you and the baby healthy so weâll take it slow. Will keep you two close with me. Make sure everything is okayâ He cooed, pressing a kiss to your cheek, squeezing your side. The plan to keep it quiet was great except for the fact that you had to continue on with everyday life carrying a massive secret. It was only mere days later when you had to face the task head on. You sat anxiously at an away game down in London next to Dianne and Tyler. They couldnât possibly have known but you felt like they somehow did know. It was stressing you out the whole game. You didnât hide much from his family so this felt wrong. As the final whistle blew you milled about and mingled until Trent was able to come out and meet you after. He beelined directly through a group of people to you, wasting no time with niceties to anyone else in the room. He grabbed you by the waist and his thumbs stroked over your stomach in a coy effort to be subtle. He smiled silently and you couldnât control the way your heart lurched. Youâd think over time his charm would lose its effect or wear down but somehow it only seemed to grow. Him being so sweet about the pregnancy was making it continue that way at a rapid pace.
âWeâre so proud of you, daddy.â You cheekily whispered, pulling him into a tight hug. You draped your arms over his shoulders. Trent's heart faltered hearing your words. The word âdaddyâ had carried way too much weight in your relationship lately. Hell, it got you to this very point but it was a little fun to throw it around now.
âThis is the best secret Iâve ever had to keep.â He cooed equally as quiet into your ear. âLove you both so much.â You only giggled in return, beginning to quickly look around the room to make sure no one had heard either of you.
After the game, you all went out to dinner in London. You stood waiting at the bar for your table. Everyone ordered drinks. When the bartender came to Trent, he ordered his quick off the cuff before he turned and looked at you for what you wanted. You gave him a knowing look. He raised his eyebrows at you realizing you couldnât drink. He leaned over the bar and he spoke quietly to the bartender. He returned and handed you a club soda with a lime. Clever, no one would know it wasnât your usual tequila soda if they didnât ask. You smiled cheekily and threw him a wink. You started to talk to Tyler as Trent was talking with his mum. His eyes glued to you. You unintentionally turned your back to him continuing your conversation stirring the little straw around in your soda. Trent watched you over his mum's shoulder. Dianne laughed as she tried to hold his attention. He loved how close you were with his family, how you integrated so quickly. He loved how you were with Tyler and Marcel. It was so important to him that you cared about what he cared about.
âShe makes you happy, huh, Trenty?â Dianne cooed watching his gaze soften fixed on you. He shifted in his stance not responding to her. The smile on his face was telling her the answer. He moved around his mum slow squeezing her arm to not totally disregard her and started on his way over to you. You felt his hand come from behind and push your hair off your shoulder. You shuttered under his touch. The feeling of his fingers glide over your neck sending a shiver down your spine. You tilted your head to one side to try to look back at him knowing it was Trent. You watched Trentâs lips turn upwards. His eyebrows rising in smug satisfaction at the hearts that filled your eyes. You turned back with a cheeky grin into him. He pulled you to him and leaned into your ear. He started whispering all sorts of filthy things to you. You shut your eyes and licked over your lips. You pulled away looking at him. You werenât drinking but you were certainly drunk on love, completely smitten and certain he was the man of your dreams.
"Behave yourselfâ you giggled, slapping at his chest praying no one couldâve overheard him. Tyler ignored you two immediately the second Trentâs hands were on you resorting to return to Dianne. You sat at dinner bashful and happy. It was such a happy couple of days. It was stressful to have to hide this secret but in general, you and Trent were so happy about the win but ultimately the baby. He was already so touchy with you to begin with but the pregnancy was bringing the affection to a new level. You let him have his way, keeping his hands on you the entire meal. You didnât mind. You liked it. It made you feel safe. Trent was so protective of you. He kept you close to him instinctively but now, he held you closer with a watchful eye on your stomach. It made you melt and gradually over the night, really horny. When you got home personal space wasn't a thing for you anymore. You hugged his arm, squeezing his bicep, walking back into your house. You were all over Trent. Batting your eyelashes up to him, pressing your boobs against his side as you made your way to the living room.
âYouâre not subtleâŚâ he laughed as you tried to convince him to fuck you. You didnât have to do much, in fact you really didnât have to do anything at all.
âWhat do you mean, T?â You giggled feigning innocence climbing on top of him as he sat down on your living room couch. Your boobs subsequently teasingly pressed in his face.
âAlright, Iâll bite, baby.â He laughed. His hands started to caress your body and then swiftly to massage your tits. âYouâre very convincing.â He teased you but you just gave him a âcome onâ look because you knew you were. âDid you know youâre very very hot?â He cooed with a cheeky grin. You sat down on his lap and poorly attempted to reign in the horniness that was washing over you. âLike so fucking sexy.â His words didnât help that effort. His hands kneading your tits brushing his thumbs over your hardening nipples. The more his hands were on you, the more you thought about your body, the way it was aching for him, and then suddenly, rapidly, you felt yourself tense.
âHey⌠you okay?â Trentâs hands slowed in you. You felt emotion rush to your eyes. All at once, your feelings of fear about your body about to change massively came over you. One of the things Trent loved about you was your body and it was about to be gone.
âIâm just scared.â You sugarcoated your emotions for him. His hands fell from your boobs and ghosted down your sides before they settled onto your hips.
âCâmere pleaseâ he pulled at you and engulfed you in his arms. âDoes it make you feel any better if I tell you Iâm scared too?â He said muffled into your neck. His hands rubbed up and down your back comforting you when you least felt it. His honesty did make you feel better.
âReally?â You sheepishly asked. He laughed, pulling you off him to really look at your face. He stared into your eyes. You could feel your heart thumping in your chest.
âBaby⌠this is massive but you know what else?â He cooed, bringing his hand to caress your cheek. You shook your head softly giving him a âno.â âWe have each other in this. Weâre doing it together. Hmm? You have me forever, sweet girl. Iâm not going anywhere.â He spoke, brushing his thumb over your skin. Your heart warmed. He managed to settle your fears for the moment. He was so reassuring that he would never leave you. You could see it in his eyes, you could feel it under his touch. You cuddled into him. He held you close.
âI love you, T.â You gently spoke, squeezing him a little before resting your head on his chest. You stayed there for a while. The feeling of his heart beat started to lull you to sleep. You tried your hardest to keep your eyes open, to stay awake and in the moment but his loving hold making it incredibly difficult. He pressed a kiss into your hair.
"Go to sleep, baby. Iâm gonna be right here forever.â He whispered and you nuzzled further into him. The feeling of being in his arms putting you ever at ease. The vibrations of his voice only pushing you closer to falling asleep. Finally your eyes falling closed. When you woke up the next day you were neatly tucked upstairs in your bed. He always took such good care of you, you never had to ask for anything. You shifted your body only to find that you were alone in the big bed. Your legs moving under the covers some before they bumped into something on the bed.
âTâŚ?â You sleepily whispered out. Rubbing your hands over your eyes. You tried to clear your blurry vision to see where he couldâve been. To no avail, your eyes fixed on the foot of the bed seeing what you presumed to be a gift from Trent.
âOh youâre up! Morning, pretty girl.â Trent muttered out in a hushed tone, his voice cutting into the room as he rushed over to you. He sat on the edge of the bed and handed you a cup of tea. You raised your eyebrows surprised with a tired smile. You scooted up the bed to lean against the headboard.
âWow⌠good morning to you. Whatâs all this, baby?â You chuckled. You reached out and rubbed your hand up and down the arm he had outstretched on the bed to rest on. He shuffled on the bed though to come sit next to you. He grabbed four boxes and pulled them into his lap. He wrapped his free arm around you, smushing a kiss to your cheek. He pulled you a little closer to him before plopping the first box over on your lap. It was an ambiguously wrapped box so you gave him a curious look.
âOne for you.â He cooed and you giggled.
âWhatâs this for?â You asked pausing before opening the gift: he shot a stern glare back at you so you continued on. You peeled off the paper and saw a familiar orange box you knew well. You opened it slow. It was a pair of Hermes Finesse diamond earrings. You bopped your head back and forth with a big cheesy smile on your face staring at them.
âSo pretty, T.â Grabbing his face for a quick peck. You placed the box down onto your comforter after inspecting them for a little while. He plopped the next box in your lap. You rolled your eyes at his childish rough nature so early.
âOne for the babyâŚâ he said softly rubbing his hand over your stomach. It was a much larger box than the last. You opened it slow again to find another orange box. You smiled lifting the lid to see an adorable Hermes teddy bear. You pouted your lips at him. You felt like you were gonna cry before he plopped the next one on you, stopping your flooding emotions. âKeep moving along, baby. Have more to open.â He laughed, waving his hand to continue. âFor you.â
âYou know the baby seems to be getting bigger presents than me, is that how things are going to be?â You teased squeezing his arm. It was his turn to roll his eyes at you. You opened a third orange box. You unlatched a jewelry box to see three stackable rings.
âOne for each person in our family now.â He looked into your eyes. You melted thinking of him picking out something so thoughtful. You slid them on and held up your hand to look at the three rings wrapped around your slender finger.
âI love them⌠I love you.â You collapsed your head onto his shoulder wrapping your arms around his waist.
âYou like them, baby?â He spoke before pressing a kiss into your hair. You nodded as he slid the last box over to you. You peeled the paper again slowly to reveal the final orange box. âOne more for themâ you opened the lid taking your time and your heart slowed. You felt the room close in. You stared down at a cashmere Avalon blanket. You took it out of the box to get a closer look at the detailed lettering embroidered âBaby Alexander-Arnoldâ That was the tipping point for you. The tears started pouring out. âOh. Câmon shhh.â Trent pulled you into him. He squeezed you so tight.
âI love you.â You sniffled out. He hummed. You stayed like that for a while. âWait, wait, actually I got you something too! I didnât know when to give them to you but now seems good.â You scrambled out of bed messily. Trent laughed at your sleepy body moving without the grace you usually carried.
âBaby, didnât have to get me anything.â He said as you ran into the wardrobe hearing his voice fade getting further from him. You came out with three bags giddily and jumped on the bed playfully. You took his hands in yours after placing the bags in between you. He gave you a disapproving look for buying him anything.
âJust open it! Please!â You begged childishly pulling on his arm. You shoved one bag over closer to him. He reluctantly grabbed one bag. âHold on! This one first!â You swapped the bags and he shook his head. He ruffled through the bag and pulled out a baby Liverpool kit.
âNah⌠honestly.â He held up the top and turned it around to see âdaddyâ written across the back with a 66. He looked at you with a sappy smile. Trent felt like this was the first time he really felt like a dad, like this was not only just a baby but his kid. You pecked his lips unannounced. You couldnât look at the tiny jersey the put getting excited. The idea of bringing your baby to their daddy play was a dream and you knew Trent felt the same. You pushed the next bag at him. He fumbled through the bag again and pulled out a pretty chic, in your opinion, black Prada baby bag. âItâs actually really good.â He laughed unexpectedly, pretty impressed with it. You felt a little relieved he wasn't freaked out by the baby-centric gifts. You picked up the final bag and placed it in his lap. He pulled out a matte all black Prada football. His eyes widened and a big grin pulled across his face.
âCool dad, no?â You giggled as he threw the designer football up and down. You stopped him when you pulled his face to yours with his cheeks in your hands. His laugh breaking out mid kiss halting it.
âMassively. Thank you, baby.â He cooed muddied in giggles, pressing a kiss to your lips. You hummed. You sat in your bed surrounded by spontaneous baby gifts. You stroked your hand over his high cheekbones. There was nowhere else you shouldâve been. This is where you belonged; with your Trent; and thatâs just what he was⌠yours. Trentâs words cut off your moment of reverie. âNot just for these. Thank you for giving me our child.â He spoke softly, rubbing his hands up your sides.
âOursâ you whispered sealed with a kiss.
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Halcyon - Ch. 8: Weâre Completely Undateable, Arenât We?
You and Joel go on a double date. A continuation of Halcyon from the prologue through Ch. 7, a modern no outbreak AU TLOU fic found on Tumblr here.
Pairing: Joel Miller x Female Reader
Warnings: Description of a nude selfie. Description of masturbation. Modern No Outbreak AU, No use of Y/N, Slow burn, 18+ only, Minors DNI
Length: 5.5K
AO3 | Main Master List | Prologue | Previous Chapter | Next Chapter
âWhatâs your friendâs name again?âÂ
Natalie wrapped her shawl tighter around her shoulders as you walked toward the restaurant. It was a nice one - trendy, with an extensive cocktail menu, something you were planning to take full advantage of as you watched Joel put the moves on someone else. Natalie, of course, looked beautiful. Perfect, really. At least, perfect for Joel.Â
Heâd always had a type. He denied it but he did. Joel had always gone for the effortlessly beautiful type, the kinds of girls in high school youâd have described as a step beyond the girl next door.
Natalie fit the bill, with soft features and natural makeup that perfectly accented them in a way that made you wonder if she was wearing makeup at all. She was unquestionably beautiful, the kind that made you do a double take and wonder what the hell someone like her was doing teaching and not modeling or being an influencer or something that was more lucrative because surely someone who looked like that had easier ways to make a living.Â
But she was a professor and she was a good one, too. Several of your students had her for other classes and you always enjoyed when you had a chance to chat with her in passing. Joel was going to like her. How could he not?Â
âHis name is Joel,â you said.Â
âJoel,â she repeated, taking a deep breath and giving a nod that made her curls bounce. âOK. Sorry, I havenât been on a date in like⌠six months. I swear I wonât be a total spaz the whole time weâre in there.âÂ
âWell, weâre going to be in the same boat,â you smiled, your stomach in knots. âThis is my first date since my split with my ex but you have to rip the bandaid off at some point, right?âÂ
âRight,â she smiled back. âWeâve got this.âÂ
If you didnât throw up, she was probably right.
You werenât going to say that.
âYes we do.âÂ
Joel and the man he said he was bringing for you were already inside, seated on opposite sides of the table, diagonally from each other and looking like the most awkward pair. Joel spotted you first, his eyes going a little wide before he stood up almost comically fast, his chair nearly toppling over behind him. You gave him a tight smile and a small wave as your stomach got tight.Â
This was going to be fucking torture.Â
The other man got up, too, and turned to face you and Natalie. He was tall - but not as tall as Joel - and handsome, if a few years younger than you. You werenât sure how you felt about that. Of course, it might not matter how you felt about it, given how his eyes fell on Natalie.Â
âHeâs cute!â Natalie whispered in your ear as you approached the table.Â
Before you had a chance to respond, she walked up to the other man and smiled, her hand out.Â
âJoel?â She asked. âIâm Natalie.âÂ
âOh,â he said, looking flustered. âUm⌠Iâm sorry, Iâm notâŚâÂ
âIâm Joel,â he smiled tightly, his hand out to her across the table. âSorryâŚâÂ
âOh, God,â she laughed. âNo, Iâm sorry! Iâm Natalie, itâs so nice to meet you Joel.âÂ
She took the seat next to the other man, anyway, settling in across from Joel as you went around the table to sit beside him. He raised his eyebrows at you but you just shrugged before introducing yourself to the other man.Â
âGood to meet you,â he said, shaking your hand lightly. âIâm Blake.âÂ
âHi,â you said again, hoping your smile wasnât too forced.Â
You sat next to Joel and picked up the menu, looking it over and trying to force yourself to relax. Except you relaxed so much that your knee brushed Joelâs under the table and it made you jump. He looked at you when you did and you both smiled tightly, almost apologetically at each other. You tried not to frown as you went back to your menu.Â
Joel didnât look particularly thrilled about the current situation. Had you done a bad job of picking his date? Youâd thought Natalie would have been a foolproof choice but maybe you were wrong. Or maybe he really wanted you to be across from him so his knee could accidentally brush hers under the table. You gnawed on your lower lip.Â
âEverything OK?â Natalie asked, making you look up from the menu. It took you a moment to realize she was talking to you.Â
âOh,â you laughed awkwardly. âYeah, no, itâs⌠itâs fine, I⌠umâŚâÂ
âGoldie has a hard time picking something to order at new places,â Joel cut off your stammering.Â
You looked at him, a little aghast.Â
âI do not!âÂ
âPlease,â he rolled his eyes. âYouâve always been that way. Youâre worse now but you can never just get whatever you want, you always have to wait to see what Iâm getting so you can steal some and even then youâll hedge your bets.âÂ
âAs if you donât steal my food,â you put the menu down. âI donât know that Iâve ever eaten something that I ordered all on my own if Iâm out with youâŚâÂ
âYou donât finish it, anyway!âÂ
âJoel, I have to get a bigger Blizzard than I really want because if I donât, you steal all of itâŚâÂ
âSo you two have known each other a long time, huh?â Natalie said and you suddenly remembered that it wasnât just you and Joel there. You were on a date. With other people.Â
You cleared your throat.Â
âYeah,â Joel said, looking at Natalie, one of his signature, charming smiles on his face. âGoldie and I go way back, almost 20 years nowâŚâÂ
âGod, weâre getting old,â you laughed a little and tried to find someplace to look that wasnât at Joel while he put the moves on your coworker.Â
âGoldie?â Blake asked.Â
âOh,â you laughed again, clenching an unclenching your hand under the table. âYeah, thatâs what Joel calls meâŚâÂ
âShe carried this notebook with this sparkly gold cover with her everywhere,â he said. You could feel his eyes on you and your face got hot. âSeriously, it was practically surgically attached. Still kind of is. But that makes sense since sheâs a writer. She was a writer then, too. Always been a writerâŚâÂ
âWhat do you write?â Blake asked, looking intrigued.Â
âNot much lately,â you said. âBut I have one book thatâs published. Itâs kind of a coming of age story?âÂ
âOh,â he deflated a bit.Â
âSorry,â you said, not sure why you were saying it.Â
âNo, donât apologize,â he said quickly. âJust⌠not really my thing. Sorry. Iâm sure itâs greatâŚâÂ
âWhat kind of books do you like?â You asked, desperate to change the subject.Â
âWell, Iâm reading Ulysses right nowâŚâÂ
âUlysses?â Natalie cut him off before covering her mouth and clearing her throat. âSorry. Thatâs just⌠itâs one of my favorites. Iâm teaching it next semesterâŚâÂ
âReally?â He asked, turning to face her, his face lighting up. âWhat do you like about it?âÂ
âOh, I love the stream of consciousness structureâŚâÂ
They seemed to tune out everything then, totally absorbed in each other. You gave Joel a look and he gave you the same one back.Â
You werenât entirely unused to being with Joel on a date, it had just been a while. In hindsight, you realized you probably hadnât been the best friend you could have been when that happened. You just continued on with Joel like you did when it was just the two of you, the fact that his flavor of the week was there hadnât made much difference. Youâd never felt like a third wheel. You never had much chance to feel like a third wheel.Â
You were pretty sure you and Joel were the collective third wheel now.Â
âThis isnât going well,â Joel said, keeping his voice low and turning his head like he was looking back over the shoulder that was closest to you.Â
âIt is for them,â you said, disguising it with a sip of water.Â
âGood evening!â The server mercifully came to the table and introduced himself. âCan I get you folks started with a bottle of wine or perhaps some of our speciality cocktails?âÂ
âOh thank God,â Joel muttered.Â
âAnybody else want wine?â You asked before anyone had a chance to react to what he said. You snatched up the wine list and skimmed to a mid-priced cab. âThis winery is excellent, everyone good with red?âÂ
âSounds great,â Natalie smiled.Â
âSure,â Blake smiled.Â
You didnât bother to wait for Joelâs response and ordered the bottle and a martini because dear lord if you were going to make it through this night you needed to be a lot drunker than this.Â
The server left and you exchanged a tight smile with Natalie before Blake cleared his throat awkwardly.Â
âSo,â Natalie said after a moment. âYou said you like this winery?âÂ
âOh,â you glanced quickly at Joel. âYeah, I did a tasting there a few years ago, theyâre in Sonoma, really excellent redsâŚâÂ
âSo, you like to travel?â Blake asked.Â
âYeah, itâs always fun going somewhere new,â you smiled. âHow about you? Anywhere really fun youâve been?âÂ
âOh, I uh⌠Donât really like to travel,â Blake said. âMuch more of a homebody type.âÂ
âMe too,â Natalie said, sounding a little too excited before clearing her throat. âI just really like having my quiet time, you know?âÂ
âYeah,â Blake nodded. âYou know, me and Joel work in contracting and Iâve really tried to make my home a place I really want to be, itâs my favorite place in the world.âÂ
âSee, thatâs so wonderful,â Natalie said. âIâve always wanted something like that but Iâve been bouncing from apartment to apartment for years so itâs hard to really customize thingsâŚâÂ
The two of them were off again and you and Joel were left awkwardly sipping the wine the server came back to pour.Â
It stayed like that all through dinner. All four of you tried to make conversation with the person you were there to see. You really, truly did. But it always led to Blake and Natalie being totally absorbed in each other while you and Joel were left sipping wine and pretending that you werenât being effectively ditched by your dates.Â
âCan you excuse me for just one minute,â Natalie said as you were waiting for the check, giving you a look across the table. âI just need to pop to the ladiesâ roomâŚâÂ
âIâll come with you,â you said quickly, grabbing your purse and following her.Â
The second you were behind closed doors, she grabbed your hand, an apologetic look on her face.Â
âI am so sorry,â she said. âYour friend seems great, really, and I know that Blake was your date tonight but would you mind if I got his number? If youâre really into him or you think it would hurt Joelâs feelings I absolutely wonât, itâs really not a big dealâŚâÂ
âNatalie,â you smiled and gave her hand a squeeze. âI doubt Blake even remembers my name right now. Absolutely, get his number, no hard feelings at all.âÂ
âYouâre sure?â She winced.Â
âDefinitely,â you said. âPlease, donât miss out because youâre worried about being polite or something with me. You two seem like you have a real connection, you should go for it.âÂ
âThank you so much!â She gave a little squeal. âOK now that itâs OK for me to say it? Iâm really excited, I really, really like Blake.âÂ
âGood,â you smiled. âIâm happy for you.âÂ
Joel and Blake had picked up the tab by the time you got back to the table and the four of you headed for the door, Natalie and Blake sticking close together while you and Joel hung back.Â
âHey, Joel,â you said as you made it to the door. âOne sec, let me show you somethingâŚâÂ
He frowned as you put your hand in his and tugged him to the side in the parking lot.Â
âWhat?â He asked, glancing back at Natalie and Blake before looking at you.Â
âJust going to give them some spaceâŚâ You trailed off, leaning around him to watch where Blake and Natalie were talking, Blake pulling out his phone and smiling as they did. âAnd there it is.âÂ
âWhat?â He asked, looking back over his shoulder but you grabbed him by the chin and made him look at you, his eyes going wide.Â
âDonât look!â You hissed. âGod, you have no tactâŚâÂ
âShut up.âÂ
âTheyâre swapping numbers,â you said. âTwo love birds over thereâŚâÂ
âJesus,â he groaned.Â
âSorry,â you said, stopping watching them and focusing on Joel again. âDidnât think youâd mind too muchâŚâÂ
âYeah, didnât exactly feel a love connection with Natalie,â he sighed, shoving his hands in his pockets. âYou OK with Blake not being the one?âÂ
âThink Iâll survive,â you smiled tightly. You glanced around him one more time. Phones were back in pockets. âOK I think weâre good.âÂ
âCâmon Cupid,â he said. âLetâs go get shot down.âÂ
You snorted but followed behind him to the edge of the parking lot where Blake and Natalie were waiting.Â
âSo, if you donât mind,â Natalie said, still wincing a little. âI was going to have Blake take me home? Catch up with you next week?âÂ
âSounds good,â you smiled before turning to Blake. âIt was nice meeting you.âÂ
âYou too,â he said, at least being polite enough to look sheepish about it.Â
âGood to meet you, too, Joel,â Natalie said. âReally, you seem⌠nice.âÂ
âSame to you,â he said, hands still in his pockets.Â
The two of you stood there, side by side, as your dates went home together.Â
You sighed and looked over at Joel once Blake and Natalie were safely in his car. Joel looked back at you.Â
âWeâre completely undateable, arenât we?â He asked.Â
âYep,â you nodded once.Â
He sighed.Â
âWell, at least we have each other.âÂ
âCould be worse,â you agreed.Â
âWant to come over?â He asked.Â
âYes butâŚâ you bit your lip. âCan we go to Sonic first? I kind of really need a shake now.âÂ
Joel laughed.Â
âAbsofuckinlutely we can.âÂ
***
âYou really think this is a good idea?âÂ
Your head was dangling off the seat of the couch, your legs draped over the back as you looked at your phone screen.
âBetter idea than all your blood rushinâ to your head for however long youâve been sitting like that,â Joel replied, sitting on the floor with his back to the love seat next to you. He tried to ignore the way your body curved in that position. The shape of your legs, your ass pressing into the cushions, your breasts swelling over the cups of your bra and giving him a glimpse of your cleavage in the v-neck of your dress.Â
You set your phone on your stomach and looked longingly at the styrofoam cup on his coffee table.Â
âWhat?â He asked.Â
âI want my shake.âÂ
âSo drink the shake!âÂ
âI donât wanna sit up,â you whined a little. Joel laughed. Youâd added a generous amount of vodka to the shake and it was starting to show. You reached for the cup, arm outstretched, fingers groping but it was out of reach. You whimpered and he sighed, bringing the cup alongside your head. You tried to take it but he pulled the cup away for a moment.Â
âJust wait, Iâm holdinâ it,â he said. âTake a sip if you actually can from that position, you weirdo.âÂ
You rolled your eyes with more dramatic force than Sarah on her best day.Â
âYouâre being controlling,â you said, putting the hand that had been reaching for the shake on your stomach by your phone.Â
âTryinâ to keep you from wrecking my carpet,â he replied, putting the shake by your head again and putting the straw in your open mouth. âDonât choke.âÂ
âDonât choke,â you mumbled mockingly around the straw - or he thought you did, anyway. It was hard to tell. You managed to actually get some milkshake into your mouth but almost immediately grimaced. Joel took the straw away.Â
âYou OK?â He laughed.Â
âBrain freeze,â you winced, eyes scrunched closed. âUgh, why would vodka and chocolate betray me in this way?âÂ
âYour guess is as good as mine, Goldie.âÂ
âYou think this is why my date ditched me?â You asked, eyes still closed in a wince.Â
âWhat?â Joel laughed. âBecause chocolate and vodka decided to attack you personally?âÂ
âNo,â you frowned, the upside down angle of your head making it look like a sad smile for a moment. âBecause I like doing shit like this. I probably should have out grown this years ago.âÂ
âHon, if some asshole is telling you to grow up, he doesnât deserve you,â he said. âNow let me see that damn profile.âÂ
You sighed and surrendered your phone. While sitting in Joelâs truck at Sonic after your respective dates had crumbled, Joel redownloaded Tinder and you decided to set up a profile of your own. But youâd never had a dating app profile before. You sat on the couch, gnawing on your thumbnail and ignoring the milkshake youâd wanted to stop for until Joel went and got the liquor. After a few shots - and a generous amount added to your shake - you loosened up enough to fill out the profile.Â
But you hadnât loosened up enough to finalize it yourself.Â
âOK well weâre changing out these pictures,â Joel said, scrolling down the page.Â
âWhatâs wrong with the pictures!âÂ
âDid you scroll through your album to find the most boring photos of you ever taken?â He asked, lowering the phone enough to look at you. âBecause these are not doing you justiceâŚâÂ
âFuck off,â you tried to shove him but almost fell off the couch instead, gasping then giggling as Joel caught you.Â
âJesus, please try to not break your neck,â he said, heart in his throat as he helped arrange you on the couch. âJust got you back, rather you not die in my living roomâŚâÂ
âGive it a few months,â you settled into the couch again. âYouâll change your tune.âÂ
He scoffed, scrolling down your profile.Â
âSee, you didnât pick the best prompts,â he said, frowning.Â
âWhat do you mean?â You asked, adjusting your head to try to see him better and then giving up.Â
âYouâve basically just said what your job is four different times,â he said. âCan I fuck with your profile?âÂ
âYouâre the expert,â you shrugged. âShake please.âÂ
Joel sighed and held the cup up so you could reach the straw again before going into your prompts.Â
âAlright, if you had 20 minutes left to live, what would you do?â Joel asked, lowering the phone to look at you again.Â
âI donât wanna say,â you pouted a little.Â
âWell now you have to,â he teased. âI gotta know. Is it masturbate? Eat your weight in chocolate ice cream? Tell Brad to go fuck himself? What?âÂ
âNot telling.âÂ
âIâll tell you mine,â Joel said. âCâmonâŚâÂ
âNo.âÂ
âGoldie.âÂ
âJoel.âÂ
âDonât make me beg, he said. âI will withhold your alcoholic shake.âÂ
You quirked your jaw for a moment before you sighed.Â
âIâd come see you,â you said. âThere. Happy?âÂ
Joelâs heart beat a little faster.Â
âGoldieâŚâÂ
âDonât make fun!â
âIâm not!â He said quickly. âReally, Iâm not, I promise Iâm not.âÂ
âFeels like you are,â you muttered.Â
âIâm not,â he said gently, moving so he was leaning on the couch next to you. âPromise.âÂ
âYeah, alrightâŚâÂ
âHey,â he said. You lifted your head slightly, enough that he could see your face better. âIâd come see you, too. Assuming I had Sarah with me, of course.â
âWhat about Tommy?âÂ
âFuck âem,â he smiled a little and you laughed. âJust donât tell him I said that.â Â
âProbably shouldnât put that I would go see some other guy on my dating profile,â you said, letting your head dangle again. âPick another prompt.âÂ
âHow about this one,â he said. âI want someone who⌠will travel and explore new places with me. Sound good?âÂ
âYeah,â you said. âI like that one.âÂ
âHereâs a good one,â Joel said, letting a teasing edge slip into his voice. âYour biggest red flag is⌠fucking old dudesâŚâÂ
âFuck off,â you laughed. âThe prompts suck.âÂ
âWeâll figure âem out later,â Joel said. âIâm going to find a picture of you that doesnât look like it was taken at some fuckinâ work conferenceâŚâÂ
âHey!âÂ
âYouâre a fun person,â Joel said, going to your photo albums. âYouâve lived a little. Try showing that.âÂ
âFine,â you sighed. âBut I promise, there arenât many pictures that are worth your time.âÂ
âWeâll see about that,â Joel said absently as he went to the map of photos. He pulled up the cluster that appeared near San Francisco. âSee, this oneâs good.âÂ
He held your phone in front of your face, a picture of you smiling in a vineyard.Â
âSays you like to travel and like wine,â he said. âAnd you look good in it.âÂ
âAlright,â you said, a smile in your voice. âPut it in there.âÂ
âNot a first picture though,â he said. âWeâll find a better one for thatâŚâÂ
âKnew youâd have this down to a scienceâŚâÂ
âShut up,â he laughed, going back to the map. âYouâve been to Europe, right?âÂ
âYeah,â you said. âFor the book tour.âÂ
âLetâs see,â he said, heading across the ocean on the map and finding pictures in London. âOh see, these are good, youâre all done up for work and shit but itâs in a cool place. So much better than that one shot you pickedâŚâÂ
âWhatever you say,â you said, smile still evident in your voice.Â
Joel toggled through pictures. You at the Tower of London, you by that big damn ferris wheel, you by Big Ben, a selfie with a woman who was pretty but not nearly as pretty as you. You holding your book and smiling with a room full of people in the background as they watched you intently. He smiled to himself, looking at the photo for a moment. He was so fucking proud of you, that youâd actually done the thing youâd always dreamed of and people loved you for it. He reached over and took a drink of your shake as he swiped to the next image but he immediately choked on it.Â
It was a picture of you, a selfie. You were flat on your back on a fluffy white comforter, your eyes hazy with want, breasts bared for the camera.Â
He knew he shouldnât be looking at this. He knew. This wasnât for him, this was for⌠well, presumably that fucking asshole you spent a decade married to. But before he could consciously stop himself, he memorized you. The swell of your breasts, the pebbling of your nipples, the curve at your waist just as the photo cut off. And that look on your face. How many times had he remembered - pretended? - that you looked at him like that when heâd been inside you?Â
His conscious mind took over again. He coughed on the shake, dropping the phone and the drink.Â
âShit,â you said, adjusting quickly to help clean up. âAre you OK?âÂ
âFine,â he said, trying to scramble for the phone as he hacked and coughed. Where the fuck had it fallen? âJust⌠wrong tubeâŚâÂ
âYeah, try not to do that,â you teased and Joelâs stomach dropped. Your phone was in your hand.Â
âNo, wait!âÂ
âWhat?â You laughed. âItâs my phoneâŚâ You looked down at the screen of it for the first time, your eyes going wide before you clutched it to your chest. âOh my God, please tell me you didnât see that!âÂ
He was quiet beyond his subsiding coughing for a moment.Â
âItâs not that big of a dealâŚâ he began but you groaned.Â
âI canât believeâŚâÂ
âIâm really sorry,â he said quickly. âI swear, I wasnât looking for -â
âItâs not your fault,â you cut him off. Joel suddenly realized exactly how close the two of you were and he sat back from you. You winced, the expression passing quickly. âIâm sorry. I forgot that was even there, I thought Iâd deleted itâŚâÂ
âItâs not a big dealâŚâÂ
âI justâŚâ you looked at him, those eyes wide with a desperate need for understanding instead of just desperate want. âLook, things were already in a shitty place with Gale and I was trying to keep him interested when I was half a planet away and I was⌠well, I was obviously willing to try anything and - âÂ
âGoldie,â he cut you off. âItâs OK. Really.âÂ
âNo, it was stupid,â you looked down at your phone, barely pulling the screen away from your chest as you - presumably - deleted the picture. âIt didnât get me anywhere. I donât think he even directly replied to that photo and it clearly didnât do much to save my marriage and now⌠So yeah, it was pretty stupid.âÂ
âIt wasnât stupid,â he said gently. You scoffed. âIt wasnât. You were trying to take care of something that mattered to you. He was a fucking dumbass. You werenât stupid.âÂ
He was suddenly close to you again - or it seemed sudden, anyway. But he was close enough that he could smell your shampoo and see the different shades in the iris of your eye. You were close enough that kissing you would be easy. Or it would be if there wasnât so much between you.Â
But maybe, just this once, itâd be easy. Actually easy.Â
âWeâre home!â Tommyâs voice boomed as the front door smacked into the wall.Â
âAunt Goldie!â Sarah shrieked, tearing into the living room as you smiled at her. âI didnât know you were gonna be here!âÂ
She damn near hurdled Joel and launched herself at you, almost toppling you over as you caught her.Â
âI didnât either, kiddo,â you laughed and gave her a squeeze. âBut your dadâs and my plans changed. I was just about to head home, though.âÂ
âAw man,â she sat back from you, pouting a little. âYouâre not sleeping over?âÂ
âRemember those cats we got earlier this week?â You asked, brows raised. âNot very nice for me to leave poor Puck home alone when heâs still new in the house, is it?âÂ
âI guess,â she sighed dramatically. âYou should bring him next time. Him and Swiftie can be friends.âÂ
You smiled.Â
âIâll think about it.â You turned to Joel, looking down at the melting shake on the floor. âCan I help? Where are the paper towels, I canâŚâÂ
âDonât worry about it,â he said quickly. âYou should probably head home.âÂ
âRight,â you smiled tightly, leaning around Joel to see his brother and gave him a wave. âHi Tommy. Long time no see.âÂ
âYouâre lookinâ good, Goldie,â he smiled. âStill out there being smarter than everyone?âÂ
âMostly,â you replied. âYou still pretending rolled up pieces of paper are cigarettes?âÂ
âSometimes,â he smirked. âWhen Iâm bored and I need excitement.âÂ
You laughed at that and gave Sarah a final hug before leaving. Joel watched you go before sending Sarah to the kitchen for the paper towels before telling her to get ready for bed.Â
âShe behave?â Joel asked as he mopped up the spilled shake and tried to get the image of you, half naked and desperate, out of his mind.Â
âAn angel, as always,â Tommy said. âYou two sure made a messâŚâÂ
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â Joel snapped, looking up at him.Â
âNothing,â he put his hands up. âJust an observation.âÂ
âWell,â Joel went back to cleaning up the mess. âObserve something else.âÂ
âDate went that well, huh?â Tommy asked. Joel could hear his cocky smile.Â
âSomething like that,â he muttered.
âYou two will figure it out eventually.âÂ
âYeah,â Joel sighed. âHelped her get a Tinder profile set up tonightâŚâÂ
âNot the kind of figure it out I meant, brother,â Tommy clapped him on the shoulder and groaned a little as he got up.Â
âWhat kind did you mean?â Joel asked.Â
âWell, figure it out and then youâll know,â Tommy said. Joel rolled his eyes. âIâm out, been a long day.âÂ
âThanks for taking Sarah,â Joel said. âI appreciate it.
âThank me by getting your shit together,â Tommy replied.Â
âYeah,â Joel sighed. âIâm workinâ on it.âÂ
Tommy left and Joel managed to get the shake out of the carpet before heading to Sarahâs room to put her to bed. He read some of the book they were working on aloud and tucked her in before going to take a shower himself.Â
Not that he needed one. Heâd taken a shower just before getting ready for the date, it had only been a few hours.Â
But he needed privacy. He needed to know that his daughter wasnât going to overhear anything or come wandering in at an inopportune moment.Â
The shower helped.Â
He couldnât wait for Sarah to fall asleep. It was like that picture was burned into his fucking retinas, he needed to get it out of his system now. He needed to get you out of his system.Â
For now, heâd settle for the picture.Â
It didnât take much for his cock to be so hard it ached and he palmed it under the flow of hot water, working himself from root to tip. He tried not to think too much about the picture at first. Heâd never been supposed to see it, it wasnât right that he saw you that way.Â
But he gave in quickly. He told himself itâd be just this once. It wouldnât be so bad if it was just this once, just to move past it.Â
He let himself pretend. Pretend that youâd sent him that picture, pretend that you looked at him all desperate and needy, pretend that he got to take off your clothes every night so he could touch every inch of you. Heâd been so caught up in what was happening the one time he was with you, the overwhelming intensity of his first time all tied up with just how badly heâd wanted you for so long, he wasnât sure how much of you heâd actually touched. Not really. But he wanted it to be all of you. He hoped it was all of you. He pretended that he knew all of you in that way as he worked his cock, hard and fast until he came so hard that it spilled over his hand and onto his shower wall.Â
âFuck,â he panted, leaning against the wall for support as his cock went soft in his hand.Â
He needed to fucking get past this. It wasnât worth blowing up his friendship with you, hadnât he learned that by now? He had to get his shit together.Â
He repeated it like a mantra as he cleaned himself up and toweled off before heading to bed. But he couldnât sleep, staring up at the ceiling and wondering if you were OK. If there was a chance you were thinking of him like this somehow, too.Â
Joel picked up his phone and went to text you for a moment before he decided against it. Maybe space was better. You probably needed some time after he saw that picture.Â
Right?Â
Instead, he opened Tinder. Maybe he could at lest find a decent option for a one night stand, see if fucking someone else helped get you out of his head. Heâd never just fucked someone else when you were anywhere near him, though. Could he even do that now? Did he even want to?
He swiped right on the first few women on the app, not spending much time on their profiles and going off their pictures alone. He swiped left on the next one and was preparing to do a quick swipe when your face was in front of him again.Â
It wasnât the picture that was lodged in his brain. Instead, it was the picture of you at the Tower of London. Your hair was done but a little messy from the wind, a gentle but happy smile on your face.Â
He just looked at you for a moment. Youâd activated your profile in the short time since youâd left his house.Â
You had Tinder now and he should have anticipated this. Of course if you added the app and lived this close youâd appear on his. But that didnât make him any more prepared for it.Â
What the fuck was he supposed to do?Â
Did he swipe right on the off chance you did, too? But if you didnât, heâd have to live with the fact that he knew you didnât.Â
If he swiped left, it could all go away. Be like it never happened, not you looking for someone else, not him stumbling upon that damn photo, none of it. If he swiped left, he could actually try to find someone else.Â
His finger hovered over the screen for a moment as he tried to remember exactly what your skin felt like in his hands.Â
He swiped left.Â
Next Chapter
A/N: I know, these TWO. I love them. They need to figure it out but I love them.
I hope you do, too!
Stuff is going to ramp up a bit soon. Thank you so much for being alone for the ride! I know I haven't been replying to comments reliably lately (I keep posting chapters super late and just going to bed as soon as I post them instead of responding) but please know that every time I get a comment email to my inbox, it makes me smile. So thank you thank you thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with me and thank you for caring about this fic. It truly means the world.
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Before I Knew [Jake Seresin x Reader] Chapter Twenty
A Jake Seresin unexpected pregnancy fic
Overview: On your first night after moving to San Diego to spend more time with your brother Bob, you unknowingly have a one night stand with his teammate Jake Seresin. For the first time in his whole life, Bob has a closely knit friend group and youâre desperate not to rock the boat. But an unexpected and unplanned pregnancy upends your world, forcing you and Jake closer together, against Bobâs wishes. What will happen when you find yourself actually falling for the father of your unborn child?Â
Pairing: Jake Seresin x Reader; Bob Floyd x Sister!ReaderÂ
Warnings: Pregnancy, cursing, eventual smut, angst
Chapter summary: Jake and Bob finally talk; Jake makes a startling statement and Ducky's water breaks
WC: 1K
Masterlist here; previous chapter here
You sat on the couch wearing a dress that stretched over your mountain of a stomach, feet swinging. âCome on, Cowboy!â you yelled out. âThis isnât the Miss Texas pageant!âÂ
Jake appeared from the doorway, running a hand through his hair. He had on a pair of jeans and a thin cashmere polo tucked in at the waist. He looked nervous.Â
âAre you ready?â he nodded. âHelp me up, please.âÂ
Jake held out his hands and lifted you gently as you groaned. âYou alright baby?â he whispered.Â
âIâm enormous,â you complained. âAnd sheâs kicking my ribs like sheâs getting paid for it.âÂ
âMaybe we have a soccer star on our hands,â he replied, placing one hand on your belly.Â
You looked up. âI donât think I need to tell you how important it is to me that tonight goes well.âÂ
Jake sighed. âIâm well aware of whatâs at stake, Y/N.âÂ
You frowned. âWhy do you say it like that?âÂ
âLetâs just go,â he said, grabbing his truck keys from the table near the door.Â
âNo. Tell me what you meant.âÂ
Jake groaned. âIâm really not in the mood for this.âÂ
âWell neither am I, but here we are.â You were being stubborn and you knew it. It was one of your less attractive traits, as your mother always said.Â
âYou want to know the truth?â Jake whirled around to face you. âThatâs my baby in there. But I know for a goddamn fact that youâll pick your family over me if it comes down to it. And that if for some reason Floyd and I canât figure this out, youâll pick him over me. And Iâm not going to get to be a part of my kidâs life. Not in the way that I want to be.âÂ
It took you a moment to reply. And just as you opened your mouth to speak, Jake cut you off.Â
âLetâs go,â he said quietly. âWeâre going to be late.âÂ
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The drive was silent, punctuated only by the sounds of your scraggly breath as the truck ricketed over potholes. Jake kept both hands on the wheel, gripping it hard.Â
You were quiet as he pulled into a parking space, Bobâs truck already parked across the way. When you went to slip your hands into Jakeâs, he shifted just enough out of the way.Â
Inside, Bob sat at a corner table wearing a linen shirt, a look of disgruntled discomfort across his face. He stood up when he spotted you, reaching out to kiss your cheek. âDucky.â He straightened. âHangman.âÂ
âFloyd.âÂ
âCall each other by your first names,â you demanded, plopping down into the chair and taking a sip of ice water. âPlease.âÂ
âJake,â Bob bit out.
âBob.âÂ
âThere. Was that so hard?â You winced as the baby kicked, hard, against what may or may not have been the remaining shred of a spleen.Â
âAre you alright?â Bob asked quietly.Â
You looked up and nodded. âYeah, Iâm fine.âÂ
âAre you sure?âÂ
âYes.â You cut him off. âCan the two of you just talk please? So I can go home and put on my pajamas.âÂ
âIf you want Iâll take you home now.â Jake offered.Â
âJesus fuck,â you grumbled and they both looked up, startled. âTalk to each other. Now.â You crossed your arms over your chest, resting them on your belly.Â
Jake sighed while Bob leaned back.Â
Finally, Jake said, âI called Joe the other day. After what happened at the restaurant.âÂ
Bob frowned. You did, too. âWho is Joe?âÂ
âDakotaâs husband,â they replied in unison.Â
âAsked how he was doing. How Blake was. Heâs in the third grade now.âÂ
âI know that,â Bob bit out. âHeâs my godson.âÂ
Jake hung his head. âListen, Bob, Iâm trying here. Do you know how many times I woke up that first year after the accident in the middle of the night drenched in sweat? How many times I wondered if it would have been better if it was me in her seat. What if I had just gone down instead.â He sucked in a breath. âIâm about to be a father. And itâs made me do a lot of thinking. Iâm not saying it was right, or that I donât regret it. But maybe there was a reason I wasnât the one who we lost out there. Maybe this is what I was meant to do and be. And I think I owe our daughter, Y/Nâs and mine, everything I can give to her. And that means being a father who isnât constantly haunted by ghosts.âÂ
The air was still. In front of you, your spaghetti was getting cold, but you couldnât tear your eyes away from Jake and Bob as they sat across from each other in silence.Â
âTell me the truth,â Bob said, gravely voice barely above a whisper. âDo you love my sister?âÂ
âYes.â It was automatic. Your heart jumped into your throat. âI love her. Iâm in love with her. Iâd do anything for her.âÂ
âSo marry her.âÂ
âBobby!â you slapped his upper arm. âYou shut up.âÂ
âIâm serious,â he said. âMarry her and provide a good life for her.âÂ
âHappily.âÂ
Your eyes went wide. âWhat?âÂ
Jake turned to you. âI know youâre scared and thatâs OK. But when youâre ready, Iâll be here. Because Iâm ready for this. All of this.âÂ
Your heart started beating fast. You felt the air tighten around you as your reached out to grab the edge of the table.Â
âDucky?âÂ
âBaby? Are you alright?âÂ
âI think, Iâmââ
The rush of liquid from beneath your dress stopped you mid sentence. You looked up.Â
âI think Iâm in labor.âÂ
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When The World Is Free: Chapter 11 - Non, Je Ne Regrette Rien
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Pairing: Benedict Bridgerton x fem!reader, WW2 AU.
Warnings: none really... a little bit of kissing interruptus.
Word Count: 2.6k
Authorâs Note: Multi-chapter fic based on a request by the lovely @amillcitygirl. Please see the masterpost for a synopsis of this story. This is a slightly transitional chapter after the seismic events in Chapter 10. Our couple have no regrets but cannot get time alone as our intrepid trio journeys to Aubrey Hall. Yes, here beginnith our latest trope: secret relationship! Thanks as always to @colettebronte for beta reading. Enjoy!
Portsmouth, UK, September 1939
Waking up in Benedictâs arms for a second time is a thoroughly different experience, a handsome smile creasing his face.
âGood morning,â he rumbles, and you feel it buzz in your cheekbone resting on his pectoral.
âGood morning,â you whisper, tilting to kiss his lips.
You want to burrow into his warmth, his naked body, curl around him like a vine. Forget the world; just exist with him here in this warm cocoon. His hand slides up your back, pulling you snugger into him as you kiss - languid, sensual, tongues touching, a stirring you can feel between your legs and in him where your thigh is draped over his lap.
Just as you are about to get lost in this, in him, there is a rapid-fire knocking on the door.
âWakey, wakey, lazy bones! Let me in!â Eloiseâs voice calls, muffled in the corridor outside.
You both swing your heads towards the door, then back to each other in almost comic unison, jumping apart as if burned, exchanging panicked looks as you scurry out of bed.
âGive me a minute,â Benedict grouses loudly for her benefit.
Then, there is a flurry of hushed movement as you fling open suitcases and rapidly throw on the nearest clothing. âBed!â you mouth, signalling for him to help. You work together in unison to make the bed, not to the point it doesn't look slept in, but certainly not the tangle of sheets from tumultuous lovemaking that it was. Belatedly, you realise you should have put a makeshift pile on the floor as if he slept there.
It's less than a minute from when you were naked in each otherâs arms to Benedict opening the door to Eloise, you on the other side of the room attempting nonchalance. She wanders in, looking blissed out but also a little worse for wear, an apparent hangover clinging to her edges as she retrieves a hairbrush from her suitcase. You want to ask how her night was, but her frown stops you.Â
âDoesnât look like anyone slept on the floorâŚâ she comments suspiciously as she pulls up to the mirror.Â
âI am, in fact, capable of tidying away blankets and pillows after I use them, sister,â Benedict sighs and rolls his eyes, looking out the window. âIt is what I was doing when you so rudely woke up half the hotel, in fact,â he lies.
Eloise sticks her tongue out at him in the mirror, which he roundly ignores.
âYour brother is a true gentleman,â you defend, staying intentionally vague, standing behind her and using the mirror as well to touch up your appearance.Â
It's your turn to receive the Eloise look of scornful derision before you steer to a new, safer topic.Â
âSo, how was your night with Phillip?â you tease affably.
âOh, heâs wonderful,â a wistful look claiming her face. A secret little smile you have never seen before. âWe had such a memorable night.â
âAaaand I donât need to hear this,â Benedict deadpans. âIâll see you ladies downstairs for breakfastâŚâ is his parting shot as he heads for the door.Â
But as Eloise leans down to grab a hairpin, launching into a whole story, he winks at you in the reflection, and your heart skips a beat.
ââ
âSo, ready to party your life away in London?â Eloise chirps as the train trundles through rural Hampshire a few hours later. âIt's not Paris, but it will doâŚ.â
âI thought we were going to your country home?â you frown.
âWell, yes, for a few days. But we can head back up to Bridgerton House for the weekend,â Eloise grins. âPhillip might be in town by thenâŚ.â You chuckle at her lack of subtlety. âAnd we can find you a nice man!â she adds.
There is a scrunch of a newspaper diagonally across from you as Benedictâs grip tightens on the broadsheet he is holding, his face wholly obscured behind it.
âOh, I don't know..â you attempt to laugh it off. âI think I might give that whole party lifestyle a rest.â
âNonsense! You are not really a married lady, you know,â Eloise withers, rolling her eyes. âAnd you can take that off now,â she nods to your ring finger.
âOhâŚâ you fumble, touching it instinctively, the soft lamplight within the compartment making the gold glint brightly. âI thought it safer to wear it while we are still in transit,â you bluff, knowing Benedict is paying full attention to your conversation now, even as he hides behind The Times.
She frowns. âYou have your residency now. The British government will not bother tracking you down with this war effort. You could get divorced tomorrow, and literally, nothing would happen,â she opines imperiously as if suddenly an expert on immigration matters.
âBetter safe than sorry, Eloise,â Benedict pipes up, folding down the paper and removing his reading glasses with that lecturing elder brother air. His ring catches the sunlight as he does, making something bloom in your ribs to see it.
Just as Eloise goes to dispute it, her face instead lights up from the passing trolley service. âOooh, snacks!â she exclaims distractedly, craning to look out into the corridor, allowing you to smile your thanks softly at Benedict unseen. His responding lopsided smile has your stomach vaulting.
Then Eloise is on her feet, chasing the attendant that rumbled past your compartment, apparently keen for refreshments. As soon as she is out of sight, you reach a hand across to him. He leans forward and grasps it with both of his.
âWe will have time alone at Aubrey Hall, I promise,â he whispers earnestly, his eyes imploring, bringing your hand to his lips and making you stutter as he brushes warm lips over the back of your fingers.
âI want to touch you, BenedictâŚâ you confess ardently, âall the time. So very muchâŚâ
His face is a storm of bridled intensity at your words, his pupils dilating rapidly. âAs do IâŚ.â his words impassioned, even as his expression clouds wincingly, and you know where his thoughts have slid.
âBut, EloiseâŚâ you nod, understanding, reluctantly withdrawing your hand and sitting back, a tingle still on your fingers from his lips.
There is no way either of you wants to raise what is happening or what has happened yet. Neither of you is sure of anything except this magnetic pull between youâyearning to be together, alone.
âYesâŚâ he sighs, pained, slumping back into his seat just as the lady in question twirls back in, hands full with Cadbury's bars and a Fryâs Peppermint Cream.
âI thought you hated Peppermint Cream?â Benedict frowns as Eloise hands you both a Cadbury and immediately unwraps the Fryâs bar for herself, taking a big bite.
âI may be reassessing its merits,â she sniffs before leaning in to whisper to you, muffled around her mouthful. âItâs Phillip's favourite,â she divulges before staring dreamily out the window.
You have never known Eloise to change her mind about anything in the time you have known her, especially not from a manâs opinion. You just shrug at Benedict, conveying your equal surprise. Clearly, this one might be a serious contender.
â
Walking the connecting overhead path to Waterloo Junction for your onward train to Kent, you are startled when Benedict grabs your hand and places it into his coat pocket. You soon realise in the glass reflection ahead that the swish of the open fabric means the connection of your hands is unseen.Â
Your heart pounds in your ears as you walk beside Eloise, her none the wiser as your palms grip each other, fingers laced. When you glance up at him briefly, you see the ghost of a smile at the corner of his lips, but he keeps looking ahead as if nothing unusual is happening.Â
You want to kiss the little dimple right there at his sheer genius.
â
The onward leg only takes an hour and is filled with amiable chat, mostly about books and films. Soon, you are alighting the train at a charming rural village stop, the platform ablaze with neatly potted late summer plants of reds and yellows.
But you are struck with a sudden wave of nerves as a sleek car awaits you. You are not long away from meeting the rest of the Bridgerton family. Strictly, your family now too.
âDoes anyone know?â You ask Eloise as the driver loads your cases into the boot.
âKnow what?â
âThat Benedict and I are marriedâŚ?â You spell out, surprised she didnât follow your train of thought.Â
âOh. Well. I didnât call or telegram,â she twists to look at Benedict as he places your day bag on top of his. âDid you tell mother?â
He scoffs. âGod, no. Not something I could begin to explain over the phone.â
âSo what do we say? Or do?â You ask, subconsciously toying with your ring.
Benedict walks over and places comforting hands on your shoulders. It takes all of your willpower not to lean into him. âDon't worry. Follow my lead. I donât think we can or should lie.âÂ
Less than a minute into the car ride, you sandwiched between the siblings, Eloiseâs eyes flutter closed, face lolling against the glass. You signal to Benedict, and when he twists to see, his hand grabs your kneecap, fingers wrapping around and caressing the ticklish skin near the crease at the back of your knee. Something about this stolen moment is exciting, elicit, and endlessly arousing.
âI cannot go more than an hour in your presence without wanting to touch you,â he whispers, leaning close, his words a hot gust into your ear that has you melting.
âSame,â you murmur back, your hand sliding over his, mapping the raised veins with your fingertips, memories of the last night tumbling through your mind, those strong hands running over your naked flesh, grasping. It makes your breath hitch audibly.
âWhat are you thinking about?â His voice is a honeyed rumble that makes every hair on your forearms stand on end. He probably knows, but you confirm it anyway.
âLast nightâŚâ you mouth, turning your face into him so his lips brush your cheek. His grip tightens, and his breath rags into your hair.
âIt's all I have thought about sinceâŚâ he confesses; your chest flutters as his hand slides a fraction higher on your leg, playing with your hem. Every fibre of your being is calling for him. You want him to keep going, slide all the way up your thighs and touch you⌠but Eloise stirs, and instantly, his touch is gone, and you are left bereft.Â
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To call Aubrey Hall a country house is ridiculous. Your jaw drops as the car sweeps up a long gravel driveway to an enormous, handsome pile of a manor estate.
âOh my god, Eloise,â you smack her arm lightly. âHow rich are you!?â
She laughs. âWhat, that my brother is a Viscount doesn't give that away?â she guffaws.
âWell, I thought maybe it was an honourary title or somethingâŚâ you mutter, feeling slightly embarrassed you don't know the full ins and outs of the British aristocracy you have clearly married into, entirely without knowing.
âDon't be intimidated,â Benedict soothes. âWe are just a large family who inherited a big pile. I promise we aren't stuffy or cold.â You want to squeeze his hand for being so empathetic and reassuring.
âOr inbred!â Eloise cackles as the car stops, and you notice a beautiful, elegant middle-aged woman waving from the steps.
âOur mother,â Benedict elucidates before Eloise throws the door open and jogs up to hug the lady, who looks overjoyed to be reunited with her daughter after months away. You can tell Eloise is happy, too, even if her joy is more understated.
Benedict is by your side when you are out of the vehicle. A pillar of support, even if not touching you.
âMumâŚâ Eloise pulls her down the steps. âThis is y/n!â
âOh, it's wonderful to meet you!â the lady greets, pulling you into a welcoming hug that smells lavender and lilac. âI have heard so much!â
âSame!â you chime back.
Then it is Benedictâs turn to hug her; you swear there is an extra glint in her eye as if he is her favourite. However, you notice he keeps his left hand in his pocket throughout.
âThank you for bringing them back safe, darling,â she reaches up and pats his hair affectionately as if he is still a child, not a grown man in his late twenties.
âWe would have made it home perfectly safe without him, mother,â Eloise gripes with her trademark mettle.
âEloise Bridgerton, you would have absconded to Saint Tropez if your brother were not there. Don't even lie about that,â Violet chides lovingly, and you can't help but giggle.
âDon't take her side!â Elose decries.
âCome on, it's true,â you laugh, bumping her gently with your shoulder as you walk in through the doors.
It is a beautiful stately home, but at the same time, it seems less imposing on the inside; it looks lived in and loved. A house that is full of family and life.
âYou will meet the rest of the family later today,â Violet advises. âWell, minus our brave Viscount, who is in London with Churchill, and Daphne, who lives with her husband.â
âAnd Fran,â Eloise adds.
âYes, Francesca is staying with her cousins in Bath,â Violet counsels as she guides you into their parlour.
âSheâs barely my sister,â Eloise jests, dropping onto a sofa and grabbing a glass of water from a carafe on the coffee table.
Violet just shoots her an exasperated look while offering you a seat, too. âEloise told me you were engaged, not already married,â Violet addresses as you get comfortable.
Benedict springs from across the room. âAhhh, about thatâŚ.â he placates with his left hand aloft.
âIs that also a ring I see on your finger, Benedict Bridgerton?!â Violet splutters.
âMother, I can explainâŚ.â
And thus, he recounts the events of the last few days. Violet listening intently, looking, in turn, shocked, dumbfounded and proud. Of course, Benedict omits the whole part of the fact you are together romantically. Well, sort of. You think. You are dying to be alone with him so you can talk. Or perhaps do other more exciting things. That idle thought makes your cheeks flush.
âI am so very grateful to your son, Viscountess Bridgerton,â you jump in as much as to steer your own wayward thoughts away from dangerous waters. âWithout him, I would likely still be stuck in France, all alone.â
His eyes dance with warmth as you glance at him, wanting to grab his hand and lace your fingers. Out of the corner of your eye, you can see Violet has the most intrigued look as she observes her son carefullyâthe all-knowing eye of a matriarch.
âWell, I am so grateful you are safe, my dear,â she turns to you. âAnd please, for goodness sake, call me Violet. You are welcome to remain with us as long as you need or desire. You are family now, after all. At least for as long as you wish to be considered such,â she concludes, seeming to choose her words very carefully.
âThank you, Violet,â you murmur, so grateful, already feeling a warm glow from her hospitality. âI could not be more honoured to be here for as long as you will all have me,â your eyes drifting back to Benedict as you say it.
The tender look on his face makes you touch your wedding ring idly with your thumb, and your heart leaps as he does the same. Although you swear you can feel the weight of Violetâs stare as you do so.
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